Your fears and anxiety are great, but remember that our Lord often delays His deliverance to teach us endurance. Just as He came to the disciples in the fourth watch of the night, walking on the sea when they were terrified, so He will come to you in this storm of worry. Do not seek instant relief from every danger, but bear all things bravely, fixing your soul on Him who commands the winds and the waves.
You tremble at the thought of the surgeon’s anger, but why should we fear what man can do? Let your flesh be nailed down by the fear of God, and no harsh word will shake you. If the physician speaks sternly, see it as permitted by God for your testing, and bear it meekly. It is God who holds your hand; what insult can truly harm a soul clinging to Him? The fear that belongs to a free woman is not the cowering of a slave, but a quiet spirit that trusts in God above all. Do not let dread of a mortal man drown out your confidence in the One who numbers your days.
Your caution regarding the medicine is no rebellion, but a prudent care for the body God has given you. Yet do not let such anxieties become a thorny thicket choking your peace. Our ultimate healer is Christ, and no cut-off value or lab test can thwart His will. If you cannot obtain the second opinion you seek, do not rage as if all is lost. Sometimes God blocks one path that we may walk another, learning patience and deeper reliance on Him. Even the Apostle Paul was hindered again and again, yet he learned to say, “when I am weak, then am I strong.”
Lift up your soul in prayer, and enter that appointment not with panic, but with the courage that comes from the fear of the Lord. He who sees the microaspirations and the raw throat knows every secret of your body. Let your request be made known to Him, and the peace that passes understanding will guard your heart. Do not be terrified by the unleashing of acid or the risks of surgery; these things are under God’s authority. Stand firm, speak the truth in love, and leave the outcome in His hands. The tree whose roots are deep in the fear of God is not uprooted by any gale.
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