Nita Mae
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Hello every1, many of you hv been praying for me with the molestation/abuse situation. For a while I was doing well with getting back to a place where I was trusing God again. On Christmas Eve, the enemy just began to attack me in a way that I still can not believe. The man who abused my children,showed up at my parent's door while I was there with my children. I was in disbelief at the way my father responded to the abuser. He treated him like he had not done anything to my children. My father was there in the ER when doctors checked my daughter and admitted my son almost 5 days for sexual and physical abuse. My father was right there when the doctor called the Child abuse hotline himself to report what had happened to my daughter. I was so hurt & still am. It is unbelievable that my family could do this. I was told by my own father that he could invite whomever he wanted in his house and proceeded to tell the abuser to go to the back where we were. I told my father not to allow him to come near my children or we would leave and never come back and my father told me and my children bye. Oh God! I don't understand. I keep trying to think about Job and try my best to be strong but I hurt soo, so bad inside. I went home that night and decided to spend CHRISTmas day at home with my children. We opened gifts that night bcuz I needed to do something to take my mind off the hurt. The next day I prepared CHRISTmas dinner. I'm 9 months pregnant, due to have my baby 1-1-12 but they plan to take my baby today. I hv a very hard time walking and most days I can't even get around because of the pain in my legs & back. I had dinner int he oven and when it was about done, I told my 16 yr old daughter to turn off the stove for me. I ended up telling her 3 different times only to find that when I did get up to eat, the kitchen was filled with smoke and the food was burnt crisp. I was so hurt by the other stuff that I didn't even get mad. I was tired & just told my 16yr daughter to fix her other sisters & little brother some hotdogs or chicken nuggests bcuz that was all I had left. When I told her to fix them food, she responded, I'm not fixin them nothing! I snapped. I marched down to her room & before I new it, I was about to smack her upside her head. She moved and I ended up grabbing her up by her shirt. I told her that she was going to fix them food & she was going to fix it now!! She let the food burn & didn't want to help fix the problem she let happen. Once she fixed the food, she went back into her room & called my father. He came running over asking me why did I beat my daughter? He never asked me my side, he just ran with what she ( a child)told him. I asked him nicely to just leave. My mind was closed to talking to him anyway bcuz of what happened the day before & now I really didn't care to talk to him at all. He refused to leave me. He was in my room telling me how he was going to call the child abuse hotline on me. This made me hurt so bad bcuz one of the reasons the man who molested my children got away with it was bcuz I could not afford a lawyer. He had a seasoned lawyer who was known for his crooked ways in the court. I begged my parents for help but they didn't want to spend any money bcuz they were too busy spending it on my sister who took another woman's husband & put that marriage assunder so that she could marry the guy. My dad would not leave and yall, I ended up cursing at him. Anybody who knows me knows I never curse. I was in so much pain that not only did I feel alone but I felt like those who should be there for me, weren't. My dad finally left my room to leave & there was just a prompting in my spirit from God to get up to make sure he was gone. When I did get up, I witnesses him walking out with my daughter. He told her to pack her suitcase & she had & he was taking her. I told her to get back in her room & that she was not going with them. My father told her to keep going and they got into his truck. I told him that if he didn't tell her to get back in this house that I would call the police. He didn't think I would & mocked me, saying "call um". I called. The police told him that he had no right to come in my home & take my child. My father stood there infront of the police & told lies. He said I beat my daughter & kept telling the police that I was beating her because I was mad at him for letting the abuser in his home the night before. God knows this had nothing to do with what happened the night before. She disobeyed & talked back to me. That is why she got in trouble. My daughter stood there while my dad lied & didn't say a word in my defense about the so called beating because she thought they would let her go with my dad and so did he. How can stuff like this happen, especially on Jesus's Birthday?? The police told my dad that if he believed she was beaten, that he had to call the child abuse hotline to report it. My dad said that he was going to do it. When the police left, we went in the house but I went back outside to my truck to cry & talk to God. I didn't understand why these things were happenning to me. I know for a long time my dad has been wanting to get my children for financial purposes. About 3 years ago, I was talked into letting him adopt my then 15 yr old son. My dad claimed he could get benefits from his job so that he could save up money for my son to go to college. but when my son went to college, there was no money saved. All of my children are honor roll & my son was doing really well. When he finally went to stay with my parents, his grades dropped. My son should have graduated in the top 25% of his class atleast. He barely made it thru highschool bcuz my parents refused to structure him and allowed him to play video games 23 hours of the day. When I tried to get him back to help him get back on track, they told my son that he doesn't hv to obey me or go with me, They told him I was no longer his parent when they knew the agreement was that this adoption was for my son's education & that I would still be his mother and raise him. Ever since then especially since my son is too old to draw the money anymore, my dad has been trying to get me to sign over my rights to not 1 but 2 more of my children. I REFUSE! He thought that he could lie to the police & say I beat my child to get me in trouble to make it easier for him to take her. As I sat in my car after the police left, God told me to get up and take her back to the police station. If he was going to call the abuse hotline, I needed hard proof that my daughter had not been beaten. When the officer came out to help us, I explained to him my concern. Right there my daughter told him that she never told my dad I beat her. She said she only told him to come get her. I just looked at her bcuz this whole time she sat there & watched my dad lie to the police about me beating her & she didn't say a word until now. The officer looked my daughter over & he looked at her & said " I don't see a mark on her". She rolled her eyes & said I didn't say she beat me. The officer said if my dad did call the hotline to have them call him as a witness to what happened and to what she said. When I got home, I decided to fix me something to eat bcuz I had not eaten all that day. My daugther in question comes in & says mom, will you help me do my hair. She act like nothing had happened and everything was just magically back to normal. She had a party that next day but I told her that she would not be able to go bcuz she needed to be home when the child abuse workers showed up. The next day I slept in late. I woke up to her coming in my room dressed up. My sister had come over to take her to the party even after I had already said she would not be able to go. See my family is a big paart of this whole problem. The hv been teaching my children that they don't hv to respect & mind me. Somehow they feel like I'm the failure bcuz instead of going to college, I got married & started a family. Even though during that time I have earned so many hours that I am very close to earning a degree in Business Administration, I'm still a dissapointment to him bcuz I did not follow his plan in life. Last year there was a similar situation where I decided not to take family pictures with my family. They came over & picked up my daughter without me even knowing & took her to take pictures when I told them she was not to take any pictures with them. I struggle to raise my children on my own. I treat my children well & I teach & try to train them to be God fearing individuals. I don't do negative things bcuz I want them to see an example in me and the way I live my life. Since I wrote on here last time, I did slip from the Lord a little. I truly felt that He was neglecting me & the issues that concerned me. I've been making my way back to him but the attacks are hitting me hard. Lord, I do thank you for everything that you do. Tho the attacks come, you are keeping me so I have to believe you are bring me to a place in my life where I can be an example to others on how good you are. Saints please pray for me. I don't want to fall into darkness. I don't want to do things that is out of character. I want to be what God has called me to be but I need strength and help! Lift me and my children up. Pray for our protection from the enemy and from those who seek to destroy my relationship with my children. My dad is a preacher & needs to be prayed for as well. He loves control and will do anything to get it and money. He uses his influence to try to make me look bad just as he did in front of those officers but I rebuke all negative words and illwishes spoken or prayed about me and my children. I hv to reschedule having my baby today bcuz I want this to be over before I hv surgery. Just keep me in your prayers every1. Thank you all for listening and God Bless!! ~Nita Mae
