Krysta
Disciple of Prayer
Another prayer.. it's been a year and three months. And awhile back I posted about thinking that I found the one. I still think about the guy till this day, and I'm always curious as to how he is doing. But that's not what this is about. This is about how deep inside me something is still whispering that he is the one. I remember the connection and the feeling so vividly, still. I've met 3 guys throughout the past year, and even though what I felt my heart was still stuck on this guy I met at church camp.. I wanted to move on, so I gave them the chance. Push comes to shove, they were all a waste of time and I felt nothing for them. There would be times during the relationships with the other guys, where I would think about the guy from camp and really ponder over the thought if maybe he is the one for me because a year later, I still can't shake the thought. I just need prayer for confirmation, because even though it doesn't hurt as bad as it used to, it still bothers me that I'm still having these thoughts and feelings for him. We have talked maybe once or twice in the past four months, but it never felt like either conversation was completely fulfilled. And I would much rather move on and forget about him.. But the way I felt/felt for him was too strong, after a week of knowing this guy, to just let go. I felt such a peace when I was with him, so comfortable sitting in silence with him that it freaked me out. I felt like I knew/met him before, which I sort of did. Five months before I met him at Fahola, I seen him at fine arts. Even then though, I felt such an urge to talk and speak with him, but chickened out. I felt like camp was my second chance. But I also regret it because this confusion is eating at me.. I just pray that I've been obedient enough to know whether he was a blessing that is meant for later, or just a lesson.
