My husband's mother ### at home who is not so well but owns a house in which me (###), my husband (###), and my 12 year old son (###) stay together with her in her house...she has high influence on my husband and my son don't even talk to me in a respectful manner rather three of them think it's ok if you would be not there in our lives. They all are non-believers and my husband and my son even wear evil eye thread in their necks. When I'm with them, I feel worried and lonely because I feel like I'm useless and of no value for them. Though I pray daily to Lord Jesus and bless them. Ask God to change me and change their behaviour and heart towards me. My mother-in-law doesn't talk good about me with my son and so my son does not treat me nicely and doesn't sit with me and talk, but still I pray for her, but I feel shattered and broken. My husband earns well and my son goes to missionary Christian school but still doesn't believe in God. My husband's business partner is female who is moreover like a boss over him. Her name is ###. She is Christian but neither she prays nor goes to church. She is another reason of my fear and insecurity in life... My husband says she is like an elder sister to him but she also tries to influence him all the time and pretends to be what in actual life she is not, I mean she always talks to my husband with respect and gracefully and doesn't do any work in the guest house which they own together, in fact, it's my husband who is doing everything because he knows laws also and the property has a legal case over it so my husband has to look after everything from bills to staff payment from building maintenance to its construction, each and every requirement, and that lady only enjoys the benefits from all of it. So it's like neither at home nor outside in his business I don't find a place for myself... He thinks I don't have a brain, I'm nothing as I don't own anything, not any building nor house... I don't have anything to give him anything rather he feels he feeds me and it's because of his hard work I'm living a comfortable life. He says whatever comes in his mind... in a very inappropriate manner... I cry, cry, and cry in front of Lord... According to him, I have everything, what more should I ask for... but Lord, I don't have a happy family who laughs together, eats together, I'm lonely inside, that's the reason I started drinking wine one year back... and now I drink daily. My husband doesn't know about it, but I want to quit, please help save my family, my marriage, our relations with each other become strong and give us a heart that's full of compassion, love, care, respect towards each other. I wanted to have a second baby but he declined... I wear what he likes and try to talk to him in a respectful way but sometimes I lose it all... God, please make me more tolerant and patient to deal with all these. I'm lost and aimless right now in my life... please ask to give me strength and hope and aim. I was a teacher but I left my job because I was not at ease and used to feel restless all the time, please please help me and pray for me... I feel jealous and angry towards my mother and my husband's business partner but I ask God to change me daily and make the person He wants me to become.
