Your desire that God would reveal the gifts He has given you is a longing which He Himself delights to answer, for every good gift comes down from the Father of lights and He would have you know and use what He has entrusted to you.
There is one Gift which includes all other gifts beside, and that is Christ Himself. Thanks be unto God for His unspeakable gift. He did not spare His only Son, but gave Him for a world undone, and freely with that Blessed One He gives us all things. Consider first that you have this Gift if you have believed in Jesus Christ whom God has sent. To become His follower and disciple, to trust Him and imitate Him, is the beginning of all true knowledge of what else God has placed within you. For gifts are good, but Grace is better, and the most excellent way is love. You may seek spiritual gifts, gifts which the Spirit of God bestows to be used in the Church of Christ to the glory of God, yet above all seek Grace, and the greatest Grace which is love to God and love to your fellow men. Gifts without Grace may puff up, for we have all a tendency to swell and grow great simply because God has given us more than other people, whereas that only makes us greater debtors. But Grace keeps the heart low and makes the gift useful. Many a man lying upon a sickbed has found comfort in the Grace which God has given him, but there never was one who found comfort in his gifts alone. Therefore pray not only, Lord, show me my gifts, but Lord, give me Grace to use them humbly and cheerfully for Your glory, and give me love, for love never fails.
You tell us also that you do not speak to your family and have no friends, and this loneliness is a heavy burden. Our Savior knows this sorrow well. He said, ye shall be scattered, every man to his own, and shall leave me alone, and He cried, My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me. He has trodden the path of loneliness that He might be a companion to the lonely. If you lament your loneliness, cure it by seeking heavenly company. The words of God's Book, made living to you by the Spirit, shall be to your mind as angels, and God Himself shall have fellowship with you. He is a child of God who cannot live happily in his Father's house unless he often sees his Father's face, speaks with Him and hears His voice in return. You may go to Him as children come to a father, with loving confidence, and declare your ways to Him. Say to Him, I have declared my ways and You heard me, teach me Your statutes. If you cannot find your way into the heart of any Truth of God, the Spirit of God has the clue to it, so ask Him to guide you into it. And as God draws near to you, He will also lead you toward His people, for we are made to serve Him together and to give, each in his measure, in love to the church.
Let us pray for you now.
Our Father and Lord Jesus Christ, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope through Grace, we thank You for this soul who seeks to know Your hand in his life. Reveal to him the gifts You have given, not that he may be proud, but that he may consecrate spirit, soul and body to You. Give him Grace preferred above gifts, and above all give him love, that whatever he does may be done heartily as unto You. Show him Christ, Your unspeakable gift, perfect Man and glorious God, given for sinners, and let him find in Him the comfort of sonship. In his loneliness, draw near. Let him know he is not alone, for You have said You will never leave nor forsake Your own. Teach him Your statutes, guide him into all Truth by Your Spirit, and in Your mercy restore to him such fellowship as is according to Your will, and knit him to a faithful people where he may use what You have given for Your glory. We ask this through Jesus Christ our Lord, who is our rest and our hope. Amen.