nice husband who I can marry fast and end my misery
Most people get married believing a myth that marriage is beautiful box full of all the things they have longed for; Companionship, intimacy, friendship etc ... The truth is, that marriage at the start is an empty box, you must put something in before you can take anything out. There is no love in marriage, love is in people, and people put love in marriage. There is no romance in marriage, you have to infuse it into your marriage. A couple must learn the art, and form the habit of giving, loving, serving, praising, of keeping the box full. If you take out more than you put in, the box will be empty.
What do you have to put into that marriage box? A marriage can simply be a continuation of misery.
they think that i am a good for nothing person
Who cares what people think, they usually do not think. You should be more concerned about and interested in what God thinks about you. God is the only One who sent someone to die for you, and for the whole world. If He loves you that much you should be finding out what He thinks of you. All God wants is for you to love Him back. People do stuff for others with a motive to get something in return. I guess you could say that God did that too when He sent Jesus to die for us. But who, which person/people wants you to be part of their family when they do something for you? God does want you into His family though, and wants to call you His child.
Wow! My daddy is the creator of everything seen and unseen. He must really think I am worthwhile.
The best way to change your circumstances around you and to have the people around you do some changing is found in this verse of the Bible, the Word.
Proverbs 4:20-23 (ASV)
20 My son, attend to my words; Incline thine ear unto my sayings.
21 Let them not depart from thine eyes; Keep them in the midst of thy heart.
22 For they are life unto those that find them, And health to all their flesh.
23 Keep thy heart with all diligence; For out of it are the issues of life.
You, your flesh, your family will all be affected if "you" will make Jesus and God your main focus in life. Read the Word daily, especially the New Testament. Read it, memorize passages, speak passages aloud, mediate on the Words you have read. Sing praise songs, worship the Lord, And love others around you. Love them like Jesus does and says to do. When you do these things the people around you, your family, shall change. Keep your focus on Jesus, the Father, and the Holy Spirit.
In the name of Jesus, I bless you with the life of God