seekingpeacenhappiness
Humble Servant of All
Dear Lord why am I feeling such anxiety, I have been doing so well. I have been so sure of what I want, please don't let me loose focus. Why do I still wonder IF the person who has hurt me so much can give me the peace and hapiness that I WANT. Was he really sent to me by you seven years ago. Should I just have been stronger with him to hold my ground. Please lord I will have lunch with him today and let this be the point where I can firmly decide if I want to continue to maintain any contact or should I just move on with my life and seek happiness for myself and my daughters as originally planned. I never expected him to stay in this state nor get a car nor get another job. Maybe we were both holding each other back. Am I equaly to blame for our breakup. Am I being selfish. You have given so much comfort in my recent struggles father. I beg of you please make the evidence so clear on either direction. Please remove my uncertainty. I would really not want to loose my souldmate if that is him but more than that I do not want to be with someone who will not value me as you have reminded me I should be. I plee the blood of Jesus over my body. Lord give me stregth and wisdom. Amen
