Does God Truly Exist?

[castro]

Am now 29yrs old, ever since I turned 25yrs I have been going through spiritual trials and confusion about whether God exists. I have been raised in a Christian family, went to church but stopped going since nothing makes sense anymore. I have friends all over the world and once in a conversation I asked a couple of my friends if they believed in God, the response I got was "I don't believe in things I don't see." I was shocked and amazed how someone would say something like that, but after a while I looked at all the happiness and wealth in their lives and I wondered, what if it were true! Why is it that I believe in God yet I know try to believe that He is there, and His son died for our sins, but why is it that I cannot get what my heart desires? I was once told that God gave us free will, ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find and knock and the door shall be answered, well I have tried that but end up getting more confused than before. I am supposed to believe that God created the world, created us from mud, split the Red Sea into two for the Israelites to cross, Jesus walked on water, He rose the dead, gave sight to the blind and lots and lots of miraculous deeds that happened in the Holy Bible. I am supposed to tell my problems how big my God is! and all those things that the believers I know tell me, but sincerely nothing happens. Why is it that I was given free will yet I cannot have God answer my prayers regardless whether I kneel down to pray, shed tears or have faith, none of us can prove what happened in the Bible is true! because none of us were there? Some of the things are scientifically impossible yet asking God to do such small things never happens. I have clung on to the Faith and the teachings I was taught in church "Sunday school" but now as an adult I can't help but wonder is this really true! Why would God make Job suffer just to prove a point to Satan???? If I ask God for something am told am testing Him!!!!! if I pray for something it doesn't happen and am told it is not God's will?? then why was I given free will??? I ended up converting to Islam then just stopped believing in religion. If I lie, fornicate or commit sins it takes only a day or week for me to get punished and I mean things just go from bad to worse, but if I repent and just try all I can to keep away from sin nothing happens. Was once told that to God 1 day is like a thousand years???? Does that even make sense? We are human beings and God knows that. Last week I had those nights when I feel like I am dying and I felt like I was in the deepest sleep and these evil spirits keep coming to me in my sleep and I end up not sleeping at all. I know by now you may think I am probably mad? but believe me I have some weird and scary dreams that I just end up thinking that God is punishing me for not believing in Him. Look, I see people in Asia and lots of other places in the world who worship idols, yet their lives are remarkably okay. I just don't know if I am up to this anymore, and I am now afraid because of what is going to happen to me for writing this and doubting Him. I just wish that I would believe and worship God because I want to, love Him and choose to, but not be scared of Him, or suffer for not doing so, and when I pray God answers and sincerely I will do anything and give everything to live according to His will. Thanx folks for your time and any non-confusing responses out there, much appreciated.

 

[WANYOIKE]

With Jesus in the vessel we can smile at storm

 

[Ezekiel Simon]

Dear brother, Can You See Wind... the air the you breathe... You just feel, its all about feeling the presence, the more you feel you enjoy it, you create a new world around you the world with so much of peace around you, you are humbled so you be respected, what is wealth with arrogance all about, you can feel GOD in everything you do.... Judging your deeds, making this impossible - possible, being confident, being helpful to others these are all inner strength, where does moral support come from - its a GOD's Blessing in Disguise... Trust GOD - Be Helpful, Be Truthful - You will feel his presence in everything you do....

"The Just shall live by Faith" Habakkuk 2:4 - AMEN

 

[BJG]

God is the only real thing that exists and He loves you very much. I pray that you have peace and renewed faith in God the Father, Jesus, the Son and the Holy Spirit and that you will be blessed in a great and mighty way by angels sent to protect you and counsel you.