Deep Depression.need Prayer.

[credwi88]

Please pray for me, my name is Chrissy.i am in a deep depression . I don't want to live anymore.-I would never, ever, kill myself.i have a wonderful son, and a precious 4 month old grand baby. I would never do that. But I don't want to live anymore.i pray every day that Jesus would please hurry and come back.

It would take too long to tell all the reasons.my life has been one tragedy after another for 28 years.i just can't take it anymore.i have tried so hard to be a good person but things keep getting worse and worse.ive been in a horrible marriage for 28 years. I raised 3 boys by myself because he was never at home.my oldest son started a 5-year long excruciating,slow,awful, descent into heart failure when he was 16.i had to watch him disintegrate,suffer,and die.while still taking care of the other 2.my husband has been continually cruel to all of us for 28 years.i tried  and tried so hard to be a good wife.i found out 4mos ago that he had a passionate love affair for the past 11mos with a 25-yr old girl. He's 50. it shattered my world into a million pieces. just after I finally slowly came out of the grief and anguish of watching my son die.i was finally starting to live again.like I said, it's too many tragedies to even list, but basically, for 28 years I keep getting knocked to the ground by tragedies,and each time I try as hard as I can to recover from it,and just when things get a tiny bit better, another one hits.each one leaves me weaker and weaker.i have no strength left.im exhausted,depressed,lonely,scared,sometimes the pain just makes me go numb, and I can't even cry.i don't have someone to love me and now I'm all by myself.i can't try anymore.i have no idea what to do.my body hurts, my emotions have been shattered, I'm 47 and I feel like a sick, dying, 96 year old person.i used to be happy, optimistic, talkative, now I feel like all the life has been gradually sucked out of me.i can't try anymore.i don't even have the strength to know what to do next.please pray for me. I need help. I'm so lonely it's horrible. I don't even want to try again to get back up.i know as soon as I do some other horrible thing will knock me down again.ive never felt this hurt and rejected.i tried do hard to make him love me and our kids.he acted like he hated us. Then he just decides to go off with a 25yr old, and give her tons of affection, kindness, talking and giving gifts and telling her constantly that she's the love of his life, etc (I've read the emails.) I    

thought he was mean to us for so long that he was incapable of showing love or kindness or even being around, maybe he was damaged or something and I just accepted the fact that I had a horrible marriage and just live with it. But to find out that he is giving her all the things I wanted,needed,prayed for, begged for, for 28years-friendship,  love, caring, giving presents and talking to her about everything, -all the things I needed, he never talked to me,treated us like we were invisible, -no he's being loving,attentive, kind, etc. to her- it just hurts too much to even explain. He wasn't incapable of giving love, now he's giving her everything that I desperately needed, I cant even make sense of it all. And it's not like he just loves her because it's all fun & happy & he can escape responsibility, -he wants to marry her, have a bunch of kids with her, work to support her, he even said he would work2 jobs if he has to, he just loves her so much, he says she's his soulmate, -I thought he loved me and was just a mean person, I can't make sense of it. Now I'm alone, nobody to love me, care for me, or even to talk to. 

sorry I didn't mean to write so long, nobody I know understands how painful this is, and the few people who do care about me, 

they just want me to leave him, 'be strong' get on with life, -they don't understand that I just don't have any more strength, I just want to hurry up and go to heaven, I can't go through grieving & pain anymore. 

I'm sorry for going on and on, i feel like im going crazy. Please pray for me. Thank you.

 

[3Nathansalways]

Father I ask that you hold Chrissy right now fill her with your love and let her know she is your daughter and you care. Father help her to realize even amidst her pain you have a plan. I pray that you will make a way for her, provide for her needs, bless her and her children and change her husband save him and renew him. Lord hear our prayer. AMEN

 

[The Encourager]

I have asked God to honor your prayer request. May God bless You with the desires of your heart that is the will of God for your life.

Let’s Pray: God I ask in Jesus’ name, “Help me to keep my focus on You. Bless and Encourage me to always be about achieving my God given goals and dreams. God help me to keep my attitude right. May I always have, “I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthen me attitude.†Strengthen me Lord Jesus to never give up on or abort my goals and dreams that You have placed within my heart. No matter how much it will cost me. No matter how dark the night, no matter how uncomfortable I may get, help me and cause me to see my goals and dreams come to reality. Help me fight the good fight of faith. Don’t let me allow the devil or anyone else to kill, steal, or destroy the plans that You have for my life. Let me celebrate in You God because of You as I go about achieving what You have blessed, called, and chosen for me to do in You and for You. Place men, women, and children of God in my life who really care about me to pray for me and help me achieve my God given dreams and goals. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer please do the same for the writer and all those I love and care about.

Encourager Linda Flagg, LM, CS

Christian Life Coach & Youth Minister

 

[anointedservant777]

Father I come before you in the name of Jesus on behalf of Chrissy. Father, only You know the hardships that she has had to face. You know her heartache and disapointments. You have known her even before she was in her mothers womb. I pray that she receives the word of the Lord which says "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest-Mat 11:28

I pray that Chrissy may not grow weary in doing good. That she may be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. For You have not given us a spirit of fear or timidity but of power, love and of a sound mind. Father let any spirit of heaviness or advasary in the spiritual realm trying to oppress your daughter be cast away by your power in the beloved name of Jesus. No weapon forged against Chrissy shall prosper. I confess this in the name of Him who is the Alpha and Omega. Amen

This is the word of the Lord for you "And the LORD, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed-Deu 31:8 "Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand-Isa 41:10....

 

[evette]

Chrissy, I pray that after you're all cried out, you get back to reality. You are a wonderful child of God. God does not want us to stay in a self destructive pity party. You are royalty, in Christ. You lift your head high. You have got to realize that you are not alone. Allow GOD to be your Comforter,Healer, Provider, Friend, and true SOUL MATE. Let HIM mentor and mend your broken spirit.HE loves you so much. You have got to dig deep beyond the pain and betrayal and find the strength that GOD has given you to know you deserve better and move on with your life.Don't you know God wants better for you than the hell you've been living in for the past 28 years? It was your choice to stay all those years. Don't beat yourself up about it. And don't kid yourself into believing that this man is being "everything" to this new lady. He is lost, and so is she. How can he be everything to her? Their foundation is built on adultry, lies, and deceit. He married you, had children with you, built a home with you, but none of it completed him and only made you miserable. Unfortunately, he's trying to build something with this other woman that he will only find through Christ. This relationship won't last and he will not truly be happy. This man, the head of your home, has wronged you and your children. Until he makes it right in his heart with Christ first, then his family, peace will stay far from his doorsteps. His attitude and anger had nothing to do with you all these years. His attitude does not and should not have defined you. I want you to stay in prayer, hold your head high, Thank God for strength, hope, grace and mercy. Enjoy your family. Once you own your part in the process of where you've been and the choices you've made, you will be able to move forward!! I love you. Everything I've said, I've said with love and compassion in my heart.Your sister in Christ, Evette