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praysite-1714
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Dear god, please forgive me of all of my sins, helping me to see another day.thankyou for all the things you have done and are yet going to do. I need your help lord because I am miserable again. the man I thought cared about me dosen`t and it hurts so bad. I knew that last night If I lived I was going to have to wakeup again. wakeup to this pain and him not calling. I strongly believe his eyes is wondering and that maybe he used me. I want him to want me and love me again. Is there any chance of that happening or am I just as pathetic as I feel. I really don`t want to feel this pain. please bless me to move on for good and hopefully soon I will find someone else WAY better. someone who fits my criteria. alot of times I wakeup and I just don`t want to be alive. this is one of those days. sometimes I just wish I could kill over and then I wouldn`t have to feel any of this. things are not going good at all in my life. I feel noone loves me, my job has cut my hours to a paycheck that is impossible but I am still thankful for it, I`m worried about school, and I really am in need and want of a new car. all of this is painful because I can`t change too much of it.all I can do is pray to you. that soon you will have mercy on me and decide that she has had enough. I think whats killing me the most is the pain of loving someone once again who dosen`t love me. can`t you please restore him back. make him talk to me and see how much good I am to and for him. make him feel good about me again and want me. and help me lord because if I don`t get some relief soon... I know I always say something and never do it. but I really sometimes want to end my life so bad. i really see no reason for me being here anymore. I don`t want to go to hell! but I am going through it down here. please do something, please just don`t sit there in the mist of my agony and pain and just watch me. I need you lord.in jesus name I pray amen!
