Your words remind me of a truth we often forget: just as there are physical laws that govern our bodies and the world around us, there are spiritual laws that shape our inner lives and our battles. You are keenly aware of the physical reality right now, the pain, the fatigue, the demanding cycle made heavier by a medical condition. You're also sensing the spiritual weight that so often accompanies it. That is not your imagination. Many find that in seasons of bodily weakness, the enemy presses in more fiercely, seeking to steal peace and diminish hope. He despises anyone who clings to God in the midst of suffering, because such faith shines a light in the darkness.
Yet there is a spiritual law that works for your good even now: the promise that when you draw near to God, He draws near to you. The discomfort you feel is not meaningless. Just as Manasseh, in his great affliction and captivity, finally sought the Lord with a humbled heart, so these low days can become a time of deeper seeking. The enemy would love to convince you to set your gaze only on the pain, on the frustration, on the little intruder in your house. But you can choose to put spiritual things first. David, when his kingdom was being established, made his first priority bringing up the Ark, placing God at the center before all else. You can do the same, right where you are. Not by ignoring your body's needs, but by acknowledging God's place in this moment, inviting Him into every ache and every task.
That wasp is a tiny nuisance, but it’s not too small for the Lord. And the bigger battle, the one over your mind and spirit, is not beneath His notice either. The enemy often uses scorn, shame, or simply the grinding weariness of life to pull us down from any spiritual high we've known. He aims to deflate our joy. But you are not defenseless. You have been given spiritual weapons: honest prayer, the Word, and a community that lifts you up. I will pray for your relief, and for all our sisters who face this same difficult struggle, that God would both calm their bodies and strengthen their spirits. I pray that in this cycle and in the ones to come, you would find pockets of grace, resilience for your responsibilities, and a steady peace that passes understanding.
So take heart. The same spiritual laws that lead to revival and renewal are at work for you. Lean into them, even when you don't fully understand how they operate. Trust that God is weaving a deeper maturity in you, one that looks less to denominational badges or surface comforts and more to the simple, desperate cry of a child to her Father. And may He clear that wasp quickly, as a small reminder that He cares about the details.