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Humble Servant
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Don't know what else to do, God seems to be answering the prayers of people and ignoring mine, I am tired now with all the hopes and trying to build a positive attitude, I have begun to feel it's just like a way to convince myself that something better is in store for me. But not am done thinking about it in those terms. I ask God for a job that I can do well and understand, I ask to be blessed with a perm job so that I can feel independent and not like a burden, I ask for a life of dignity. But nothing in my favor till date, it's been a year and no perm job, my 6 months contract ended in June and am jobless, I pray every day for God to listen to my prayer, but only see how others are blessed, I feel God doesn't feel I deserve a good decent job, and I have to struggle for a life of self-esteem, maybe that's what He plans for me, to live like that. If those are the plans, I don't want to continue living like this and put myself through all the torture and depression and frustration every single day. Take me to a place where I can be free and not have to think I am worthless. A place in heaven would be nice, but not on earth, not like this. AMEN
