Day 7 Fast Forgiveness How?

The Bible tells us to forgive, my therapist told me I had to forgive for my sake, every self help book says I have to forgive. The prevailing question HOW?The next question is do I really want to forgive them.

Here is a favorite quote I have heard Un forgiveness is like drinking poison expecting the other person to die.

After the abandonment of a biological father, the sexual abuse from two men, an adopted father that was full of rage alcoholic and emotional abusive, an ex husband that tried to kill me cheated on me then a current husband that cheated on me HOW? And a lot of I deserve to feel sorry for myself, rage, anger, unworthiness, hopelessness, and vengeance. I almost felt comfortable being miserable. I was used to betrayal and all the feelings I stated. That was my life. I couldn't imagine another way.

A little background on how I conducted my life. I flipped between trying to be so perfect, to trying to be so bad. I was always trying to get the approval of men or push them so far away they could not hurt me. I tried for a couple years to be as wild and crazy as I could be. Stories I couldn't even put here. Sexually permissive, drugs, drinking, risk taking, the list goes on forever. Then I still had the feelings of failure. I had been given all advantages, private schools etc and still a failure. Still unworthy of any mans love. PLEASE SEE HOW I CONTINUED TO FEED THE WOUNDS, GIVING MY LIFE OVER TO THOSE THAT HURT ME. I spent my life either trying to impress them or humiliate them.

Now when my husband cheated on me it all came to a head. I was not functioning, wollering in I am unlovable.

One night I went to one of the monthly healing sessions. This churches pastor had committed adultery years ago before he found Christ, he dressed like a business man (like my adopted father), and his wife had forgiven him. She was a strong confident, loving woman but they both intimidated me. They had just ask if any one needed healing to come up and receive it. The pastor and his wife was one of the options. One I did not want. A sister I trust dearly told me to go to them for prayer. I was shaking. When I went up with out me telling them they knew I needed more healing than just the adultery They lead me to confess out loud that I forgive each one of them by name, then they had me ask for their blessings, not enough they had me ask for the Lord to bless them abundantly. Wow that was hard. However, when I left that night I felt more freedom, the Lord began removing the layers of the onion peel. The Lord also showed me how amazing trustworthy and loving these people, that just before scared me, truly were.

Walking that out. See then every time I would get mad at my husband for cheating, or question his every move the devil would come in and say you have not forgiven them, you are not capable of forgiving them. Then I would feel guilty because I couldn't do what Christ was asking me to do. It was a vicious cycle. Then it came to me, ask the Lord to guide you through forgiveness. See all this time I thought I was doing something wrong, I wasn't praying hard enough, whatever..... Finally I said to the Lord. I am sorry I just can't do this on my own, I have tried everything I can't I am just to weak, not strong enough. That is when it all turned around. All I had to do was ask. I was then lead to the right scripture, the right people, the right books, most importantly He was changing me from the inside out.

I have forgiven all of them. I love them all. I pray the Lord blesses them with repentance, forgiveness, and they understand all His love. I do not give in to resentments, anger, hopelessness, etc. If I do get attacked I put on the full armor of God, If I slip so far God will catch me.

I do not live my life for them. I live my life for the Lord. I am so much stronger, and peaceful, my ability t to love and be loved is a miracle.

Dear Lord reveal any unforgivness in us and lead us to complete forgiveness, and set us free
 
Thank's for sharing this.:-) Reminds me of one time i was accused of doing something that i hadn't done....of some Christians. And as i went from them, i was very sad inside about it all....and then a cry from me heart went up to God "Father, please help me to forgive, love and bless them!"

And He gave me will and strenght to forgive, love and bless them....in that way that i later bought a flower and sent to them telling them that i love them! i couldn't have done that if i didn't had Gods love towards them, and i've used this afterwards, too....i mean that i start to bless and pray for them that hurts me....then i can feel Gods love for them and forgive them.:o) Hallelujah!
 
Every single comment strengthens me, and reduces my fear. Thank You brothers and sisters in Christ. I love you.
 

Similar Requests

  • Article Article
Forgiveness starts with repentance. God does not desire that we be dismissive regarding our wrongdoing, nor is He pleased when we turn our backs on those whom we've wronged. God’s protocol is clear: Luke 17 (NLT) ³"So watch yourselves! If another believer sins, rebuke that person; then if...
Replies
1
Views
113
Heavenly Father, thank you for this beautiful day. I pray again for deliverance and freedom from so many attacks Father. Just now I got up from where I sit and the seat feels like some kind of electricity or vibration happening. Please stop what it does at this very moment as I try to pray for...
Replies
7
Views
73
We would like to request prayer for healing and forgiveness. Being underage, I got pregnant, had a hard time, blood transfusions, C-section, had twin sons, about ### lbs. each one, very healthy. I had a successful recovery. But, I remembered, my dear mom saying, "Save My Child"!! ### yrs. later...
Replies
8
Views
96
Your donations for running this web site are greatly appreciated.

Click To Make A Donation

Forum statistics

Threads
1,983,915
Messages
15,799,831
Members
544,967
Latest member
Throemormor

Latest Blogs & Articles

Back
Top Bottom