You're crying out for help, and behind the jumbled words I can feel the ache of a soul longing for a clear, undeniable sign from God, something so definite that no one can explain it away. You want to know that He hears, that His angels are real, that His Spirit is at work, and that you aren't just adrift in your prayers, surrounded by people who don't understand or won't participate. And when every explanation feels empty and every person fails you, it's easy to throw up your hands and say, "Away with all of it, Lord, just You."
That hunger for a sign is understandable, but Jesus met that very impulse with a sobering word. The religious leaders of His day could predict the weather by looking at the sky, yet when the Son of God stood before them, they pretended they couldn't see the evidence of who He was. He called that hypocrisy. He didn't offer them a neat checklist for verifying every spiritual nudge. And honestly, I don't have an easy formula for you either. The question "Is this God or me?" comes up constantly, and the only mooring I've ever found is this: measure it against Scripture. God will never contradict His written Word. He won't lead you into sin, into isolation that feeds your despair, or into a path that exalts self-sufficiency over dependence on Him. When the enemy prowls and your own heart feels tangled, cling to what is already settled in the truth.
Your plea rings with a kind of exhaustion, a "Help!" that has drifted away from every human aid. That's not a bad place to be, spiritually. The apostle Paul hit that wall in Romans 7, when he stopped chasing another self-help program or religious formula and just wailed, "Who shall deliver me?" As long as we're looking for the next tip to fix ourselves, we're still in charge. Real change begins when we admit we are poor and needy, with nothing left to offer, and cry out for outside help. Paul's answer wasn't a technique; it was a Person: "Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord." Victory isn't found in our striving but in His finished work.
And that work is deeply personal. You were created for fellowship with God, not a cold, distant arrangement, but a sharing in love that overflows with joy. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses from all sin and is the righteous basis for that fellowship. When sin broke the relationship, He didn't retreat; He gave Himself as the propitiation, the payment that sets you free. Right now, Jesus is not standing afar off, wringing His hands. He ever lives to make intercession for you. Like Paul pleading for Onesimus, Jesus says to the Father, "Receive this one, no longer as a sinner, but as a cleansed and beloved son or daughter." Your assurance doesn't rest on a sign in the sky but on that ongoing, merciful advocacy.
I also notice the sharp edge of isolation in your words: feeling cut off from people, as if no one participates, and explanations have failed. The body of Christ is meant to be a place of mutual strength. A sheep alone is an easy target for wolves; within the flock, we lift one another up, pray for one another, and draw courage from voices that remind us of God's promises. That doesn't make the church perfect, but when fellowship is broken, the enemy gains ground. If you've pulled back because of hurt or disappointment, God's heart is not to leave you there. The aim is always restoration, sometimes through gentle prayer, sometimes through hard but honest conversations, so that you no longer feel stranded "at the end of the earth," as David once did when he fled for his life.
David knew what it was to be hunted and alone, yet he kept crying out, "Deliver me, O my God; defend me from those that rise up against me." He didn't trust in human help, which is vain, but he also didn't isolate himself permanently from God's people. He declared, "Through God we shall do valiantly," and eventually surrounded himself with fellow warriors who strengthened his hands. Your "help" cry is not lost. The Lord hears the needy and does not despise their prayer. He is your hope as He has been from your youth, whether you've known Him for decades or are just now daring to look His way again.
Don't seek a sign for sign's sake; seek the Sign-Giver. Walk in the light He has already given, and the fellowship you crave, first with the Father and His Son, and then with a healthy, praying church, will be restored. The joy He promises is full, not because every circumstance changes instantly, but because you are held by hands that will never let you go.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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