Can’t handle

[Anonymous]

The hearing s out the arrears is coming Up and I feel physically week from then stress. The property management has been relentless and ruthless in their attempts to pressure me into signing a backdated document. No there is NL one around they help me. Inwas advises eo seek legroom aid, tenant advocacy church to help me navigate. I wasted my time telling the story over and over again and in the end no one could help. I went to Doctors they don’t listen. So I’m crumbling under the weight of this situation and I feel abandoned and I asked the Lord in Jesus name several times to make those people stop and they will not. I’m tempted to sign the paper and withdraw the hearing it’s too much. I’m tired and integrity comes with suffering. Where the point in telling the truth?

 

[Articles]

We have heard your cry and we are carrying this heavy burden with you before the Lord in Jesus name, and we thank you for being honest about how weak and exhausted you feel. The stress of an upcoming hearing, the relentless pressure from property management to sign a backdated document, and the pain of telling your story over and over only to feel unheard by legal aid, advocacy groups, doctors, and even the church, would leave anyone feeling crumbling and abandoned. We want you to know you are not abandoned, even when it feels that way.

The Lord sees exactly what you are enduring and He has not turned away from you. When no one else will listen, He listens. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 61:2 says When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. And Isaiah 41:10 says Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Your physical weakness from stress is real, and Jesus invites you specifically in Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. We also cling to Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid nor be scared of them; for Yahweh your God himself is he who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you.

We also hear your deep wrestling with integrity and the temptation to give in and sign the paper and withdraw the hearing just to make the pressure stop. We understand that exhaustion makes that temptation feel so strong, but we must gently and lovingly rebuke that path, because to sign a backdated document you know to be untrue would be to bear false witness and to agree to a lie. Exodus 20:16 says You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor. Proverbs 12:22 says Lying lips are an abomination to Yahweh, but those who do the truth are his delight. And Proverbs 19:1 says Better is the poor who walks in his integrity than he who is perverse in his lips and is a fool. Even when integrity comes with suffering, God honors the truth because He Himself is truth, and there is eternal purpose in it. Psalm 15:1-2 asks Yahweh, who shall dwell in your sanctuary, and answers he who walks blamelessly does what is right, and speaks truth in his heart.

You asked where is the point in telling the truth when suffering follows. The point is that God sees and He is the righteous Judge who will not forget your faithfulness. Matthew 5:10 says Blessed are those who have been persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. Galatians 6:9 says Let us not be weary in doing good, for we will reap in due season, if we don’t give up. Your obedience in refusing to lie is not wasted, even when people do not stop pressuring you right away. The fact that you prayed in Jesus name and the pressure continued does not mean the Lord did not hear you. He hears every prayer in Jesus name, and sometimes His answer is not to immediately remove the trial but to sustain you through it and to bring justice in His perfect time and way. 1 Peter 5:7 says casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you.

We encourage you not to sign anything untrue or backdated under pressure, even if withdrawing feels easier. Do not be coerced into a false statement. Keep telling the truth at your hearing, bring every document, every note of when you were pressured, and calmly present the facts as they happened. It is right to continue to seek wise counsel, and if legal aid could not help, keep a clear written record for the hearing officer. Above all, guard your rest and your health as you are able, bring your sleeplessness and weakness to the Lord each day, and let Him be your advocate when no human advocate has been available. Romans 8:31 reminds us If God is for us, who can be against us.

We are praying together for you now.

Father in heaven, we lift up this dear one to You in the mighty name of Jesus. You see the arrears hearing ahead, the relentless pressure to sign what is false, the exhaustion of body and mind, and the deep feeling of being alone and unheard. Lord, we ask You to be their defender and their strength. Where they are weak, be their strength, for Your grace is sufficient and Your power is made perfect in weakness as You promise in 2 Corinthians 12:9. Grant them Your peace that passes understanding, guard their heart and mind, and give them physical rest and renewed strength. We ask You to restrain those who are acting ruthlessly and to expose any dishonesty, and to give favor and clarity at the hearing so that truth will prevail. Give this precious soul courage to not give in to a lie, to hold fast to integrity even through suffering, and to know that You honor those who walk in truth. Remind them moment by moment that they are not abandoned, that You will never leave them nor forsake them, and that You are near to the brokenhearted. Lead them to the rock that is higher than they are, and uphold them with Your righteous right hand. In Jesus name we pray, Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

This sounds exhausting, and we hear how much weight you are carrying right now with the hearing coming up, the constant pressure to sign that backdated paper, and feeling physically weak and alone in it.

It makes sense you would feel tempted to just sign to make it stop. Wanting relief does not mean you have failed. And it is understandable to ask where truth gets you when holding to it has only brought more strain. Choosing integrity under pressure is costly, and the tiredness you describe is real.

When you are being pressed hard, it can help to slow the decision down. You do not have to sign anything under pressure or on the spot, even if they are insistent. If you can, keep every request in writing, keep copies of everything, and bring a trusted person with you to the hearing to take notes and sit with you so you are not facing it alone. If legal aid or an advocacy group could not help before, you might try contacting a different tenant help clinic or legal aid intake again before the hearing date and ask specifically for a brief review of that document before you make any decision about withdrawing.

We also notice you mentioned feeling physically weak and not feeling heard by doctors. Alongside prayer, please consider seeing your doctor again soon and bringing a short written list of what you are experiencing physically and how the stress has affected you, and bring someone you trust to help you be heard.

Father, we lift this dear one to You in Jesus' name. You see the pressure, the sleeplessness and weakness, and the loneliness in this fight. Give rest, clear wisdom for each next step, and protection from coercion. Provide trustworthy help and someone to stand nearby. Sustain integrity and bring peace that steadies the heart through this hearing. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

Your burden has been heard, and the trembling of body and spirit under this long pressure is not hidden from the Lord. To be pressed to sign what is not true, to be told over and over to tell your story and find no help, to go to physicians and feel unheard, to cry to the Lord in the name of Jesus and find the pressure still continuing, this is a sore trial that well may make you feel weak and abandoned.

You ask why your prayer seems unanswered, and whether God has forgotten. Remember that our blessed Lord Himself, whose lightest word is prevailing with Heaven, was permitted when here below to cry, and cry, and cry again, and yet to receive no comforting answer for a season. The Psalm says, O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not. He knows what it is to wait while Heaven seems silent. This does not mean your prayer has been despised. There is truth that those who have learned to live in the spirit world understand, that when a child speaks to its father, its father grants its request, yet not always in the hour or in the way the child expects. What washing even our prayers need, what cleansing, what purging. We may make mistakes both in the substance and in the motives, and still the Lord, who is gracious and full of compassion, slow to anger and of great mercy, hears according to His wisdom and not according to our haste.

You are tempted to think there is no point in telling the truth, and to sign the backdated paper and withdraw the hearing to find relief. Hear this, you are saved by faith, not by feeling, and when feeling ebbs out to the very last degree, still hold on to Jesus, sink or swim, still trust in Him. Integrity does come with suffering in this present world, yet to forsake the truth to gain ease is to wound your own conscience and to grieve Him who is the God of truth. Men cannot be induced to examine themselves, and many prefer to shut their eyes rather than see what would distress them, but it is dishonesty to soul and to God to render a false account. To sign what you know to be untrue, even under relentless pressure, would be to bear false witness, and the peace bought so would soon become a heavier burden than the hearing itself. The point in telling the truth is that God sees, that conscience may remain clear before Him, and that in the end truth is the only ground that will stand.

Men ought always to pray, and that under all oppositions to prayer. Instead of going round to the servant and trying to curry favor with him, go straight to the Master. Go at once to headquarters about everything. When you sit like Job on the dunghill, still bless His name and praise His character forever and ever. It is not your prayers that can save you, it is Christ's prayers, Christ's tears, Christ's sufferings, Christ's blood and Christ's death. If you trust to your prayers you have gone back to beggarly elements, but if you trust to Christ who ever lives to make intercession for you, you have a plea that never fails. Your prayers, though feeble and broken, are acknowledged when taken to the bank of Heaven, because they bear His name.

Therefore do not withdraw what is true for the sake of quiet. Do not set your hand to a false date. Keep the hearing that is appointed, and let the matter be judged upon what is true. Keep every paper, note every instance of pressure with date and words used, and take a faithful witness with you if you may. Seek again the tenant advocacy and legal aid, not to tell the story at large, but to ask plainly, will you stand with me at the hearing and help me to speak what is true. And care for this weak body which God has given you. Rest as you are able, take simple nourishment, seek quiet sleep, and ask the Lord to sustain your frame as well as your spirit.

May the Lord Himself be your comforter when no other comforter is near. May He give you strength for this day, and keep your foot from a false step. May He turn the hearts of those who press you, or restrain them, according to His holy will, and may He let you see that though you feel abandoned, you are greatly beloved of your God, and kept by Him who raised the dead. Continue in prayer, not because prayer compels God, but because God invites you to cast your burden upon Him who cares for you.