Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have been married for ### years and have a very controlling husband. Yes, I made lots of mistakes in my marriage which God forgive me, but my husband will not forgive. He controls everything and can be verbally and emotionally abusive. I have had peace in my house the last few months because Jesus said he gave me peace at the beginning of the year. Praise God. But his controlling ways have not stopped and I am miserable. I have no freedom. I don't go out unless he is with me. If he doesn't want to go to church, we do not go. I need to be able to be me, have no fear, speak to whom I want, male or female, have a phone, bank card, internet access when he is not available. Be able to talk to my family freely. I need to be able to go to church, prayer meetings when I want. I want to be part of the local church fully but he doesn't understand. A women's conference is coming up in two weeks and I want to attend... But I know if I ask I will not be allowed to go. I want to go and be blessed. I don't want to beg, plead, reason, argue, be told that we don't have the money (we do). I want to be able to ask him and he simply says yes, or God tell him to let me go. I am sick and tired of being isolated and not having freedom. God said where there is the name of Jesus there is freedom. But I do not feel it! He is not always verbally or emotionally abusive but can be. I feel trapped. I want to do things for God. I want to go to church, but he doesn't feel the need. He is a believer, but feels you don't have to go to church to have a relationship with God. I feel very trapped and isolated. I need to be free. He dwells on the past and won't let go. He needs healing and he needs God to cast him straight and perhaps free too. I don't want to keep living the rest of my life like this!! I see life just passing by with no joy. I need a resolution from God and I need God to touch my husband. He tries to control my grown son as well. I am basically just existing, not living life. He can be physically abusive but has not been for a few years, although the propensity is still there if provoked. Please pray for me. I need peace in my house and family and I need this man to stop controlling and dominating. I am at my wits end. Thank you all. I do believe in Jesus immensely. God bless you all.