Day 35

Good morning all.


How are we all doing? I don’t know about the rest of you all but I am finding that almost every topic I write about I have to put in practice because at some point I come face to face with it. I really had to choose peace this weekend. I really had to seek God in what happened and you want to know the amazing thing, I found him. Amen. HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR US WE JUST HAVE TO LOOK FOR HIM.

So I don’t know what everyone has planned we are coming to an end of our 40 days which means the two days fast is upon us. I personally will be fasting Monday and Tuesday. I will also try to do two posts everyday so that we finish up on Tuesday as well.

So we have a big holiday here on the island this week. It is call Cup Match. It is the biggest holiday here on the island. So we have a four day week end and Thursday and Friday there is a cricket match for the cup. Here is a link if you are interested. http://www.bermudacupmatch.com/ .

The reason I bring this up is because this is like your thanksgiving. It is a major family time and I will be without my spouse. I asked him what he will be doing and if he will be going over his mama etc. He has a new baby and I guess the ow will want him to be with her. He wasn’t last year. He went to his mamas the second day and I spent the morning with him as well. As always this whole situation is so confusing.

I want to be my husband oasis but I also want to choke the breath out of him and tell him you know full well you were happy here at home. So just come the hell back,

Wow not very Godly is it. But we all go through this. Our spouses sometimes feel so trapped. My spouse spends so much time telling everyone how bad it was at home but everyone knows he was happy. It was the fighting with me and the children that drove him away, now he has another one and I know she is threatening him with the child because he doesn’t want to go court.

Wow today has been a real purging day for me hasn’t it. lol.

But through all of this God gave me a chance to speak to my husband. God gave me a chance to tell my husband that God loves him and God has peace for him. It is amazing. God always shows up in every situation. Do you see what I mean by seeking God?

When God presents an opportunity for you to minister to someone it will never feel like ministering especially when it comes to your spouse. God will open up doors and opportunities that you would have never imagined. We just have to keep God first and foremost and just seek him at all times. I promise seeing God in everything and looking for him in everything just makes everything so much easier. Take you focus off of your spouse put it on God.

I honestly had to say to God this weekend ok I don’t know what to say I don’t know what to pray I want my h to find peace, I want him happy but at the same time not over there, you know what God he is yours, I don’t know how to even wrap my head around this but you do so if I can’t trust my h with you who can I trust him with. And wow so much clarity came. My h could have lied about where he was going etc. But I have found that for the last week he has been extremely honest so amen.

God has us even in our darkest moments we just have to trust him and lean not own our own understanding because his ways are not our ways and his thought are not our thought and when we cannot wrap our heads around the situation and don’t know how to pray that is when we just say it is yours. You know what to do. That is when we allow the Holy Spirit to pray and intercede for us. So let’s give up trying to figure out what is going on in your spouse’s head etc. And let God run our head and life. He will show you the way. Just choose peace, Love, Forgiveness, in other words just choose GOD.

Have a good day.

Anthonette.

List of names and marriages

1. Joe and Cindy Frank
   
2. Tina and Michael Nadama
   
3. Karen and Tim Davis
   
4. Anthonette And Rudolph Simons and Family
   
5. Kevin and Nancy Owens
   
6. Marriage Covenant Ministries
   
7. Wobanda Felly
   
8. Gary Mayfeild
   
9. Lori And Darryl Vartabedian
   
10. Debroah and Sonny Woods
    
11. Judy Hite
    
12. Richard Willis
    
13. Shawn and Kristen Drennen
    
14. Kim61
    
15. Shanita and DaMon Johnson
    
16. Neta and Chris
    
17. Paula and Allen
    
18. Mandy and Rodrigo Shumacker
    
19. Heather Lueth
    
20. Scott and Crystal
    
21. B.J. and Threasa Scroggins and Family
    
22. Nina and Dennis
    
23. Dilawn and Ryan
    
24. Chandra and Greg
    
25. Adam and Sabrina Lawson
    
26. Karen Savoie
    
27. Beverly Lagana
    
28. Sallie and Andre Clement
    
29. Lisa Dabe
    
30. Wes and Jodi Bailes
    
31. Farah Meza Lopez and Henry Brekvoort
    
32. Carmen and Erin
    
33. Carly and Crystal
    
34. Gina and Ade Olawale
    
35. Diana and Juan Pablo
    
36. Leslee and John Rossotto
    
37. Nick and Sarah McNeill
    
38. Brad and Rosemary Salisnury
    
39. Eric and Crystal Meehan
    
40. Neil and Nancy Quinn
    
41. Stephen and Noelle Mounce
    
42. Barta and Billy Kemp
    
43. Solon and Leah Philips
    
44. Lichelle Whittaker
    
45. Arcy Espana
    
46. Katy and Erine Macias
    
47. Karen and Andre Marias
    
48. Susan and Rob
    
49. Luis and Mattie Bediako
    
50. Scott and Heather Ellis
    
51. Lourdres and Tommy Moore
    
52. Mark and Geeta Arathoon
    
53. Ugo and Tope Osuya
    
54. Tim and Jennie Packard
    
55. Janet and Rodney Whitmore
    
56. Scott and Delores Hanks
    
57. Diana Moreno
    
58. Sheila and Jose Reveron
    
59. shadowofleaves
    
60. AHEMED AND Charmaine Bouchouka
    
61. Kevin and Michelle
    
62. Freddrick and Angela Young Jordan
    
63. Jade and Willie Cordova
    
64. Jessica and Ronald Ndoro
    
65. Pam and Richard Thompson
    
66. Ernest and Nichole Herrere, and children Josiah, Selah, Eliannah, Jude
    
67. David and Elizabeth Barrios
    
68. Krystal and Ervin Arroyo
    
69. Bwire Anne Wanjiku and Chrispinus Bwire
    
70. Chily and Ana Maria Alviar
    
71. Torrey and Stephanie Harrison
    
72. Stephen & Noelle Mounce
    
73. Jack and Kimie Michele Beeching
    
74. Mike and Missy
    
75. Mike and Tami Crites
    
76. Lela and Jeremy
    
77. Ty and Talitha Brittain
    
78. Ben and Lisa Marie
    
79. Benjamin and Lisa Marie Loya
    
80. Torrey and Stephanie Harrison
    
81. Jamie Keeney
    
82. Mark and Jennifer
    
83. Clayton and Elvira Sneed
    
84. Valerie and Ayodeji
    
85. Laquonda Esther Morris and spouse
    
86. Ryan And Misty Phipps
    
87. Timothy and Paula Birmingham
    
88. Shane and Rebecca Bunch
    
89. Paul and Maria
    
90. Mike and Fab
    
91. John and Karen
    
92. Pastor Rob plus his estranged (but not for long) wife
    
93. Jillian and Mike
    
94. Norma And Frank Miller
    
95. Jim & Becci Berry
    
96. Sean and Samantha Archer and family
    
97. Janae Hall and family
    
98. Michael and Candace Felt
    
99. Letichia Christopher and family
    
100. Tim & Chris
     
101. Patricia and Bruce
     
102. Katie and Charlie
     
103. Jamie Richards and her husband
     
104. Jessi and Anthony
     
105. Vicky L Shannon
     
106. Marc and Jane Hintz
     
107. Jason and Jennelle Douglass
     
108. April & Victor Boucher
     
109. Robert and Lydia Patten
     
110. Donna and Steve
     
111. Juan and Sandra Moncada
     
112. Allison And Shimon
     
113. SHEILA AND CHET NORTH
     
114. Ray and Heather
     
115. Kristen Drennen
     
116. Lynn Chism and Hugh Chism
     
117. Patricia and Jason Dickerson
     
118. John and Adriana
     
119. Roseanna Nance Glassberg
     
120. Matthew and Yvonne

Father God help me to always seek you. That no matter what the situation is help me to look for you and seek you and find my peace in your arms. Thank you Jesus... In Jesus name Amen.

 

[lordschild316]

Plz add me to your list. I feel like giving up. My husband is in adultery

 

[wmnoffaith1]

My sister who is Bipolar was caught in an indiscretion in her house, and asked to leave. She is staying with me because she is homeless. All of my family told me not to take her in(in other words she made her bed lie in it). I refused to do that and took her in. I am slowly introducing her to Salvation by Grace, reading the Bible, we listen to sermons, pray etc. What does any of this have to do with what you wrote? A year ago I started following "Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven, and all else will be given unto you. My only focus is God. When things went wrong, I prayed harder. When people were mean and unfair, (my alcoholic husband fell off the wagon) I was kinder and more understanding. I noticed that when you stop viewing things as suffering, they are no longer suffering. You CAN change your world by changing yourself first by allowing God to change YOU, then you will change your world. I have seen unbelievable miracles...You are right in all you say and are doing sister. You also teach best what you most need to learn, ;your humility is the key to your increased holiness. God Bless You. HE HAS EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL

 

[Anthonette]

don't give up. God will carry you. I know because he is carrying me. I too am bipolar and thank you Jesus you have me covered.

 

[Anthonette]

i have recently found out that everything i though was my husband being honest was all lies. i am devastated. he has told me to get out of his life and i am hurting really bad. trying to read all the posts i posted last yar trying to find my faith again. i know it wioll be a long and hard road back especally this time as i will be hardening my heart so i really really hurt right now. but son how some way i will find Jesus again