T13
Disciple of Prayer
I need your prayers desperately, I need gods peace. On Christmas night my boy friend of 6 years proposed, I didn't see it coming, he had asked my dad earlier that day. I was so happy we bought a house little over a year ago and things well we struggle with the same everyday things that every one else does bills, home repairs, things like that we rarely argue have so much in common, except he is an alcoholic, and he made me a promise Christmas night that he would slow down at the very least, and last night I discovered on his phone that he has been talking to another woman and this woman sends very graphic photos of herself to him. I haven't confronted him on this as I don't really know where to start. but I cannot stop crying, I am broken hearted, the thought of taking my own life last night entered into my head I prayed god help me. and today I am hurting inside so much going on in my head and he is still in the dark, he was acting funny so when he passed out I checked his phone. he just thinks life is normal while I am dying inside. he is still planning a wedding, and I am uncertain of life in general. I need gods hand in my life I need my fiancée to stop what hes doing he tells me I am the love of his life his other half and doesn't ever want me to go away. but how can he say those things and feel that if hes doing what hes doing? please pray for us both that he opens his eyes and that I find peace before I lose my mind. thank you

