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GOD I NEED TO EARN MONEY TO GET OUT OF THIS HELL. I have asked you day after day after day, I have searched, I have poured over countless stuff online because I live in such a remote area, have no car, and can't drive. I am sick of being a mockery. Money is killing my faith, my poverty, my homelessness, the abuse and mistreatment of my family, and all You have shown me is that You're ignoring my pleas for an extremely small amount of income so I can go and live on my own in a modest humble way. I'm ASKING, I'm KNOCKING, I'm BEGGING. Why are You ignoring me? Why are You leaving me behind to waste time, and letting my soul turn black? I can't stand this. Its killing my relationship with You to be so incredibly poor, and stuck in a house where I am consistently abused, and targeted for abuse. I'm 24 years old, and an embarrassment. I have no friends left, because You took them away. I have no 'family', really, only one that I am close to. I am picking things out of garbage cans, Lord. I can't live this way. I need an income, now, Yahweh, God, show Your mercy, and live up to Your promises, in the name of Jesus Christ, and the truth of His words. Its time to show me that You make good on Your promises, that when I ask You answer, when I knock You open the door. If the door remains closed, I will harden up and become dead to You. I already feel largely dead. I NEED A WAY TO MAKE INCOME NOW, GOD. There are NO jobs in this small town, literally 3 places to work, none of which I can even get to, and of them none of which I will work at even if they were hiring. I won't slave with a man who called me a **** who he hopes swallows at a factory, (one of the jobs), I won't work with a woman who made fun of me because I was on welfare for food (another one of the jobs), and the third job is at a local pizza place and I doubt if they would hire me at all. I NEED ANOTHER WAY TO MAKE AN INCOME. I have nothing. Jesus Christ, this is where my faith in You has come to a dead end. If You won't help me here, when You promised You would provide much more than what I need on earth in the book of Matthew, when You said all I had to do was pray and ask, and now its been YEARS and MONTHS with trials and tribulations in between of being persecuted, mistreated, physically abused, etc. Help me. I need to be able to get out of this place within a month, and I need to be able to make money within a couple a couple of weeks. In Jesus Christ name, let this finally be. If you're praying for this, pray hard. I can't stay here, and I am in tears. This place is a complete hell, and you have to believe me. Ask Jesus for me to make provision, small humble meek provision, that I can make enough to finally get out of here. Please. Amen in Jesus name.
