Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I will give this person the benefit of the doubt, but she has not called, emailed, or texted. I'm really fragile when it comes to things like this. I was so hoping I could at least make a friend. I got on my hands and knees and begged God to put it on her heart to contact me. I want this to be the last Christmas I spend without a special young lady in my life. God if there is any way possible, any sin I have not confessed and repented of and asked forgiveness of please bring it to light. God I'm so anxious. I want this so bad. God please God allow her to contact me, somehow. God please. It would make me a very happy man. God, Daddy, I'm begging you please. I cannot take another stand up. I really like that girl. She made me feel, alive, like I have not felt like this in a really long time. I had butterflies, and for once I truly felt true joy. Last time I felt that way about a girl she rejected me. Please God, lay it on her heart to call me. Father please, grant me this as a Christmas present. It would mean the world to me. In Jesus name I pray, amen. Please pray for this. I can go through someone standing me up again. It will really hurt this time because she actually asked me out. I guess I'm overthinking a bit, but if you went through some of the stuff I did, you would understand why I want it to work this time. The feeling I get when I get rejected or stood up, it makes me feel inferior to other men who have the charm to get dates whenever they want to. It makes me feel like I'm a loser, and it makes me feel like God does not care about me. That's truly how I feel, and that hurt and uncertainty is so real, it makes me wonder why I have a drive to get married, when God won't even allow me to date. It's so hard for me to understand. I wish God would just show her to me already. Please, please please pray for this. It would mean so much to me.
