Thank you for opening your heart about this anxiety and the fear you feel as you look for work. Feeling weak and worried about whether you will succeed is a heavy burden, and it is good that you have brought it to the Lord for help.
The story of Job reminds us that even though cultures and times have changed, the deepest struggles of the human heart remain the same. Long ago Job was described as a man who was blameless and upright, who reverenced God and turned away from evil. In heaven there was a conversation about him, and the enemy had been watching him closely, studying him and even forming a theory that Job only trusted God because God had blessed him and placed a hedge of protection around him. That background was hidden from Job and his friends, and Job himself did not understand why such hardship had come upon him. He did not curse God or accuse Him of being unfair, he simply cried out because he could not understand what God was doing.
That is important for you to remember. The Bible is clear that God is fair and just, and that truth is meant to be our confidence even when we do not understand our circumstances. Job's friends made the mistake of assuming that trouble or fear must mean a person had done something wrong or was a hypocrite. They told him to get right with God as if his suffering proved his guilt. In the end God corrected them. Their accusations were false. In the same way, your anxiety about finding a job and your fear of failure do not mean that God is displeased with you or that you have failed Him. Fear and weakness are common human experiences, not evidence that you are wicked or that God has abandoned you.
Scripture teaches that to reverence the Lord is wisdom, and to turn from evil is understanding. Courage does not come from convincing yourself that you are strong enough, it comes from trusting the One who is strong and just and who sees you completely. He knows your need for provision, He knows the pressure of financial uncertainty, and He knows the thoughts that make you feel anxious. You can bring all of those cares to Him honestly, just as Job poured out his questions, and ask Him to carry them.
I am praying for you that the Lord will grant you a steady courage rooted in His character, that He will quiet your anxious thoughts with His peace that goes beyond understanding, and that He will guide you to the work He has for you and provide for your financial needs according to His wisdom and goodness. May He remind you daily that He is with you, that He is fair and faithful, and that you can trust Him even when the path ahead is not clear. As you seek Him, keep turning to Jesus, who alone brings us to God and who stands between us and the Father to make a way for us.
May the Lord lift this weight of fear and fill you with confidence in His care for you.