sunnyspell
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Ministry Team! My prayer request is for my future husband. I am nearly 40y.o and have never been in a serious relationship. I feel like I'm missing on something seeing couples caring for each other and loving each other. Funny enough, I had encounter with Jesus at the age of 9 and since then I've been serving Him, following His guidance and lead. And now I'm just asking myself a question where did it all lead me to? To being on my own and lonely! I've heard many times of God being our lover, comforter and all this stuff, but with all respect we are still human beings, not spirits only and we need real person next to us, we need soul and flash connection, not only spiritual and this is the only one you can have with God. A year ago I met a man who I fell in love with. He seemed to have everything I always needed but it appeared that he may not be the one for me. I did everything to protect my heart from not falling for him, but it happened. I felt used by God as I felt like He wants me to minister to this man, so i did it in obedience rightly assuming that God has everything under control and I can be His vessel. I didn't expect to fall for him but since it happened I felt how beautiful it can be when two people care for each other and I miss this. I have void in my heart. I would like to get married, to settle down, to share my life with someone on a deepest spiritual, soul and physical level as I could experience a glimpse of it with this man, apart from physical part. I don't know how long I will have to wait for loving someone again, but this time with reciprocation. It is so hard and felt unfair while others are meeting their significant half at the age of 20, while I feel like I'm 20 years delayed! Why? Is it sth in me I need to improve? I really need God's guidance and I want Him to hurry up, if I can make such a request. I know God's timing is perfect but I'm not sure, if I can wait any longer. I just want to be happy in a loving and caring relationship with a man who is compatible with me so we can impact and enrich each other every day. I have prayed before for a future husband with a friend. We agreed our petition and I prayed for 100% in a man and here this man appeared in my door step becoming our lodger. He was exactly the 100% I prayed for but he did not reciprocate my feelings. He liked me and said that he never met such a woman before but he’s been hurt in the past and is afraid of relationship. He suggested to meet on few occasions but he cancelled the meeting in the last minute. I still have feelings for him. Nothing really changed and I did surrender him to God. What else can I do? Just wait, I guess....
