Alaska Update / New Year

[Justbecause5]

Happy New Year everyone!

There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

Yesterday, was an emotional day for me. It was my anniversary. I so hoped something might happen. Nothing!

In February 2019, my family and I moved to Alaska to work with a small congregation. In August 2022, my contract was complete, and I had secured a teaching position in Texas.

My wife and daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family. My young sons and I flew to Texas to begin the new work and set up our new home.

After we left, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and claimed the stole the sons and took them across state lines. There is no mention of plane tickets or a new job. I was 5000 miles away and knew nothing.

My wife and a sister in Christ, with permission from the court, stole the boys. I have not seen any of my children since then.

I pleaded with God in prayer. I must’ve prayed well over 1 million times, “God please help me God. Please take me back to Alaska.”

Finally, God answered my prayer. This is the one thing that gives me hope. To look back and see the providential hand of God amazes me each time I think about it.

I have suffered in every way imaginable since I’ve been back to Alaska. I am so exhausted. I’ve been homeless. I lost my job, a few jobs due to no fault almost died on the mountain top, etc.. I am exhausted.

Every birthday, holiday or anniversary exhaust me to the nth degree. The pain has been so overwhelming and debilitating. I am exhausted, dear friends.

I endured Thanksgiving, Christmas, my daughter’s birthday and then yesterday was New Year’s Eve and my anniversary.

Yesterday, for the first time I sent my wife a very short email on an old email address, and I simply said “H.A.”

I don’t know if she got it. Sending it brings fear to me because I know she could take it and do something really ugly with it. H.A = Happy Anniversary!

Today is the first. I’ve been doing gig work since June 16 when I lost my job at the lab due to no fault of my own.

This morning, I did not work. I chose to sleep. I just woke up a few minutes ago at 1:15 PM. I’ve been up before, but I slept for four or five hours since then I am exhausted still

I keep coming back here because I need prayer. I believe in prayer.

I’m not afraid to die. I’m not suicidal. But I do wish God would just take me. I’m so exhausted from living in this whole world. I miss my family and my children deeply.

I feel like my very life has been taken out of my body bit by bit and piece by piece.

I did read the psalms 14 times in 2025. This morning I started reading again and I think I’ve completed about 25 psalms. They have been such a wonderful asset to my life.

I’m exhausted!

I feel all alone. I wish God would send a large chariot to get me..

 

[Articles]

We hear your heartache, exhaustion, and the deep longing for restoration in your life. The pain of separation from your wife and children is not something to be minimized, and we stand with you in prayer, lifting this burden before the Lord. First, we must address the foundation of your prayers—your relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to the Father, and it is by His blood that we are saved. Jesus said in John 14:6, *"I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me."* If you have not already, we encourage you to surrender your life fully to Him, confessing your sins and trusting in His sacrifice for your salvation. Without this, our prayers lack the authority they need to move the heart of God.

Your situation is heartbreaking, and we see the hand of God in bringing you back to ###, even if the path has been filled with suffering. The enemy would love to use this pain to isolate you, to make you feel abandoned, and to drain you of hope. But we rebuke that spirit of despair in the name of Jesus! The Bible tells us in Psalm 34:18, *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* You are not alone, even when it feels that way. The Lord sees your tears, hears your cries, and collects them in His bottle (Psalm 56:8). He has not forgotten you.

We must also address the brokenness in your marriage with truth and love. Marriage is a covenant before God, meant to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33). What your wife has done—taking your children without your knowledge, involving the courts in deception, and separating your family—is not only painful but a violation of God’s design for marriage and family. We do not say this to condemn her but to call sin what it is, so that repentance and healing can begin. We must pray for her heart to be softened, for conviction to lead her to seek reconciliation, and for any ungodly influences in her life to be removed. However, we also recognize that reconciliation may not be possible if she remains unrepentant. In such cases, we trust God to be your defender and provider, as He promises in Psalm 68:5-6, *"A father of the fatherless, and a defender of the widows, is God in his holy habitation. God sets the solitary in families."*

Your exhaustion is understandable, but we urge you not to lose hope. The Lord has sustained you through homelessness, job loss, and near-death experiences. He has not brought you this far to abandon you now. We pray that He would renew your strength, as Isaiah 40:31 promises: *"But those who wait for the Lord will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint."* You are in a spiritual battle, and the enemy wants to wear you down. But we declare that you are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves you (Romans 8:37). Put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and stand firm.

We also want to gently challenge you in your approach to your wife. While your email to her was brief, we must ask: What is your heart’s motive in reaching out? Is it to extend grace and an opportunity for reconciliation, or is it driven by loneliness or desperation? Proverbs 4:23 warns, *"Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it is the wellspring of life."* If your motive is not rooted in love and a desire for God’s will, it may open the door to further pain. We encourage you to seek godly counsel—perhaps from a pastor or trusted Christian brother—before taking further steps toward her. Pray for wisdom, as James 1:5 says, *"But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."*

Your commitment to reading the Psalms is a beautiful act of faith. The Psalms remind us that even in our darkest moments, God is our refuge. Psalm 27:10 says, *"When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up."* Cling to these truths. Let them be the lifeline that pulls you out of despair. We also encourage you to find a local church body where you can be supported, encouraged, and held accountable. Isolation is the enemy’s tactic, but fellowship is God’s design for His people (Hebrews 10:24-25).

Now, we lift you up in prayer:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother who is enduring unimaginable pain. Lord, You see his tears, You know his exhaustion, and You understand the depth of his longing for his family. We ask that You would draw near to him, wrapping him in Your love and peace that surpasses all understanding. Renew his strength, Lord, and remind him that he is not alone. You are his refuge and fortress, his God in whom he trusts (Psalm 91:2).

Father, we pray for his wife. Soften her heart, Lord. Convict her of any sin, deception, or hardness of heart that has led her to separate this family. Bring godly influences into her life who will speak truth and lead her toward repentance. If it is Your will, restore this marriage and family, but if not, Lord, be his defender and provider. Protect his children from harm and surround them with Your love, even from afar.

We rebuke the spirit of despair and exhaustion that has weighed him down. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and let Your joy be his strength (Nehemiah 8:10). Provide for his needs—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Open doors for stable employment, safe housing, and godly fellowship. Surround him with believers who will walk alongside him, pray for him, and encourage him in Your truth.

Lord, we ask that You would heal his broken heart. Mend the pieces that have been shattered by betrayal and loss. Remind him of Your faithfulness, even in the darkest valleys. Let him see Your hand at work in his life, just as he has seen Your providence in bringing him back to ###. Give him hope for the future and the patience to wait on Your timing.

We declare that no weapon formed against him will prosper (Isaiah 54:17). We stand in the gap for him, Lord, and we trust You to work all things together for his good (Romans 8:28). Strengthen his faith, deepen his trust in You, and let him experience Your peace that guards his heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).

In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.

Do not lose heart, brother. The Lord is with you, and He is fighting for you. Keep pressing into Him, and trust that He will lead you through this valley. You are not forgotten.

 

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We're here with you, friend. We feel your exhaustion, your longing for your family, and your desperation for hope. We've been reading your story, and it's clear that you're carrying a heavy burden. We want you to know that you're not alone. We're here to lift you up in prayer and to remind you that God sees you, hears you, and loves you deeply.

We're encouraged by your commitment to reading the Psalms. They are a powerful reminder of God's faithfulness, even in the darkest times. Keep pressing in, brother. Keep seeking God's face, and trust that He will meet you in your need.

We also want to encourage you to reach out to a local church or a trusted Christian friend. Isolation can be a dangerous place, and fellowship is a powerful tool that God uses to strengthen and encourage His people. Don't be afraid to ask for help or to share your burden with others.

We're praying for you, friend. We're asking God to renew your strength, to give you hope, and to remind you of His unfailing love. We're trusting Him to work all things together for your good, and we're believing that He will lead you through this valley.

Keep fighting, brother. Keep trusting. And remember, you are never alone. God is with you, and He is fighting for you.