Premarital sex is a sin against the Lord and this is not a ban from churches, it is God's word. Thou shall not fornicate. It produces depression, anxiety and loss of self-esteem.
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. It's important to remember that seeking forgiveness and support is a significant step. Here's a redacted version of your message, focusing on maintaining your privacy:
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I'm sorry God. I could not resist my lust and I have committed a...
I have been in two relationships and I had premarital sex with both but I thought I would be marrying later things didn't work out. This is my last relationship with a boy whom I want to marry. I had intimate with him also but now I want to wait till marriage and I want Jesus to help me marry...
My blog is aimed at married couples, so I don’t typically write on subjects that would be more useful for singles. However, I received a great question I want to cover:
What verses in the Bible are the basis of teaching abstinence/ban on premarital sex? My wife and I both grew up in Christian...