Karun Tamizh
Disciple of Prayer
Dear brother/sister in Christ. Am a pre-medical student who's trying to grab a medical seat in a government college. I've wasted one year to join a medical college. I've joined a coaching class to prepare for entrance exams while my friends are rejoicing as freshers in some other colleges. So I have to get a medical seat somehow this year. But the problem is that I lack hard work and self-confidence and damnly concentration. I am easily distracted by Facebook and other social media. I easily trust people. And also I am a very short-tempered person. I've hurt many people with my harsh words. I've made them cry. I really worry about that but out of anger I just shout at them like a fool. Adding to this, I am a teenage girl who has lots and lots of inferiority complex. I hate my appearance. I curse myself for worrying about appearance but I don't know why I cry a lot for this silly thing. I don't have a definite character. I hate myself. I have only four months to prepare for my exams. But I don't get the seriousness to work hard. I want to work hard and get a medical seat. I want to become a doctor and serve the people at northern parts of India where the gospel hasn't been preached yet. I want to die as a martyr for King Jesus. I want enlightenment. I need self-confidence, self-control, power to overcome temptations. I want to live a celibate life. I want to live for Jesus. I don't want to hurt people with my uncontrollable anger. I want peace. I want God. I want the Holy Spirit. I need Him to guide me. But I don't pray because I am afraid that God may not hear my prayers. Because I am a flawed person. Please do pray for me. I don't know why I live. I want to achieve something in my life. Please please pray for me. I am totally confused. May God hear at least your prayers for me. Thank you...
