jma4life
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Jesus, I pray to you for help in so many aspects of my life. Recently with the birth of my very very colicky twins I feel you are breaking me down due to my sins -- making things such a strain on the marriage you've given me, my work is not prospering, it's been almost 15 years now that I've gained weight up to 250lb plus... and I'm sexually sinning still so much.. it occupies my thoughts all the time. I waste the monies you give me... I am so frustrated from all the years now I've asked for your help.. I've almost become hopeless you even hear me. I have seen how I manipulate others for my own desire satisfactions.. I'm garbage surely. Yet, I still pray to you; still ask you for help and your grace. You still allow me to still stand alive -- with blessings of people around me.. I've sought you out on this site with other children of yours.. to pray in numbers for complete transformation of my life.. the twins are 6 weeks old now and we feel they hate us.. they cry with us only and rarely anyone else that holds them.. surely they since our anger with their countless hours of rage. I just take a moment to pause by letting it be known I still love you!
