Call For Fasting 3

Hello every one as we start this fast I felt lead to share some verses on fasting.

Matthew 6: 16-18 And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

Isiah 58:6 “Is not this the fast that I choose: to loose the bonds of wickedness, to undo the straps of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and to break every yoke?

Be strong during this fast, the enemy knows how powerful fasting is and will try to stop you by putting thoughts in your head of reasons to stop. Surround yourself in Gods presents with music and reading His word. Speak to God continuously He will answer. There is so much power in fasting it will change you God will give you an encounter with Him. Seek His answers and be sure you pray for others not just your self.

Job 42:10 - And the LORD turned the captivity of Job, when he prayed for his friends: also the LORD gave Job twice as much as he had before.

Marriages to pray for

Aju & Karen Ruth
Dan & Susan
Jacob and Lisa
Ray & Heather
Scott & Angie
BJ & Theresa
Dearlise & John
Allison & Shimon
Greg & Brandy
John & Marie
Scott & Crystal
Gary & Casandra Roberts
Tab & Span
Tamra & Teron Roberts

My excitement of what God is going to do is so high right now. I can't wait to see the testimonies. Be strong and remember we have all authority over the enemy make sure you let the enemy know that you know that.

God bless

 

[raven28690]

Had to chill out a little before posting anymore. Almost getting to the point where I will be the one to pursue the divorce.

I'm starting to get phone calls again but now from new people telling me "things they think I need to know because they are fed up with the affair"

Honestly I don't need to know anymore as Im still trying to stomach the things I have already learnt.



I guess if there is any positive to this it lets me know I still have a BAD temper over this whole ordeal that I thought I had overcame and got past but obviously Im just covering it up and its still there eating away at me.

Feel like Im getting ready to hit my breaking point.

 

[allibear86]

Raven, please dont get too fed up or frustrated to where you will revert back to your old ways. Thats what satan wants. Instead tell those people that you really dont want to know anymore of what your wife and the other man are doing and that you are trying to focus more on God and what He says. Ask God for His peace. Cry if you need to. Dont cover up anything. Cry out to God about everything that you are feeling. He knows everything already but He wants you to engage with Him. That is what i have learned. I have also learned to just let go and let God work. I decided last week that no matter what happens I am going to be ok because God has me and wont let any harm come to me. I talked to God and told Him that no matter what happens from here on out, I will be ok. I told Him that even if He does not bring my husband and restore my marriage I will be ok. I am blessed more that i could have ever imagined because He and His Son are with me 24/7. I gave Him praises for everything. I told Him that i love my husband very much, but I just let him go and let God work on me and on my life. I told God what i want for my husband and his life and i felt a peace about the whole thing. I feel such a peace because i know everything that i told God was the truth because i felt it in my heart. I told God i have to be ok. I told Him i dont want to hurt anymore and i choose to look to Him for everything now and forever. I told Him He is my husband, not just for this season, but for the rest of my life. And i meant it. Now suddenly, my husband and i are on great terms again.We have been taking more for the past couple days. Then yesterday happened. I had to print out and sign a credit card authorization form for one of our dogs to get his shots and also get fixed at my husband's job. I decided it would be easier that way and then just give my husband my card so he could pay for it for me. I saw that i had to actually sign it. I have been so used to signing as my married name...which is hyphenated...but i didnt know if i should sign just with my maiden name so that way my husband wouldnt get mad or offended seeing his last name. I asked the lord what i should do and He said to ask my husband. So i asked him. I was expecting my husband to say "Allison come on.... just use your maiden name" or something like that. But much to my surprise, he said "Its up to you right now"......I was so shocked. But i was so happy at the same time. I signed as my married name and praised God for it. But i still remained humble. Then my husband called a little later and we had a nice conversation. We also discussed how he was getting off at midnight and was planning to pick up our dog from the house and carry him back to his job and they would sleep there because his job has an upstairs area where employees can take breaks and sleep if they wanted to. I said ok and that i will get our dog's stuff ready. We said our goodbyes and hung up. Then he called a few minutes later again and told me that his cousin called and asked if it would be possible if she could by the things that we used at our wedding. But my husband told me that he gave me my respect and said he would ask me but he knows that they mean something and that i would want to keep them. I thanked him for that because they really do mean something. He said he will always give my respect because of what we had. Then he said he would never just push me to the side and say "screw her, i dont want anything to do with her". I thanked him again (because that is truly how i feel sometimes). He said your welcome and told me he will call later. We said our goodbyes and i thanked God again...but still remained humble. Them suddenly i heard the Holy Spirit tell me that i need to clean up because my husband will be spending the night. I thought i heard wrong or that it was just my mind so i kind of pushed it to the side. Then later in the evening, my friend called and aksed if i wanted to go out to dinner with, her treat. I said yes. WE went out, ate, and i was back home by 9:45. I knew i had to wake up early the next morning so i changed my clothes and was getting ready for bed. But then thats when the Holy Spirit hit me again and told me to clean up because my husband was coming to spend the night. So i obeyed Him and started putting up my laundry and straightened things up a bit. I finished at 11:27pm. I was like ok well my husband still has 30 minutes till he gets off so i'll just relax until he calls me and gets here. So lay down. then at 11:30 on the dot, my husband calls and saysthat he is off and on the way. I said ok and that all of Noah's (our dog) stuff is ready. He said ok. then he said he decided that he was just going to spend the night at the house because he was really tired and wasnt going to feel like driving back again. I was so shocked but stayed humble and told him that was cool and that the room is nice and clean for him to sleep in. He thanked me and said that he would just sleep for a few hours and then get up and leave i told that i get up at 5 a.m. so we could just get up at the same time. He said he might wake up a little earlier than that because he didnt want to be stuck in traffic. I said ok and that i would see him when he got here. he said ok an thanked me. We hung up and i just started praising God. Then i got on my knees and just started praying. Then my husband came. We talked a little bit. I asked him if we wanted to change into some clean clothes so that way he wouldnt be sleeping in the bed with dirty clothes. he said yes please and thank you. So gave a shirt and some sweat pants. He thanked me and i asked him if there was anything else he needed before we got to bed. He said he was thirsty so i got him something to drink. He thanked me and we said goodnight. The dogs were so excited that he was there that they slept with him LOL! It was cute seeing all them in the bed with him. We both left our room doors open. When i turned all my lights off i couldnt help but feel so much happiness. I started silently praying to God over my husband. Then i heard my husband's phone chime and my heart stopped. Then thoughts of him maybe texting a female crept into my mind. I started getting sad and start to panic. But then i turned straight to God and asked Him to please reveal to me who he was talking to and if it was a female. Then i felt a peace and told God, even if it is another female, i still love my husband very much and forgive him for all the hurt he caused/will cause me. I then, 15 minutes later, i heard my husband snoring. I couldnt help but smile because i miss that sound so much. I talked to God a little bit more...then around 1 i fell alseep. Then an alarm goes off but its not mine. I look at my phone at it was only 4:40. Then i heard my husband and the dogs start getting up. The dogs ran into my room to say good morning and LET US OUT WOMAN! LOL! MY husband came in the room and apologized. I told it was ok because i get up at 5 so I might as well take my time and get ready. I took the dogs out and was walking my husband out. He thanked me and said that He slept great. I said good im glad. Then he said the sound last night was his FB notification and was sorry if it was loud. I said it was ok it didnt really bother me. (praise God the devil is a liar!) We hugged and said our goodbyes and i said goodbye to Noah as well. When my husband left i just layed back down and praised God. But i still remained humble. Throughout the whole day and night i stayed humble and just trusted God for everything. God is always there looking out for us. He knows what we need and when we need it as long as we keep looking to Him and trusting Him. I dont know what all is going to happen with me and my husband but either way, I will be ok knowing God is there beside me.



Sorry this is so long. Jeez whats wrong with me LOL.

 

[raven28690]

Nothing is wrong with you alli.

We all have ALOT of things on our mind and its good to be able to express our thoughts and whats going on inside both good and bad. Sometimes by writing out these feelings and being able to go back and look at them, it helps us to see more clearly. Don't get me wrong, Im not saying to overlook God and not tell him these things.

Like that ol saying of the people who are not involved see our situations more clearly as they are on the outside looking in whereas we are right in the center and not always able to look at things from an all around perspective.



I have made it known I don't want to know anymore. I know too much already.

Im starting to get calls now from people who I don't even know telling me "I just thought you outta know this". Now Im gun shy answering my own telephone.

All any more info does is cause me to fume whereas Im getting to the point if I catch them out somewhere together, Well....... I don't know. Its like Im being pushed and I will only be pushed so far before I stop being pushed any further. I don't know if that's pride, values, or the way I was raised. I know that's wrong to a degree as Jesus taught us to love one another and to turn the other cheek but I will admit I struggle with turning the other cheek at times.

John Wayne once said "I wont be wronged, I wont be insulted, and I wont be laid a hand on. I don't do these things to other people and I require the same from them."

I liked this saying as I believe we need more good people in this world who are willing to stand up for whats right and what they believe in even when no one else will or does. Lord knows we have enough people already who just follow the other crowd because "everyone else is doing it."



Trust me and believe me when I say Im trying very very hard to control my temper and deal with this anger issue. I don't want the old me back nor do I want to revert back to any of my old ways.

The last time I lost my temper I had to get stitches in my hand so I certainly don't want to go that route anymore. I have always tried to stay out of situations, conflicts or places that could cause me to lose my temper but what do you do though when a conflict of this caliber is dropped right on top of you? Yes, Im praying hard.

Would love nothing more than to see ANY kind of breakthrough very soon to ease some of this tension. And would LOVE to come out from under this storm.

 

[raven28690]

BTW alli thank you and greenizs8 for sharing what you both have wrote.

It is uplifting to me to see the Lord working wonders in your marriages and helps me to focus on God rather than negatives.

And thank you shelianoka for that prayer.

 

[allibear86]

I pray that you have a breakthrough soon raven. I pray we all do, in our marriages and with our spouses. I wish i could give advice on how to channel your anger but i honestly dont know what to say other than allow God to do His perfect work in you. I dont know what other issues you and your wife had that caused the affair and the separation, but maybe your anger was part of the problem. Maybe. I honestly dont know, that between you guys and its really none of my business. But i'm sure there are things about you, and the rest of us here, that God needs to change before He brings your wife back.

I can honestly say that I am happy. I have a great job that i have always wanted. I've been there for 4 yrs now and it has NEVER felt like work. Never. I only have like 3 really close friends but i love them to death. Even though i have a broken family, i am blessed to say that i have a family that i love and that loves me. I am thankful for my husband and our relationship. But most of all i am thankful that i have a God that loves me with all His heart and a Savior that loves me so much that He died FOR me. I am so happy and blessed to have such a wonderful and blessed life. Whether God brings my husband back or not, or He restores my marriage or not, I am so happy and blessed about my life. I cant wait to see what God has planned for me in my future. Of course i want my husband to be a part of those plans but thats only if God wants that to happen. I trust Him.Whether God restores my marriage or not, I am still honoring and obeying His instructions to pray over my husband, and i know God honors that. And i know that ultimately when all things are said and done, I will receive my crown of glory and will dwell in the Kingdom of Heaven forever. I praise God for that.

 

[scott123]

I just want to give a little testimony, my wife shared with me that she feels stuck right now. She opened up to me more than ever before. Raven trust me I know all about dealing with anger I had two people I thought I could trust stab me in the back, my wife and my once best friend started dating each other not even a full week after my wife said she wanted a divorce. But i learned the God loves both of them as much as He loves me so I learned how to love both of them as God does. Dont seek anger and yes we must always turn the other cheek and truat God because Remember what romans 12:19 says Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.

 

[raven28690]

That is awesome Scott. Sounds like your wife is now starting to realize the mistake she has made. You have got to be hestatic now and praising God.

I didn't know the guy she is with now at all but yea it did feel like a stab (actually a third stab) in the back from her.

Funny you mention that. I read a few minutes ago Proverbs 16 which says a fools wrath is known at once, but a prudent man covers shame.



Alli, yes I do have a bad temper however I have learnt to watch my temper and if I did get to the point of being that mad, I went off by myself until I cooled off however I haven't been that mad in a VERY long time which until now was a good thing.

It wasn't the anger that she had issues or problems with (I had learnt to watch my temper by then and truth be told it was my wife who helped me control my temper) but a lack of communication and physical emotions from me.

I have mentioned before that I tend to keep people at a distance from me only letting them in so far. Get hurt enough and you build walls out of self perseverance however I realize that those walls are not the answer. I had also grown to be self reliant and that played into this aswell. Spent a lot of time by myself when I was driving a truck OTR so don't guess I ever got over being with someone and that I was no longer alone by being married if that makes sense.

Something similar to this occurred many years ago (although not to the degree she has done now) that did cause me to start throwing up those walls and once I saw we were growing apart last year even more walls went up.

What she has done is wrong PERIOD but by throwing up those walls I pushed her away. AND yes, had I been involved with God the way I am now it would have made a difference.

It takes 2 people to make a marriage and it takes 2 people to destroy one. I realize that no matter what the other spouse has done or did, WE also played a part in the destruction of our marriages.

 

[Mariposa101]

I've felt a lot of conviction this week.



I don't know if it's God speaking to my heart or my own human thoughts & emotions getting the best of me. I have been pursued by several men, mostly male friends who want to be more. One of them kissed me, and it made me extremely uncomfortable, so I am creating distance/space between us. I have been socializing a lot and making new friends, and a few men have been very open about being interested in me. My gut response is to tell them all, "I'm unavailable." I thought I would be blurting out that I'm over my husband and don't love him anymore, but instead I find myself expressing that I am still very much in love with him and am waiting for him. I wear my ring everywhere I go.



After spending innocent time hanging out with friends, I am burdened with guilt... And, find myself missing my husband often. This month, my schedule will be very busy - between my career, grad school, and social life, things will be hectic. I have a lot of distractions and noise surrounding me lately. On a plus side, I am not feeling lonely & stopped feeling sorry for myself. I've praised God for this. I thank him for keeping me strong. On the other hand, I haven't had time to collect my thoughts; I haven't been devoting a lot of quiet time for just me and God. I know that it is a vital part of my own transformation process, this has to change. I'm trying to find some moments to do that.



I've also been noticing some signs lately. I've dreaming about my husband a lot. In my dreams, we're back together. We're happy. I'm not sure if these are revelations or just wishful thinking. A few weeks ago, I wasn't able to sleep and I was very fatigued, but after waking up from these dreams my heart feels lighter and I feel refreshed. I've been getting some good sleep. Also, remember how I've said the cardinal is my spirit animal? It's been said to represent the Blood of Christ and is a totem for hope & love. The cardinal keeps visiting, and I've seen images of the cardinal everywhere. Once on a playing card, another time at a craft fair when a lady was holding a cardinal lawn ornament, and one painted on a mural on the side of a semi truck on the freeway two days ago.



I've asked God over & over to remove my husband from my thoughts & from my heart, if it's in His Will. But, nomatter how much I've denied it or didn't recognize it, I find myself still praying for our reconciliation. I keep experiencing things that remind me that I still love him and want my marriage restored. Unfortunately, I am still too stubborn or too blind/deaf to decipher what is truly coming from God; I still can't tell what he's trying to tell me. Or maybe, I just have too much doubt...



But, I do feel like these experiences are convicting me to stay firm, to be patient & wait for God to move, and to keep standing.

 

[raven28690]

I still pray for my wife daily but I have not dreamed about her but maybe once since she left.

Could be because unlike what you mentioned Mari, I haven't slept good in quite sometime.

Know the Lord has me reading a lot on punishment and marriage and yea Im in the same boat as Im either too stubborn or blind/deaf to see or hear what he is telling me.

I know God still views me as being married right now so if I was to get with someone else to move on, I would basically be doing the same thing my wife is now and God would not be happy in the least.

Last night I read a scripture out of Hebrews 13 that said "Marriage is honorable among all, and the bed undefiled; but fornicators and adulterers God will judge."

That is a pretty strong statement at the end.

Yes God does forgive us when we ask him however there again, we have to repent. There is simply no other way around that. God freely forgives when we repent (stopping the sin we are doing and getting back into his will) otherwise as the Bible says God doesn't even hear your prayer (if Im not mistaken it says its an abomination to him). For someone who is sinning and asking forgiveness but still sinning, all they are doing is asking Gods blessing on the sin that they are wanting to continue in and God don't work that way.

One of the things I had a hard time understanding was and Im not sure if I have mentioned this or not but this was my 2nd marriage. Know my wife brought that up one night of we are not even suppose to be together because we were both married before. Well, I had asked around on that trying to come to an understanding and it was told to me

did I ask God to forgive me? yes, but what about the repenting part? Well it was then said to me God is NOT going to ask you to sin to get into his Will PERIOD AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN.

The second marriage is valid and a covenant between you, your spouse, and God. God is not going to condone you divorcing your now wife to go back to your first or get with a 3rd. We fall back on Malachi 2:16 where God said he hates divorce. Can also look at 1 Corinthians where it says "Are you bound to a wife? Do not seek to be loosed."

Lastly we have "What God has joined together, let no man separate".

You reap what you sow. If you sow in the flesh so of the flesh you will reap. Tells me by sinning and going against God (sin is openly defying God when you know what his Will and commandments are) God is going to deal with you. I have heard it said as God will spank us. LOL, well we would all be lucky if that's all he does. God knows what will get your attention and open your eyes. It could be taking someone out of your life (speaking of death), maybe even afflicting you with a life threatning illness, etc, etc.

Yes God is a God of love, grace, and mercy but he is also a God of wrath when we disobey him. Don't believe me? Then explain Sodom and Gomorra or Nineveh.



As usual I have rambled on.

Mari, I believe God is using those experiences and convictions on you to keep you on track for his Will in your life but as everyone here has been reading, I have issues so Im not sure how much stock you may want to put into anything that I say.

 

[raven28690]

This was sent to me by a prayer partner in Jerusalem and I wanted to share it with all of you and hope that it is a blessing to each and everyone here.

The Bible says in Psalm 139, “You shaped me first inside and then out. You formed me in my mother's womb.†God created you for a purpose. God is greater than you think, closer than you think, more ambitious than you think, more committed than you think...and you can trust Him! Frame your world around the favor of God. Get out of your comfort zone.

This is the good news: If you have any mountains that seem impossible to climb, the favor of God works best in the realm of the impossible. Psalm 5:12 declares, “For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.â€
Yes, the favor of God is when the realm of the impossible touches things beyond the grave which have eternal significance. Moses was called to pastor two million stiff-necked, rebellious people. Because of his obedience, God declared, “I know you by name, and you have also found favor in my sight†(Exodus 33:12).

Crisis is an opportunity to trust God who can use you to do something that the world will know was through Him, simply because it could not have been you. You can be a vessel to manifest His glory.
Let the Spirit of God open your eyes to this revelation, and cease to be obsessed with what you are going through, but rather with what you are going to. I promise you once you get this revelation, I believe the Peace of God which surpasses all understanding, “will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus†(Philippians 4:7) as you enter into His favor.