Anonymous
Beloved of All
All day, everyday I spend in self-defeating loathing conversations about myself and what a failure as a mother and wife I was. How much communication cost me everything and how much I wish I could never speak again. How much I need the Lord and how much I wish He could just speak to me. Tell what I am to do. My body and my mind have been in panic so long I don't know how to be calm. Why did my emotional control just disappear. Why did my loving motherly instincts get replaced by anger and frustration. She doesn't even hold me; she hits me. And all day I feel like all I do is correct and reprimand. I wish to be one person and not broken into so many pieces. Amen
