empy, lonely, walking in hell here on Earth

[Johnsstarry sky]

I told you Mom passed on January 12th in my arms, it's been nothing but devastation for my life and my soul ever since!!!! Nothing is the same, I sleep in Mom's bed, on the pillow she died on, I sleep with ashes near my side. I fight with my partner and tell him I'm over him and the life we have!!! I've told him I'm not looking for a job because I hate this city and I hate its people!!!! I'm strong for my dogs, my best friends, but even then they see me cry so hard I fall to my knees. I take 14mg of ativan hoping it will just put me to sleep but it doesn't, every night I up it to hopefully I get to the one of no return!!!! I don't have a dollar to my name and if I did, I would pack up all of Mom's stuff and mine and me and the kids would be gone, we would be renting a country house out in the midwest with gravel roads and no traffic. But Mom is gone, Dad is gone and they were the only two I could rely on to help me if I needed it. If God wanted me in hell, then He should have killed me, because I'm already in hell right here on Earth!!!!! And I'm over it, I want out, I want to come home, I want my Dad, my Mom and all my past animals, kids, I just want to go home where I belong, I don't belong here anymore. Trust me, there's nothing I can do here for God or anyone!!!!! I'm not smart, I'm not rich; I'm lonely, empty and my soul and heart has been beaten to hell!!!! If God really is there, then He will take me home, where I want to be, where I want to feel the love and the understanding and the arms and the tears and the warmth of those who truly love me and understand me. This is not living, this is slowly rotting to death.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[Anonymous]

YOU NEED TIME TO GRIEVE, BUT AT SOME POINT YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO RELEASE THIS OVER TO THE LORD BECAUSE HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN HELP YOU. TIME NEVER EASES THE PAIN OF A LOST LOVED ONE, BUT WE LEARN TO COPE WITH THE LORD'S HELP. I PRAY THAT YOU WILL CALL OUT TO THE LORD AND RELEASE TO HIM ALL THE HURT AND PAIN THAT YOU ARE FEELING.

 

[ellie12]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name honor your prayer request according to God's perfect love, timing, will, wisdom, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus. Amen!



It is Time to Pray: God I ask You in Jesus’ name that You will bless me with the desires of my heart that is the will of God for my life and the will of God for those I pray for. Bless me to prosper, be in excellent health, and bless my soul to prosper in the Word of God. Bless and strengthen me to live my life to please You. Lead, guide, and direct the words that I speak and my footsteps daily. Bless me to keep my focus on You, dream the dreams of God, see those dreams come to reality, and fulfill the purpose You created me for. Bless me to be a wise steward over all that You bless me with. Deliver me from anything that is in my life that is not of You. Let the favor, love, righteousness, peace, and wisdom of God rest upon my life. God teach me how to have Faith in You, Your Word, and Trust You unconditionally in every season of my life, with the sure knowledge that You are always there with me and for me. Be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me ever prosper. Protect me from all hurt, harm, danger, and the plans of the enemy of my soul. Defeat my enemies, cause them to stumble, fail, and be greatly ashamed. God all I have asked of You in this prayer, do the same for the writer of this prayer, all those I love, and care about. God forever honor this prayer over all our lives. Thank You Lord Jesus. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.

 

[Wordlover]

I prayed for you. Be Strong in the Lord.

 

[The Encourager]