Dear God..I love my son a lot but I wish to die now because I couldn't be the best mom. I couldn't give my son everything his heart wants and I couldn't give him a better home. I'M sorry for not being strong. I'M sorry for not holding on. Dear Lord, we are being tortured to death each day continually and I can't bear it anymore, especially seeing my son suffering and I'M helpless. I shouldn't be asking this; it shows I have no faith, but what do I do, Jesus? There is only so much one person can bear. Please give us a place in heaven, take us peacefully as I wish not to live anymore; it's too heartbreaking. Thank you, please pray for us.