innominata
Humble Prayer Partner
Been dealing with significant health issues for a long time. Doctors only guessing at this point. I cannot swallow food. (always feels like a squeezing in my throat) Living on liquids for 2 years. Depressed because of it. Getting weak. Taking acid blockers and supplements that should be helping. No relief at all.
Living on SSDI. Been praying day and night for healing. For financial blessings (need about $25K to pay bills, have repairs etc on my home and need to replace old vehicle)
Been praying for a few good friends and someone to date and marry.
I have asked others to pray. I feel like I got a small army praying. I've confessed my sins. I believe(d) but I will admit after all I've been through w no answers, my faith is shake? I cry out day and night. GOD WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU THERE? DO YOU EVEN CARE? I reach out to people. Even pastors in my little town have lied and played stupid games. WHY? People talk about me and make up lies. Some are supposedly such Christians. Ha.
The enemy torments me daily with thoughts of ending it all. People I need a miracle. I desperately need money to live. I need relief from the agony. I need God (if he's there) to do something in my life. Something SOON! I am losing hope. Faith is shaken and I don't like feeling or living this way.
The thought even crosses my mind IS GOD REAL? I am at the lowest point of my life. Gods word says to call out and he will deliver us. I haven't seen one thing in years from God. Can't remember the last time anything good happened. And yes, I have thanked God for things daily and more. But I am so low and I want this suffering to end. To say I need a miracle is an understatement.
Living on SSDI. Been praying day and night for healing. For financial blessings (need about $25K to pay bills, have repairs etc on my home and need to replace old vehicle)
Been praying for a few good friends and someone to date and marry.
I have asked others to pray. I feel like I got a small army praying. I've confessed my sins. I believe(d) but I will admit after all I've been through w no answers, my faith is shake? I cry out day and night. GOD WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU THERE? DO YOU EVEN CARE? I reach out to people. Even pastors in my little town have lied and played stupid games. WHY? People talk about me and make up lies. Some are supposedly such Christians. Ha.
The enemy torments me daily with thoughts of ending it all. People I need a miracle. I desperately need money to live. I need relief from the agony. I need God (if he's there) to do something in my life. Something SOON! I am losing hope. Faith is shaken and I don't like feeling or living this way.
The thought even crosses my mind IS GOD REAL? I am at the lowest point of my life. Gods word says to call out and he will deliver us. I haven't seen one thing in years from God. Can't remember the last time anything good happened. And yes, I have thanked God for things daily and more. But I am so low and I want this suffering to end. To say I need a miracle is an understatement.