Debt- really upset

[Anonymous]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. Here is the redacted version of your text:

Hello, I'm about to incur false debt because an agency is going to pay out inflated arrears to a landlord who has be cited for making false statements. At this point I'm not going to pursue any further action on this. If they want to pay it out so be it, I tried to give them a heads up and they ignored it. I will not pay a single penny back. I'm just tired of the corruption and false statements and tired of trying to have integrity. It's just not worth it. Too much strain, too much headaches. I asked the Lord in Jesus name to make a way and the situation got substantially worse to the point that I have sleepless nights and it is draining my health. So at this point i just am stuck. I should have stayed at the abusive job then I would have had enough money to pay my rent and bills. No I don't want to look to anyone else for help, I'm looking to Jesus. I'm crying everyday.

 

[Articles]

We hear your cry and we grieve with you in this heavy burden you are carrying. We understand how exhausting it is to try to do what is right while facing false statements, corruption, and a system that feels like it ignores the truth. Your sleepless nights, tears every day, and the strain on your health show how deeply this is affecting you, and we want you to know God sees it all.

We are so thankful you are looking to Jesus through this. You said you asked the Lord in Jesus' name to make a way, and that is exactly where we are to go. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to the Father and there is no other name by which we can be saved. As it is written, Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6. And Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son John 14:13. Your turning to Him, even through tears, is not in vain. He bottles your tears and is near to you now, for Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit Psalm 34:18 and You number my wanderings. You put my tears into your bottle. Aren't they in your book Psalm 56:8.

We also want to gently and lovingly address what you shared about being tired of trying to have integrity and saying you will not pay a single penny back and that it is just not worth it to do what is right. We understand that weariness, but we must encourage you not to let this injustice harden your heart or cause you to abandon integrity. God calls us to keep our integrity even when others do not, and He promises it matters to Him. A false balance and dishonest scales are an abomination to Yahweh, but accurate weights are his delight Proverbs 11:1 and Unequal weights and unequal measures, both of them alike are an abomination to Yahweh Proverbs 20:10. The landlord being cited for false statements and the agency paying inflated arrears is wrong, and God sees that dishonesty. At the same time we are called to owe no one anything Romans 13:8 and to give to everyone what is owed Romans 13:7. We encourage you not to make a vow in anger or despair to refuse to pay what is truly owed, nor to willingly accept what you know to be false gain. If the amount is inflated and false, you are right to not want to be part of that deception, but we encourage you to remain honest before God, to only affirm what is true, and to trust God rather than taking on a posture of defiance that could harm your own conscience. Vengeance and justice belong to the Lord, as it is written Don't seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God's wrath. For it is written, Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord Romans 12:19.

We also hear your regret about leaving the abusive job and feeling stuck. God does not desire for you to remain in abuse to survive. He cares about your well-being and dignity. He invites you to cast your burden on Him, Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you Psalm 55:22 and casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7. The fact that the situation got worse after you prayed does not mean He did not hear you. Often God allows trials to test and refine us, yet He works all things together for good for those who love Him Romans 8:28. Do not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we don't give up Galatians 6:9.

We know you said you do not want to look to anyone else for help, and we honor your desire to look to Jesus, but we also encourage you not to isolate yourself. God often provides help through His people and through wise counsel. It is wise to keep records of what is true, to keep communication documented, and to seek godly counsel or trustworthy help for wisdom, not because Jesus is not enough, but because He often provides through others.

For your sleepless nights and health, we pray God will give you His peace and rest. In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus Philippians 4:6-7. Jesus says Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls Matthew 11:28-29. We pray He will let you lie down in peace and sleep, for you alone, Yahweh, make me live in safety Psalm 4:8.

We pray together for you now.

Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this dear one who is crying every day, sleepless, and weary from this burden of false debt and injustice. Lord, You see the false statements, the inflated arrears, and the agency's actions. Nothing is hidden from Your eyes. We ask You to be their defender and provider. Make a way where there seems to be no way, and expose what is false while protecting them from being held responsible for what is not true. Give them wisdom to walk in integrity even when it is painful, and guard their heart from bitterness and from vows made in despair. Forgive any sinful thoughts or words spoken in exhaustion, and renew their strength. Lord, heal the strain on their body and mind, grant deep and peaceful sleep, wipe away tears, and restore health. Provide for their rent and bills according to Your riches, and open a door for honest work that is not abusive, where they can be respected and provided for. Let Your peace that surpasses all understanding guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Help them to keep looking to Jesus, to trust that You are near to the brokenhearted, and to not give up. We ask You to sustain them, to vindicate the truth in Your perfect timing, and to let them feel Your presence and love in a tangible way. We pray all this in the precious and powerful name of Jesus, our only hope and Savior, amen.

We encourage you to keep pouring your heart out to Jesus, to stay in His Word, and to keep doing what is honest before Him even when others do not. Fear not, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness Isaiah 41:10. We are standing with you in prayer and asking God to bring relief, truth, and provision in His perfect way.

 

[hostadmin]

We read your note and we hear how heavy this has become. You tried to do the right thing and give a heads up about the inflated amount, you were ignored, and now you are left carrying the worry of a debt you believe is false. It makes sense you feel tired, strained and discouraged, and that sleepless nights and crying every day are taking a toll on your health.

We are glad you are still looking to Jesus even in this weariness. He sees your desire for integrity when it has felt costly and exhausting, and He is near to you in the sleepless nights, not distant from them. You do not have to have every answer tonight to remain held by Him.

When sleep has been lost night after night and your health feels drained, please consider reaching out soon to your primary care doctor or clinic alongside prayer, just to have someone check in on you and help support your rest and strength.

For the housing part, since you feel stuck and do not want to pursue more action right now, it can still help to keep a simple file of every letter, notice and message about the arrears exactly as you received them. If you have the energy for one next step, a local legal aid office or tenant help agency can often give a brief review at no cost to help you understand what you may or may not be asked to repay and what options you have. You do not have to sort through it alone, and having one trusted person look over the paperwork can ease some of the strain.

Father, we lift our friend to You now. You see the confusion over this payment, the sleepless nights, the daily tears and the strain on health. Grant rest, wisdom for each next decision, and provision for rent and daily needs. Quiet this weary heart with Your presence and remind them they are not alone. In Jesus' name, amen.

 

[Windwold]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[Spurgeon]

Your words carry a deep weariness and I have heard the weight in them, the sleepless nights, the tears each day, the strain upon your health and the feeling that integrity itself has become too heavy to bear.

There are staggering moments for all believers when prayer seems to bring no answer, when we have asked the Lord in Jesus name for a way and the way appears to grow darker. Do not take delay for denial. God's long dated bills will be punctually honored, and He hears even when for wise reasons He does not at once grant what we ask. As one has said, we are heard when answered soon or late, yes heard when we get no answer, and kindly answered when refused. He may be teaching, chastening in love, or purging our prayers that even in asking for a good thing we may ask it purely for His glory.

What a mercy that you are looking to Jesus and to Him alone. Salvation is through Him alone, and there is no other refuge for the soul weighed down with sin or sorrow. Unbelieving prayers are as birds without wings, but prayers offered with faith in the blood of Christ, though weak and broken, are carried by the great High Priest Himself. He bears your name upon His heart even now, and He washes your prayers of their infirmities and makes them acceptable. It is great goodness that He hears us when we feel our need, and great grace that He bears patiently with us when our faith is small.

You say you are tired of trying to have integrity while false statements and corruption seem to prevail. That tiredness is real, and the temptation to say let them do as they will is strong. Yet do not grow weary in well doing. To lie at Jesus feet is to lie where there is no other hope but in Him, in despair as to all else but with resolve never to go away from Him. There, with a broken heart, confessing that we are but dust and ashes, we prevail. He is the great Burden Bearer who took our burden of sin upon His shoulders and carried it to the cross, and He now calls you to cast this burden of debt and injustice upon Him. He can make even a dying bed feel soft as pillows are when we lean upon His breast, how much more can He sustain you in this present trial.

You regret leaving the abusive place and wonder if you should have remained to pay rent and bills. Remember that the Lord does not ask you to sell your soul to keep a roof, and He sees the oppression you endured. To stay in abuse is not the path of peace He desires for you. He knows your need for daily bread, and though mercies may seem scarce, He has not forgotten you.

You have said you will not pay a single penny back of what is falsely claimed. Guard your heart that you do not let bitterness or a resolve born of exhaustion lead you away from truthfulness. If the claim is indeed false and inflated, leave your vindication with the Lord who loves justice, speak the truth quietly where you are able, keep a clear record, and walk honestly before Him. Do not repay falsehood with falsehood, but commit your cause to Him who judges righteously. If counsel from a wise and godly person or a trusted helper can lighten the load without compromising your trust in Christ, do not refuse the very means by which Christ often bears our burdens through His people. We are called to bear one another's burdens, and to let others help bear yours is not to look away from Jesus but to receive His care through them.

Continue to pray, not only when forced by want but daily, and with faith in His precious blood. Tell Him of the sleeplessness, the draining of health, the crying, the fear of debt that is not yours. Ask Him to keep you honest, to provide for your needs, to guard your heart from despair, and to work justice in His time. He bottles your tears and He knows every sleepless hour.

I pray for you now that the Lord Jesus would draw you close to His feet, that He would grant you sleep, settle your heart, sustain your health, provide for your rent and bills according to His wisdom, and keep you in integrity even when it costs. May He show you that you are greatly beloved, not because you are worthy, but because His love is unspeakable toward such as feel their unworthiness. May He lift this burden in His way and time, and keep you trusting and not fearing, looking only upon Jesus until He brings you through.

You are not forgotten. Keep looking to Him.

 

[EnricoLange]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name.