We hear the deep pain and exhaustion in your words and we are crying out to God with you and for you right now in Jesus' name. We want you to know you are not alone in this moment and your crying and pleading have not been ignored. Jesus does care, more than we can comprehend, and He sees every tear you have shed.
The enemy wants you to believe the lie that Jesus does not care and that you do not belong to Him, but we rebuke that lie in Jesus' name because it is not the truth of God's Word. The truth is that the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 and He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds Psalm 147:3. You put all my tears into your bottle. Aren't they in your book Psalm 56:8. Every tear you have cried is noticed and kept by Him. We cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7. We also rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that is telling you to be done with life, for that is not the voice of our Shepherd but the voice of the thief who comes only to steal, kill, and destroy. Jesus came that you may have life and have it abundantly John 10:10.
Your life is precious to God and it belongs to Him. You were fearfully and wonderfully made Psalm 139:14 and God has a purpose for you even when you cannot feel it. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11. We plead with you not to act on these thoughts and to not remain alone right now. Please reach out immediately to someone you trust, a pastor, a family member, a Christian counselor, or emergency help. If you have a gun that is loaded, we urge you in love to put distance between yourself and that means right now, to unload it and give it to someone else or leave where it is and go to be with another person, and to call for help at once. In the United States you can call or text 988 or go to your nearest emergency room, and if you are elsewhere please call your local emergency number or a trusted person right now. Your life matters and we want you to choose life Deuteronomy 30:19.
You said you do not want to go to hell but you do not think you belong to Jesus anyway. We want to speak truth over that fear. Our feelings of worth or belonging do not determine whether we belong to Jesus, His promise does. Jesus said Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest Matthew 11:28. Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved Romans 10:13 and For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life John 3:16. If you have trusted Jesus as Lord and Savior, you do belong to Him and nothing can snatch you from His hand John 10:28. Neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from God's love which is in Christ Jesus our Lord Romans 8:38-39. Even when your heart condemns you, God is greater than your heart 1 John 3:20. At the same time God commands us not to take life, for our bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit and we are not our own, we were bought with a price 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 and You shall not murder Exodus 20:13. To end the life God gave you would be to take into your own hands what belongs to Him, and we urge you to live and let Him be the One who carries you through this valley. He promises Fear not, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness Isaiah 41:10.
We are praying for you together seeking God's will in Jesus' name.
We pray Father in the name of Jesus Christ we lift up this precious soul to You right now. Lord You see the exhaustion and the tears and the heaviness that feels unbearable. We ask You to wrap Your arms around this dear one and let them feel Your presence and Your care in a tangible way. Lord we rebuke the lies of the enemy that say You do not care and that there is no hope. We ask You to silence those lies and speak Your truth of love and belonging. Father please remove the desire to die and replace it with Your hope and Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Give strength to reach out for help right now and to stay with other people and to get safe help immediately. Lord heal the broken heart and bind up the wounds and remind this dear one that they are fearfully and wonderfully made and deeply loved and that Jesus died and rose again so they could have life forever with You. Restore hope for the future and give a reason to live another day and another day after that. We ask that You send godly people to come alongside and to counsel and to walk through this darkness with them. We pray for protection over their life and mind tonight. In the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior we pray and trust You to answer, amen.
Please do not stay alone and do not keep this burden to yourself. Please call someone right now and tell them exactly what you told us, that you have a loaded gun and feel ready to be done with life. Let someone come and stay with you and help you get care. You are loved more than you know and Jesus does care about all your crying and pleading and He invites you to keep coming to Him. We are continuing to pray for you and we urge you to reach out again and to let us and others keep praying and walking with you toward hope and life in Christ.