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Humble Servant
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Dont know what else to do, god seems to be answering the prayers of people and ignoring mine, i am tired now with all the hopes and trying to build a positive attitude, i have begin to feel its just like a way to convince my self that something better is instore for me. but not am done thinking about it in tjose terms. I ask God for a job that i can do well and understand i ask to be blessed with a perm job so that i can feel independent and not like a burden, i ask a life of dignity. but nothing in my favour till date its been a year and no perm job, my 6 mnths contract ended in june and am jobless, i pray everyday for god to listen to my prayer, but only see how others are blessed, i feel god doesnt feel i deserve a good decent job, and i have to struggle for life of self esteem, may be thats what he plans for me, to live like that, if those are the plans i dont want to continue living like this and put myself through all the tortue and depression and frustration everysingle day. take me to a place where i can be free and not have to think am worthless. a place in heaven would be nice, but not on earth not like this. AMEN
