You simply give it to Him. Give Him the hurt, the pain, those feelings you are feeling. Jesus already knows, and He carried them all (as sin), dealt with it on the cross. It's not yours to carry anymore, they belong to Jesus.
Born again? Brand new creation! A new species of being...spirit, though you have a soul that need to be saved, and you live in that body, which is the temple of the living God.
These are paraphrases: In the Old Testament when Abraham and God cut the covenant, God did it all. He provided the sacrifice, He did it all, and do you know what else He did. All that belonged to God was now Abraham's and all that belonged to Abraham was now God's. When David and Jonathan cut a covenant, what was David's belonged to Jonathan, what was Jonathan's belonged to David. So when Jonathan and Saul died and David was king, He asked, is there anyone from the house of Jonathan still alive. Yes, Jonathan's son who was living in proverty with a relative. So king David had jonathan's son brought to the king's palace and from that day forward, David restored to Jonathan's son all that belonged to his grandfather, Saul.
Jesus carried those hurts you are hanging onto now, so you wouldn't have to. He says, to you, Channey, I'll give you my yoke which is easy and light and in exchange, I'll carry your burdens for you, and in fact when I was crucified on the cross, they were crucified also.
Then you press into God. God wants your heart. He has seen greatness in you and satan wants you to live a defeated life. You go after God, become that same love that is complete in Christ and has been shed abroad in your heart and let God deal with your husband. I encourage you to let go of the past. That stuff you carried is not yours anymore. Enter into the kingdom of God of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
Father, swoop and grab this daughter of yours and give unto her the joy of your salvation. Strengthen her weakened knees and feeble arms, and as Moses had others help hold his arms up, so I hold my sisters arms up for the victory is hers.
I speak life to you Channey and to your marriage.
Keep your focus, your eyes on Jesus and you will have victory. No matter how things look, what things are said, you keep speaking life to your marriage and life to your husband. In Jesus name, I speak restoration and reconciliation to this marriage. I break, apart, smash, loose and destroy every hurtful word, curse, harsh word that has ever been spoken between Channey and her husband in Jesus name. Every lie and deception of the enemy I stomp into the ground, breaking it's hold.
Thank you FAther, you are the God who restores and redeems. Bring Channey into that inner chamber of worship with You and You alone.
In Jesus name. Amen.
