Girl Trouble

For the past eight years I have been praying for God to bring the women who is to be my future bride into my life. I have wanted a girlfriend since the I got rejected by my first crush in middle school. I remember coming home and telling my parents about it, and just balling. I remember my step father embracing me in his arms and assuring me that when it was time God would bring a Godly women into my life would be a good friend. Ever since that day I have been asking for that special girl. Every girl I have asked on a date between then and now has shot me down. I have had a few say yes though, but somthing always happens and we never meet up, mostly because of bad communication. For the past year and a half I been attending a singles group at my church hoping that somewhere along the way I would meet that special girl I asked for and have been asking for, and crying myself to sleep over. For a while I got so desperate to make a connection that I had an imaginary girlfriend. That worked until I realized how useless it was, because it was not real. Now to the present I met a girl that I would really like to get to know and eventully ask out on a date, but I don't thingk she likes me. We talk every now and again but, my problem is I have developed a huge crush on her. So much so that I'm losing sleep over it. I can't stop thinking about her. It's the closest I've come to having a relationship with a girl I have had since high school. I want to just accept the facts that she just not interested in me but, I don't want to let the chance I have slip though my fingers. I have asked God for spiritual guidence but I'm not getting a clear answer. I have autism so it makes it hard for me to socialize at all. I just want this so bad that I'm having trouble moving on. I am scared to death that if this person is the one that God chose for me that I will miss it and never get that chance again. I'm scared to death I'm not gonna ever find her at all. I'm scared that if I move on I'll make a mistake and miss out on what God really had planned for me. I'm scared to death right now because I don't know what I should do. I don't know if I should take the risk and go though the heart break of let God provide the right oppertunity or what. I guess I'm just too much of a coward. God does not reward cowards. I was told once I had to be assertive and take what I want if I want it. I don't think God want's that though. I'm so confused. What's wrong with me? Why did God have to make me such a wall flower? I really don't know what to do. I wish God would give me an answer.

 

[LouisianaLady]

I pray that you find love, peace, and happiness. Amen

 

[Khadeja]

Psalm37:4 Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew6:33 but seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. READ THE BOOK "UNSTOPPABLE by: Nick Vujicic . it will help.