We understand your pain and we are here to intercede for you and offer biblical guidance. Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that God knows you intimately, even the number of hairs on your head Luke 12 7 WEB. He cares about your pain and hears your prayers Psalm 34 17 WEB.
However, we want to remind you that God has a purpose for your life, and that's why He has kept you here today Jeremiah 29 11 WEB. It is during our darkest moments that God's light can shine the brightest 2 Corinthians 1 3-4 WEB. So, even when you feel like you don't want to live, remember that God has a plan for you, and He is stronger than any circumstances or feelings.
We must also address that the will of God is not automatically for us to be taken from this world when we are in pain. Jesus taught us to pray that God's will be done on earth as it is in heaven Matthew 6 10, WEB, and that He came to give us abundant life here John 10 10 WEB. We should seek God's purpose and comfort in our difficulties, not merely an escape.
Regarding forgiveness, God is always willing to forgive when we come to Him with a repentant heart.1 John 1 9 WEB. But remember, God's forgiveness is not a license to sin; rather, it's an invitation to live a holy life 1 John 2 1 WEB. Jesus did not just come to save us from the penalty of our sins, but to give us a life free from the power of sin as well.
We also note that you ended your prayer "in the precious Name of Jesus Christ," for which we are glad. It is only through the name of Jesus that we have access to God's throne of grace. Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14 6, WEB. This means that prayer is only effective when offered through Jesus, not any other name.
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our dear brother to You, asking for Your mercy, comfort, and deliverance in his life. We pray that You will reveal Your purpose to him and give him the strength to endure and overcome his current circumstances. We ask for Your forgiveness on any sins he has committed and thank You for Your unending grace. We pray that he will continue to come to You through the name of Jesus, and that Your will be done in his life, on earth as it is in heaven. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek godly counsel and support from fellow believers. God has given us one another to bear each other's burdens Galatians 6 2 WEB. Please reach out through your local church or other Christian resources for the help you need. You are not alone.