PDX-Christian
Disciple of Prayer
God has to hate me.
I'm a Christian and I'm far far far from perfect, but I try to do the right things.
For weeks I've been praying for a relationship that ended between me and my best friend. Finally yesterday we were able to talk. It wasnt easy. I had to endure a lot, some of it deserved, some not.
LaSt night I went to bed praying again and reading the bible. I was thankful that we could at least talk. I did the same this morning. Less than 2 minutes later I got my response... a ton of text messages telling me how bad I am when I didn't deserve it. I didn't do anything more than pray. I feel like Jesus heard my prayer and spit in my face. I'm beyond heartbroken, not just from my friend but also from the results of my diligent prayer. How can God not be telling me to go away for good?
I'm a Christian and I'm far far far from perfect, but I try to do the right things.
For weeks I've been praying for a relationship that ended between me and my best friend. Finally yesterday we were able to talk. It wasnt easy. I had to endure a lot, some of it deserved, some not.
LaSt night I went to bed praying again and reading the bible. I was thankful that we could at least talk. I did the same this morning. Less than 2 minutes later I got my response... a ton of text messages telling me how bad I am when I didn't deserve it. I didn't do anything more than pray. I feel like Jesus heard my prayer and spit in my face. I'm beyond heartbroken, not just from my friend but also from the results of my diligent prayer. How can God not be telling me to go away for good?

