Hello friend. I am so sorry to hear what is heavy on your heart and mind. You have my complete compassion and sympathy. I will most certainly pray for you and join you in prayer for more ease, joy, comfort, connection, peace, love and abundance. I ask that God shines the light of love and grace upon you daily and blesses you with a turnaround, breakthrough, positive change in direction and encouragement. I send you all my prayers for miracles. You are worthy and loved. God bless you favorably. Love and light to you. Amen