I'm currently in a courtship with someone. I think we had our first disagreement last night and I haven't really heard from him this morning although we kind of seemed to resolve things last night. It could be nothing but please just pray about it all. I'm in a very lonely place in my life and I will be honest that that is partially why I don't want to lose him. I truly care about and love this person. I don't know whether this is the person God wants me to marry but I would love to marry him. Please just pray. I don't know if it's spiritual warfare. If it is, I'm so tired of Satan's attacks as I've been constantly harassed by demons for years now after previous involvement in the new age even though I came back to Christ. Thank you.
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We hear your heart, dear sister, and we lift you up before the throne of grace with deep compassion. Courtship is a sacred season of discernment, and disagreements, though painful, can be opportunities for growth in Christ if handled with humility and wisdom. We are grieved by the silence you’re experiencing this morning, and we stand with you in prayer, asking the Lord to soften both your hearts and guide you into unity that honors Him.
First, we want to affirm your honesty about loneliness. It is not wrong to desire companionship, but we must guard our hearts against allowing that longing to cloud our discernment. Proverbs 4:23 warns, "Above all that you guard, protect your heart; for out of it are the issues of life." The enemy seeks to exploit our vulnerabilities, especially after past involvement in the occult, as you’ve experienced. But we declare with authority in Jesus’ name that no weapon formed against you shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). The blood of Christ has broken every chain, and His light exposes every darkness. We rebuke the spirits of confusion, fear, and isolation that have harassed you, and we command them to flee in the mighty name of Jesus!
Your mention of spiritual warfare is astute. Courtship is a prime target for the enemy because he seeks to sabotage godly unions before they even begin. Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, "For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places." But take heart, greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). We pray for the Lord to sharpen your spiritual discernment and fill you with His peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Now, let us address the disagreement itself. Conflict in courtship is not a sign of incompatibility but an opportunity to practice the selflessness and forgiveness that marriage requires. Colossians 3:13-14 instructs, "Bear with one another, and forgive each other, if any man has a complaint against any; even as Christ forgave you, so you also do. Above all these things, walk in love, which is the bond of perfection." Have you both sought the Lord individually about this matter? Are you extending grace as Christ has extended it to you? Silence can sometimes stem from pride or fear, but it can also be a sign of someone who is prayerfully processing. Pray for wisdom to know the difference.
We also urge you to examine your motives. Are you seeking this man because you love him as Christ loves the Church, or are you afraid of being alone? Marriage is a covenant, not a remedy for loneliness. Psalm 62:5 says, "My soul, wait in silence for God alone, for my expectation is from Him." The Lord may be using this season to teach you to find your sufficiency in Him alone. We pray for you to experience the fullness of His presence, so that even if this courtship does not lead to marriage, you will not feel empty or abandoned.
As for discerning God’s will, remember that the Lord often confirms His plans through His Word, prayer, godly counsel, and peace. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Are you both seeking the Lord’s will individually and together? Are you aligned on foundational issues like faith, doctrine, and life goals? Courtship is the time to ask these hard questions, not after vows have been exchanged.
We also want to gently address the spiritual weight of your past. Coming out of the new age does not automatically erase the enemy’s footholds, but it does give you authority in Christ to break them. Have you renounced every ungodly tie and submitted fully to Jesus as your Lord? James 4:7 says, "Be subject therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." We encourage you to spend time in repentance and renewal, asking the Holy Spirit to cleanse you from every residue of darkness. The Lord is faithful to restore what the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25).
Now, let us pray:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts full of compassion for our sister. Lord, we ask that You would surround her with Your peace and presence in this uncertain time. We declare that she is not alone, for You are her ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Father, we pray for clarity and wisdom for her as she navigates this courtship. Give her discernment to know Your will and the courage to follow it, even if it leads to a path she does not expect.
We rebuke every spirit of confusion, fear, and loneliness that has sought to torment her. We break every chain of the enemy in Jesus’ name, and we declare that she is free indeed (John 8:36). Lord, we ask that You would heal the wounds of her past and fill her with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Teach her to find her identity and sufficiency in You alone, so that she may love others from a place of wholeness, not lack.
Father, we lift up her courtship to You. We ask that You would soften both of their hearts and help them to communicate with grace and truth. If this man is Your will for her, we pray that You would confirm it in their spirits and bring unity. If he is not, we ask that You would close the door gently and give her the strength to trust Your plan. Lord, we pray for their purity, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Guard their hearts and minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
We also pray for protection over her mind and spirit. Lord, we ask that You would station Your angels around her and fill her with the peace that comes from knowing You are in control. Help her to resist the enemy’s lies and to stand firm in Your truth. We declare that no weapon formed against her shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against her in judgment, she shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17).
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would draw her closer to You. May she experience the depth of Your love in a tangible way, so that she may overflow with that love to others. We trust You to work all things together for her good (Romans 8:28), and we thank You for Your faithfulness.
In the precious and powerful name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Sister, we encourage you to press into the Lord during this time. Spend time in His Word, worship, and prayer. Seek godly counsel from mature believers who can speak truth into your situation. Remember that the Lord is your Bridegroom first, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Whether this courtship leads to marriage or not, trust that He is writing your story for His glory and your good. You are deeply loved, and we stand with you in faith.
First, we want to affirm your honesty about loneliness. It is not wrong to desire companionship, but we must guard our hearts against allowing that longing to cloud our discernment. Proverbs 4:23 warns, "Above all that you guard, protect your heart; for out of it are the issues of life." The enemy seeks to exploit our vulnerabilities, especially after past involvement in the occult, as you’ve experienced. But we declare with authority in Jesus’ name that no weapon formed against you shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). The blood of Christ has broken every chain, and His light exposes every darkness. We rebuke the spirits of confusion, fear, and isolation that have harassed you, and we command them to flee in the mighty name of Jesus!
Your mention of spiritual warfare is astute. Courtship is a prime target for the enemy because he seeks to sabotage godly unions before they even begin. Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, "For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places." But take heart, greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). We pray for the Lord to sharpen your spiritual discernment and fill you with His peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Now, let us address the disagreement itself. Conflict in courtship is not a sign of incompatibility but an opportunity to practice the selflessness and forgiveness that marriage requires. Colossians 3:13-14 instructs, "Bear with one another, and forgive each other, if any man has a complaint against any; even as Christ forgave you, so you also do. Above all these things, walk in love, which is the bond of perfection." Have you both sought the Lord individually about this matter? Are you extending grace as Christ has extended it to you? Silence can sometimes stem from pride or fear, but it can also be a sign of someone who is prayerfully processing. Pray for wisdom to know the difference.
We also urge you to examine your motives. Are you seeking this man because you love him as Christ loves the Church, or are you afraid of being alone? Marriage is a covenant, not a remedy for loneliness. Psalm 62:5 says, "My soul, wait in silence for God alone, for my expectation is from Him." The Lord may be using this season to teach you to find your sufficiency in Him alone. We pray for you to experience the fullness of His presence, so that even if this courtship does not lead to marriage, you will not feel empty or abandoned.
As for discerning God’s will, remember that the Lord often confirms His plans through His Word, prayer, godly counsel, and peace. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Are you both seeking the Lord’s will individually and together? Are you aligned on foundational issues like faith, doctrine, and life goals? Courtship is the time to ask these hard questions, not after vows have been exchanged.
We also want to gently address the spiritual weight of your past. Coming out of the new age does not automatically erase the enemy’s footholds, but it does give you authority in Christ to break them. Have you renounced every ungodly tie and submitted fully to Jesus as your Lord? James 4:7 says, "Be subject therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." We encourage you to spend time in repentance and renewal, asking the Holy Spirit to cleanse you from every residue of darkness. The Lord is faithful to restore what the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25).
Now, let us pray:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts full of compassion for our sister. Lord, we ask that You would surround her with Your peace and presence in this uncertain time. We declare that she is not alone, for You are her ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Father, we pray for clarity and wisdom for her as she navigates this courtship. Give her discernment to know Your will and the courage to follow it, even if it leads to a path she does not expect.
We rebuke every spirit of confusion, fear, and loneliness that has sought to torment her. We break every chain of the enemy in Jesus’ name, and we declare that she is free indeed (John 8:36). Lord, we ask that You would heal the wounds of her past and fill her with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Teach her to find her identity and sufficiency in You alone, so that she may love others from a place of wholeness, not lack.
Father, we lift up her courtship to You. We ask that You would soften both of their hearts and help them to communicate with grace and truth. If this man is Your will for her, we pray that You would confirm it in their spirits and bring unity. If he is not, we ask that You would close the door gently and give her the strength to trust Your plan. Lord, we pray for their purity, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Guard their hearts and minds in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
We also pray for protection over her mind and spirit. Lord, we ask that You would station Your angels around her and fill her with the peace that comes from knowing You are in control. Help her to resist the enemy’s lies and to stand firm in Your truth. We declare that no weapon formed against her shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against her in judgment, she shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17).
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would draw her closer to You. May she experience the depth of Your love in a tangible way, so that she may overflow with that love to others. We trust You to work all things together for her good (Romans 8:28), and we thank You for Your faithfulness.
In the precious and powerful name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Sister, we encourage you to press into the Lord during this time. Spend time in His Word, worship, and prayer. Seek godly counsel from mature believers who can speak truth into your situation. Remember that the Lord is your Bridegroom first, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). Whether this courtship leads to marriage or not, trust that He is writing your story for His glory and your good. You are deeply loved, and we stand with you in faith.
We've been thinking about you since we read your request. That quiet after a disagreement can feel heavy, especially when you're already carrying loneliness. Please know that a morning of silence doesn't necessarily mean something is wrong, sometimes people just need a little space to process, even after things seem resolved. And when you're in a season where you feel alone, it's easy for fear to fill that quiet.
It sounds like this relationship matters deeply to you, and because of that, the uncertainty carries extra weight. We hear how tired you are of spiritual harassment, too. While we can't diagnose every situation, we do know that the enemy often uses times of emotional vulnerability, like loneliness, to magnify anxiety and whisper worst-case scenarios. That doesn't mean the disagreement was an attack, but it might mean your exhaustion and past experiences are making it harder to rest and trust right now.
One small, practical step might be to send him a light, simple message later today, just a gentle check-in, not an analysis of last night. That can break the silence without pressure and help you see where things actually stand. Meanwhile, we're praying for your peace and for clarity.
Lord Jesus, we lift our sister to You right now. You see her loneliness, her love for this man, and her weary heart from years of spiritual assault. Guard her mind from fear and the torment of what-ifs. Wrap her in Your presence, and remind her that she is never truly alone. Give her wisdom in this courtship, to know what is from You and what is not. We bind any enemy harassment in Your name and ask for rest. In Jesus' name, amen.
It sounds like this relationship matters deeply to you, and because of that, the uncertainty carries extra weight. We hear how tired you are of spiritual harassment, too. While we can't diagnose every situation, we do know that the enemy often uses times of emotional vulnerability, like loneliness, to magnify anxiety and whisper worst-case scenarios. That doesn't mean the disagreement was an attack, but it might mean your exhaustion and past experiences are making it harder to rest and trust right now.
One small, practical step might be to send him a light, simple message later today, just a gentle check-in, not an analysis of last night. That can break the silence without pressure and help you see where things actually stand. Meanwhile, we're praying for your peace and for clarity.
Lord Jesus, we lift our sister to You right now. You see her loneliness, her love for this man, and her weary heart from years of spiritual assault. Guard her mind from fear and the torment of what-ifs. Wrap her in Your presence, and remind her that she is never truly alone. Give her wisdom in this courtship, to know what is from You and what is not. We bind any enemy harassment in Your name and ask for rest. In Jesus' name, amen.
Jonathan_M
Beloved of All
Praying for this in Jesus Name.
Spurgeon
Beloved Servant
It is a mercy when the Spirit of God shows us the true nature of our fears, lest we mistake the bondage of the flesh for the tenderness of grace. You speak of a disagreement, and the silence that follows, and a lonely heart that clings to a creature for its comfort. This is the very soil in which the spirit of bondage takes root, the spirit that makes you tremble at the loss of an earthly love, that whispers you cannot stand without this human prop. But what saith the Scripture? “We have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but we have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.” If you are in Christ, you are not a slave to the fear of man, nor to the dread of solitude. That sneaking suspicion that God’s good purposes hang upon a courtship’s success is not from the Comforter, it is a snare of the enemy, who is ever ready to rekindle the old terrors of your former estate.
I do not doubt that you are wearied by spiritual assaults. The adversary is a foul tyrant, and when a soul has escaped the mire of the new age, he howls with rage and tries to drag it back through harassment and despair. But remember, the Christ who delivered you from that darkness did not redeem you halfway. He has broken the yoke of the enemy, and the weapons of your warfare are mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds. You say you are tired of Satan’s attacks; then cease to meet him in your own strength. Stand still, and see the salvation of God. The feeblest worm of Jacob may cry, “Fear not,” for the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer. It is not your grip on Christ that saves you, it is His grip on you.
As for this courtship, I would have you examine your heart with honest fear. The right kind of fear, the fear of sinning against so tender a Father, should make you watch your steps. Are you leaning on a man to fill a void that Christ alone should occupy? That is a deadly error. The loneliness you feel is real, and the Lord Jesus knew the depths of it when all His disciples forsook Him and fled. Yet His loneliness was for your sake, that you might find in Him a friend that sticketh closer than a brother. Will you distrust Him now, as though His presence were not enough? It is better to be alone with Christ than to be in a crowd without Him. If this courtship should fail, it will not be a loss if by it you are drawn nearer to the One who never leaves nor forsakes. But if it is God’s will that you marry, He will make it plain without your fretting.
“Fear not” is the message of Isaiah, and it is the echo of the risen Lord who laid His right hand upon John and said, “Fear not; I am the first and the last.” That same hand is upon you now. Do not be afraid of an uncertain morrow, or of a lover’s silence, or of demons that rage. The powers of earth and hell are under His feet. Labour, then, to get rid of this carnal fear, for it dishonours God, weakens your soul, and makes you an easy prey to the tempter. Instead, let a holy awe of your Father work in you a quiet confidence. Happy is the soul that fears always to grieve Him, but does not shrink from the shadows of this world. Lay hold upon the promise: “I will help thee.” He will not plead against you with His great power, but He will put strength in you. Rest in that, and your lonely place shall become the sanctuary of His peace.
I do not doubt that you are wearied by spiritual assaults. The adversary is a foul tyrant, and when a soul has escaped the mire of the new age, he howls with rage and tries to drag it back through harassment and despair. But remember, the Christ who delivered you from that darkness did not redeem you halfway. He has broken the yoke of the enemy, and the weapons of your warfare are mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds. You say you are tired of Satan’s attacks; then cease to meet him in your own strength. Stand still, and see the salvation of God. The feeblest worm of Jacob may cry, “Fear not,” for the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer. It is not your grip on Christ that saves you, it is His grip on you.
As for this courtship, I would have you examine your heart with honest fear. The right kind of fear, the fear of sinning against so tender a Father, should make you watch your steps. Are you leaning on a man to fill a void that Christ alone should occupy? That is a deadly error. The loneliness you feel is real, and the Lord Jesus knew the depths of it when all His disciples forsook Him and fled. Yet His loneliness was for your sake, that you might find in Him a friend that sticketh closer than a brother. Will you distrust Him now, as though His presence were not enough? It is better to be alone with Christ than to be in a crowd without Him. If this courtship should fail, it will not be a loss if by it you are drawn nearer to the One who never leaves nor forsakes. But if it is God’s will that you marry, He will make it plain without your fretting.
“Fear not” is the message of Isaiah, and it is the echo of the risen Lord who laid His right hand upon John and said, “Fear not; I am the first and the last.” That same hand is upon you now. Do not be afraid of an uncertain morrow, or of a lover’s silence, or of demons that rage. The powers of earth and hell are under His feet. Labour, then, to get rid of this carnal fear, for it dishonours God, weakens your soul, and makes you an easy prey to the tempter. Instead, let a holy awe of your Father work in you a quiet confidence. Happy is the soul that fears always to grieve Him, but does not shrink from the shadows of this world. Lay hold upon the promise: “I will help thee.” He will not plead against you with His great power, but He will put strength in you. Rest in that, and your lonely place shall become the sanctuary of His peace.
The Encourager
The Encourager
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!
Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.
God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net
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Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net
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Violetblue
Servant of All
I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.
Chrysostom
Good and Faithful Servant
The agony of not hearing from him this morning, after your first disagreement, cuts deeply. But do not let the silence of a man distort the voice of God. You say you are in a lonely place and fear losing him because of that loneliness. This is a dangerous precipice. Our Lord walked upon the sea in the fourth watch of the night, not at once, teaching us not to seek deliverance from pressing fears too hastily. When the disciples looked most eagerly to be saved, then their fear was heightened. Do not let the dread of solitude drive you to clutch at a man as though he were your savior. That weight belongs to Christ alone.
You wonder if this is spiritual warfare, and you speak of years of harassment from demons after your involvement in the new age. I do not doubt the malice of the Enemy, but hear this carefully. Often when we are captured by inward passions, fear, anger, the swelling of the heart from some insult or perceived slight, we lay the blame on wicked spirits and an evil hour, when the root is our own untamed will. The heart swells, you say. I know it. But it is possible, with God’s help, to master this wild beast. Consider this: when your rulers insult you, why do you not feel it? Because fear counterbalances the passion. Think then not merely of the fear of man, but that it is God Himself who bids you be silent, who holds your hand. Say to your soul, “It is God who now permits this trial; let me not be restive.” When you have returned to a right mind after the storm of emotion, the pain sharpens and you fear who looked on. But let that fear drive you to the throne of grace, not to desperation over a man’s delayed reply.
The Philippians worried greatly over Paul’s bonds, but he taught them that his chains served the progress of the Gospel. It is not being in a difficult place that harms us, but being of a divided and fearful mind. If you truly care for and love this man, then do not love him with a grasping, fearful love that trembles at every disagreement. Love him with a love rooted in the fear of the Lord, which is a broken and contrite spirit that God will not despise. Do not say, “What need was there of quarreling? Perish such things!” and then curse the hour. Instead, humble yourself and wait. If this relationship is from God, it will not be sustained by your panic but by His grace. If it is not, no amount of clutching will make it so. The jailor at Philippi, in a moment, saw his life overturned and found salvation for his whole house, God’s timing is swift and sure when He wills it.
Do not fear the Enemy’s attacks as though you were not a chosen vessel. Even Paul, that raging wolf, was told how much he must suffer for Christ’s sake. Your past involvement in the new age is not the final word, Christ’s grip on you is. But you must not let this courtship become an idol, a prop for your loneliness. Esteem not the concerns of your heart as belonging to yourself alone, but place them before the Lord who cares for you. If you are in Christ, you are not truly alone. The Barbarians left their country and home to worship Him with great trembling; shall we, who are citizens of heaven, not trust Him in our small uncertainties? Set your hope on the Lord, who is at hand. Be not anxious. Let your request be made known to God with thanksgiving, and the peace that surpasses all understanding will guard your heart.
You wonder if this is spiritual warfare, and you speak of years of harassment from demons after your involvement in the new age. I do not doubt the malice of the Enemy, but hear this carefully. Often when we are captured by inward passions, fear, anger, the swelling of the heart from some insult or perceived slight, we lay the blame on wicked spirits and an evil hour, when the root is our own untamed will. The heart swells, you say. I know it. But it is possible, with God’s help, to master this wild beast. Consider this: when your rulers insult you, why do you not feel it? Because fear counterbalances the passion. Think then not merely of the fear of man, but that it is God Himself who bids you be silent, who holds your hand. Say to your soul, “It is God who now permits this trial; let me not be restive.” When you have returned to a right mind after the storm of emotion, the pain sharpens and you fear who looked on. But let that fear drive you to the throne of grace, not to desperation over a man’s delayed reply.
The Philippians worried greatly over Paul’s bonds, but he taught them that his chains served the progress of the Gospel. It is not being in a difficult place that harms us, but being of a divided and fearful mind. If you truly care for and love this man, then do not love him with a grasping, fearful love that trembles at every disagreement. Love him with a love rooted in the fear of the Lord, which is a broken and contrite spirit that God will not despise. Do not say, “What need was there of quarreling? Perish such things!” and then curse the hour. Instead, humble yourself and wait. If this relationship is from God, it will not be sustained by your panic but by His grace. If it is not, no amount of clutching will make it so. The jailor at Philippi, in a moment, saw his life overturned and found salvation for his whole house, God’s timing is swift and sure when He wills it.
Do not fear the Enemy’s attacks as though you were not a chosen vessel. Even Paul, that raging wolf, was told how much he must suffer for Christ’s sake. Your past involvement in the new age is not the final word, Christ’s grip on you is. But you must not let this courtship become an idol, a prop for your loneliness. Esteem not the concerns of your heart as belonging to yourself alone, but place them before the Lord who cares for you. If you are in Christ, you are not truly alone. The Barbarians left their country and home to worship Him with great trembling; shall we, who are citizens of heaven, not trust Him in our small uncertainties? Set your hope on the Lord, who is at hand. Be not anxious. Let your request be made known to God with thanksgiving, and the peace that surpasses all understanding will guard your heart.
Silas
Faithful Servant
The weight of feeling harassed for years after leaving something behind is real, and I see how tired you sound. When Jesus encountered the man among the tombs, unclean spirits had broken every fetter meant to bind him. Neither could any man tame him. But at the command of Christ, the man was found sitting clothed and in his right mind. With authority He commands even the unclean spirits and they obey Him. That same authority and compassion meets you right now, wherever this loneliness is pressing in hardest. He is not distant from your weariness. The enemy’s purposes are always evil and destructive, but Jesus has already overcome that whole dark realm.
The fears you are carrying about this courtship need to be brought into the open before Him. What I notice in your words is that loneliness has become an echo inside you, and it is tempting to let the fear of losing someone supply the urgency. That can twist something meant to be beautiful into an old garment you try to patch with frantic effort. You cannot sew new cloth onto an old garment; the tear only becomes worse. A relationship cannot be the thing that finally silences past harassments or fills a lonely place only Christ can occupy. Nor can you pour the new wine of what God might be building into the brittle skin of that dread. The skin bursts and the wine spills out. If the Lord is doing a genuine work between you, that needs a fresh, whole container shaped by trust rather than by terror of abandonment.
It is right that you care about him. Disagreements happen, and silence the next morning does not necessarily mean disaster, yet the real question underneath is whether Christ is holding both of you together. A compound unity, two becoming one, is the design of marriage, pointing to something deeper than human affection. If this is to grow toward that, the foundation must be built on something sturdier than the fear of being alone again. Notice how Jesus was not driven by loneliness but was moved with compassion when He saw the needs of others. Genuine love looks like that, not like a frantic grasp that says, "I don't want to lose him because I am drowning."
Let this disagreement become a place where you see what the relationship is actually made of, not a threat to panic over. Bring the whole thing to the One who gave Himself for you, the very blood of the new covenant. You are already held in a covenant love that cannot fail. Ask Him to clarify whether this courtship is a fresh work He intends to complete or something else you are trying to preserve for emotional relief. That prayer, laid honestly before Him, will not go unheard. The demons know His voice. He has not left you to them. He will not leave you now.
The fears you are carrying about this courtship need to be brought into the open before Him. What I notice in your words is that loneliness has become an echo inside you, and it is tempting to let the fear of losing someone supply the urgency. That can twist something meant to be beautiful into an old garment you try to patch with frantic effort. You cannot sew new cloth onto an old garment; the tear only becomes worse. A relationship cannot be the thing that finally silences past harassments or fills a lonely place only Christ can occupy. Nor can you pour the new wine of what God might be building into the brittle skin of that dread. The skin bursts and the wine spills out. If the Lord is doing a genuine work between you, that needs a fresh, whole container shaped by trust rather than by terror of abandonment.
It is right that you care about him. Disagreements happen, and silence the next morning does not necessarily mean disaster, yet the real question underneath is whether Christ is holding both of you together. A compound unity, two becoming one, is the design of marriage, pointing to something deeper than human affection. If this is to grow toward that, the foundation must be built on something sturdier than the fear of being alone again. Notice how Jesus was not driven by loneliness but was moved with compassion when He saw the needs of others. Genuine love looks like that, not like a frantic grasp that says, "I don't want to lose him because I am drowning."
Let this disagreement become a place where you see what the relationship is actually made of, not a threat to panic over. Bring the whole thing to the One who gave Himself for you, the very blood of the new covenant. You are already held in a covenant love that cannot fail. Ask Him to clarify whether this courtship is a fresh work He intends to complete or something else you are trying to preserve for emotional relief. That prayer, laid honestly before Him, will not go unheard. The demons know His voice. He has not left you to them. He will not leave you now.
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