Justbecause5
Servant
There is power in prayer (James 5:16).
I need your prayers. I really do.
Right now, I am sitting in a pizza place that I’ve not sat in in a long time. I finished a quest tonight that paid me an additional some money so I thought I would come here by myself and celebrate.
Right now, I just feel so depressed.
In the summer of 2022, my wife left me. I had gone to Texas to set up our new house and start a new job. I had my two beautiful sons with me.
My wife was in Alaska with my older daughter. They already had tickets to go overseas to visit family. They were supposed to leave in mid September 2022 and return in late December 2022.
After the boys and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court, and convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. There was no mention of plane tickets nor a new job in Texas.
The judge gave permission to my wife to go get the boys. So around September 19, 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ went to the school and took my sons. I was in my classroom working on things for my day.
After the boys were gone, the principal and HR lady came to my room and let me know. I immediately started crying like a baby. It was an instant waterfall of tears that I could not stop. They just fell on the ground. I could not believe what my wife had done to me. I knew that I would probably never see my voice again.
The boys and I had been together for like 45 days. They are very small at the time. We struggled because we didn’t have much money. So we had to do things to overcome not having much money. I was eagerly waiting payday. On payday, I would get my normal paycheck plus a sizable moving allowance. The boys knew the payday was coming and they were excited to the day. My wife took the boys was my payday.
I am the head of my household. I had moved to Texas to start a new job to take care of my family. My two young sons had never been to school and it was their first year in school. I was doing everything that a father should do to take care of his family. My wife simply decided that she did not want to submit to my authority as a husband and father.
So, since my wife took my sons, I have not seen them nor my daughter. It’s mine boggling what women can do when they are mad and hateful. They can destroy a marriage. They can destroy a family with little regard to their own soul or the well-being of others. I wonder if there’s going to be a special place in hell for all the women that destroy their families mainly due to selfishness.
I bet I have prayed for my wife 1,000,000+ times since she stole the boys. I am a forgiving person. I have pleading with God to bring her to repentance. I have pleaded with God to restore my marriage in my family. I’ve played it with God to take me back to Alaska, hoping that a closer proximity would lead to reconciliation.
In the summer of 2024, God orchestrated a plan that took me back to Alaska. Previously, I had tried to go, but was unsuccessful. Having lived in Alaska for nearly 4 years, I know it’s very difficult to go to Alaska unless you have everything set up properly.
In the summer of 2024, God set up everything properly. First, he took me back to California for a temporary job, a 30 day job. The job got extended for 30 days. During the second 30 days, I received an email on July 28, 2024, offering me a teaching position and basketball coaching position in Alaska. I accepted it.
The job in California working for Volkswagen ended around August 15 or so. The company had to pay for a flight back home. So instead of going back to Texas, I took a first class flight worth $850 from San Francisco to Alaska. Again, the hand of God.
However, despite sincere efforts to find a house and a vehicle, I was unsuccessful. So, when I boarded the plane in San Francisco on August 24, 2024, I knew I had no place to live and no car to drive yet, I went anyway.
On the plane, I must’ve quoted 2 Cor 5:7 500 times. Initially, I was so strong. I was confident that before the plane landed, my wife would somehow contact me and provide a place to live in a car to drive. I felt like Abraham when he went to sacrifice Isaac, according to Hebrews, chapter 11, Abraham believed God would race him from the dead.
I was wrong. My plane landed and I was deeply depressed. It was 12:15 AM and I was exhausted from drywall. I quickly gathered my belongings and sat up against the dark wall. I had nowhere to go.
I could write a book about all the individual details that I’m going to leave out of this prayer request.
The next 21 months would be incredibly difficult. I felt like Job in every way. The only thing I have not fully lost is my health. I felt like I have lost my mental capabilities of many occasions because I have dealt with deep sadness and depression. I cannot tell you how painful it is for someone to take your kids from you and you don’t know where they’re at.
I remember when my wife was pregnant with each son. I was right there with her and helping her along the way. I went to every single doctor visit. I took care of every financial matter so that she did not have to worry about anything. I was there when they were born and I cut the cord.
My wife was married to a man like that. I was not perfect or without flaw, but I love my wife and I love my children. Our phones are full of pictures of the kids as they grew and dad was right there by their side I cannot believe that my wife did these things to me again, it’s like women could care less about kids. They act like they care about the kids, but they don’t when they leave their husband and destroy their families.
Since I’ve been back in Alaska, I have suffered tremendously. I lost three really good paying jobs, including my teaching job due to no fault on my own. I have lived at the shelter for 4.5 months in the back of my van and most recently 17 nights in a car sleeping in a seat. I have not slept horizontally and sometime.
I’ve dealt with money problems. I’ve dealt with extreme temperatures living in the back of a van. I have had people treat me horribly, Landlord, etc..
Previously, I mentioned my landlord, ###… While he was having heart procedures, I was praying for him. I was dealing with my situation with his wife. I had gotten behind because I could not do gig work due to car issues. However, when ### got better, he came to my door and banged on the door like he was trying to access his teenage son who had snuck out the night before.
### yelled at me and screamed at me. A few days later, he began a constructed self eviction. He turned off my water. I could no longer bathe our cooked food or clean. A day or so later he turned off electricity. Now it was dark in my room and I could barely get around. A few days later, he made it to where I no longer had access to my room. Everything he did was illegal, but he did not care. I’m guessing he was rolling the dice, trusting that I did not have money to pursue legal issues.
I did contact legal aid. They contacted me two weeks ago and promised to contact me back, but still has not. I am frustrated because everything that I own in this entire world is in that room.
So I lived in the rental car for the next week until the price of the rental cars went to $100 per day then I rented a car for a friend of mine but it’s a horrible car and it’s like a Fred Flintstone car. It feels like it’s gonna break at each bump but I made it work and I continue doing gig work.
It’s tough living in a car. Also, the car has no heat nor AC. Here in Alaska, at this time of year, it is super hot in the daytime and cold at night. Also, the mosquitoes are torturous as they attack you at every opportunity. Every night, I probably had 50 to 100 mosquitoes in the car and it took me like over an hour to get them out. Even after an hour, they were still more hiding somewhere in the floorboard or in the back window somewhere
Previously, I had lived in a nice apartment that the VA paid for 5.5 months. It was in a beautiful home that must’ve cost $1 million. I had to move out because the lady used it for Airbnb.
I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights then after I lost my job at the lab, the lady offered to let me live in the basement for free. The basement had a shower and a nice bed but no toilet. I moved in and I was so thankful to her and God I lived there for 4.5 months.
My goal was to move back into my old apartment, but in September she rented it out to another lady who was a nurse. I felt really slighted about that because she knew that I wanted to move back in. Instead, she continued to let me live there in the basement.
My goal was to do everything right. I helped her in every way I could. If she asked me to do something I did it. I did not wait or say I’ll get to it tomorrow. I nearly got up and went and did it. I wanted her to know that I appreciated the free place to live.
However, as the winner approached, she had a boiler guy scheduled to come over to the basement to get things going in for the winter. Sadly, she did not tell me. I was actually in the basement apartment and the water guy came in Knuck on door, but I could not hear down in the basement. She called me and was so hateful to me.
This happened a second time a week or so later. Again, she did not contact me at all to let me know someone was coming over. She could have texted me. She could have called me. But she did not. This time she told me I need to leave.
It’s one thing if it’s my fault, but in this case, it was 1000% her fault there was no fault for me, but I took all the blame and I had to move out
As I said before, I’ve been living in my car for the last 17 days. I decided to contact the lady that I mentioned above to see if she had any apartments open. It took great humility for me to do that considering the way she had treated me. She said no.
Then a few days later, sick and tired of sleeping in the vertical position… I contacted her again and ask her if I could pay your rent and live in the basement again. Initially, she said no due to my failures last time, which as I have already stated was not my fault.
However, I prayed for her. A day or so later she contacted me and talked about the possibility of me living there just for a short time maybe a month or two. That would be perfect for me. I just did an interview with a company that if I get the job, it will be a huge blessing from God. It would be nice to have a place to shower and be clean before all the interview process includes
So on Saturday night, she and I spoke again and she told me it would be $300 for me to stay in the primitive basement. I thought that was a really good deal. The thought of having a roof over my head and a comfortable bed and access to a shower was a blessing that I really wanted.
She told me she was not sure the condition of the primitive apartment. She was not sure if the key was still there etc.. I told her with her permission I would drive over and check. She told me I could go. So, I drove over and found the apartment just like I had left it last November 2025. In fact, the porch light was still on. The door was unlocked as she had asked me to leave it. The key was also there.
I updated her on the situation. I told her I could pay the full $300 the following Tuesday. She wanted some money upfront and so I told her I would send her $50 via PayPal.
I left the apartment and went to town to do some more work doing gig work. I then stopped and sent her $75 via PayPal for the initial payment with the intent of paying the other amount the following Tuesday.
Last night, I slept in the horizontal position. Someone had changed out the mattress, but it was still much better than sleeping in a car in the front seat with mosquito zooming around my head.
This morning I woke up at 5 AM and went to work. I needed to do like 15 orders to get the quest which would give me nearly an extra $150 so I went to work early within intent of knocking out some of the orders.
An hour or so after I began to work, I received a text message from the lady. She told me the Holy Spirit spoke to her and that I could not stay there. Because I did not send any money. However, I did send her money, in fact, $75.
This is so typical of this lady. She claims to be a Christian, but her actions convict her has to the opposite. I cannot believe she expects me to move out after I just moved in.
When she does not want to discuss an issue, she’ll simply say I have no time for back-and-forth. So, I tried to call her, but she did not answer. I sent her a text message and showed the receipts where I’d pay $75 to previous day. I believe legally I have every right to stay there as it stands right now, that’s what I’m going to do, though, I have been praying for wisdom all day.
It’s weird that she told me that the Holy Spirit told her to tell me to leave. Then she said that she can be mean if she wants to I thought to myself why would the Holy Spirit tell her all that. I have priest the gospel of Christ for nearly 30 years so, the Holy Spirit is telling this lady to be mean to a gospel preacher?
So, as it stands, I am going to stay at the primitive basement. The lady lives 400 miles away and I don’t think she’ll be coming here anytime soon. I don’t want to be like this. I want it to be comfortable for like a month or two until I could make some arrangements.
If I can get the job as branch manager, which I interviewed a few days ago, it will change everything in my life. A good paying job will help me tremendously going forward. Then I don’t have to live in primitive basements anymore. I could find me a nice place to live.
I love God with all my heart. I know when I say that I’ll get responses like I don’t love Jesus… When I say I love God, I also love Christ. Yes, I am a Christian. I obey the gospel of Christ in 1979. I became a preacher in about 1998 and started preaching the word of God.
I am exhausted
I am not suicidal. I am not going to kill myself. But I have prayed firmly that God would take me in my sleep or just take me. I’ve begged him to send a chariot like he sent for Elijah and I’ll leave right this for a moment. I would gladly exchange my life for another right now if God will allow that to happen I’m just so exhausted.
It’s amazing all the things that have happened to me. They’ve been so negative. There have been a few bright spots from time to time. I love the rain so much. It gives me strength. I love to see moose they give me strength. I love to see the northern lights, etc. etc..
One thing that’s very interesting about the trials that I have faced is that my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. Also, my faith is stronger than it’s ever been. I really feel that way.
Thank you for reading this message. Again, as you read through, you probably have several questions because obviously I could write a book about this whole subject and go into more detail under each point, but I wanted to summarize once again because I need your prayers.
Please help me. I put my faith and trust in you God I need you. I need you every hour. I’m like the man in Psalm 130 crying out to you, God. Please help me.
My wife has done terrible things to me. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like Jesus love the church. I stand prepared to not hold the past against her; instead going forward to better days
I love my daughter. I love my sons. I know they need a father. I miss them terribly. The pain I’ve endured has been overbearing and overwhelming. God give me strength.
It is now 8:50 PM and the pizza place is going. I came here to celebrate the conclusion of a quest that I began three days ago. I needed 50 deliveries to receive a cash reward. I was successful after much hard work. I came here to celebrate on my own
Thank you for praying for me
I need your prayers. I really do.
Right now, I am sitting in a pizza place that I’ve not sat in in a long time. I finished a quest tonight that paid me an additional some money so I thought I would come here by myself and celebrate.
Right now, I just feel so depressed.
In the summer of 2022, my wife left me. I had gone to Texas to set up our new house and start a new job. I had my two beautiful sons with me.
My wife was in Alaska with my older daughter. They already had tickets to go overseas to visit family. They were supposed to leave in mid September 2022 and return in late December 2022.
After the boys and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court, and convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. There was no mention of plane tickets nor a new job in Texas.
The judge gave permission to my wife to go get the boys. So around September 19, 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ went to the school and took my sons. I was in my classroom working on things for my day.
After the boys were gone, the principal and HR lady came to my room and let me know. I immediately started crying like a baby. It was an instant waterfall of tears that I could not stop. They just fell on the ground. I could not believe what my wife had done to me. I knew that I would probably never see my voice again.
The boys and I had been together for like 45 days. They are very small at the time. We struggled because we didn’t have much money. So we had to do things to overcome not having much money. I was eagerly waiting payday. On payday, I would get my normal paycheck plus a sizable moving allowance. The boys knew the payday was coming and they were excited to the day. My wife took the boys was my payday.
I am the head of my household. I had moved to Texas to start a new job to take care of my family. My two young sons had never been to school and it was their first year in school. I was doing everything that a father should do to take care of his family. My wife simply decided that she did not want to submit to my authority as a husband and father.
So, since my wife took my sons, I have not seen them nor my daughter. It’s mine boggling what women can do when they are mad and hateful. They can destroy a marriage. They can destroy a family with little regard to their own soul or the well-being of others. I wonder if there’s going to be a special place in hell for all the women that destroy their families mainly due to selfishness.
I bet I have prayed for my wife 1,000,000+ times since she stole the boys. I am a forgiving person. I have pleading with God to bring her to repentance. I have pleaded with God to restore my marriage in my family. I’ve played it with God to take me back to Alaska, hoping that a closer proximity would lead to reconciliation.
In the summer of 2024, God orchestrated a plan that took me back to Alaska. Previously, I had tried to go, but was unsuccessful. Having lived in Alaska for nearly 4 years, I know it’s very difficult to go to Alaska unless you have everything set up properly.
In the summer of 2024, God set up everything properly. First, he took me back to California for a temporary job, a 30 day job. The job got extended for 30 days. During the second 30 days, I received an email on July 28, 2024, offering me a teaching position and basketball coaching position in Alaska. I accepted it.
The job in California working for Volkswagen ended around August 15 or so. The company had to pay for a flight back home. So instead of going back to Texas, I took a first class flight worth $850 from San Francisco to Alaska. Again, the hand of God.
However, despite sincere efforts to find a house and a vehicle, I was unsuccessful. So, when I boarded the plane in San Francisco on August 24, 2024, I knew I had no place to live and no car to drive yet, I went anyway.
On the plane, I must’ve quoted 2 Cor 5:7 500 times. Initially, I was so strong. I was confident that before the plane landed, my wife would somehow contact me and provide a place to live in a car to drive. I felt like Abraham when he went to sacrifice Isaac, according to Hebrews, chapter 11, Abraham believed God would race him from the dead.
I was wrong. My plane landed and I was deeply depressed. It was 12:15 AM and I was exhausted from drywall. I quickly gathered my belongings and sat up against the dark wall. I had nowhere to go.
I could write a book about all the individual details that I’m going to leave out of this prayer request.
The next 21 months would be incredibly difficult. I felt like Job in every way. The only thing I have not fully lost is my health. I felt like I have lost my mental capabilities of many occasions because I have dealt with deep sadness and depression. I cannot tell you how painful it is for someone to take your kids from you and you don’t know where they’re at.
I remember when my wife was pregnant with each son. I was right there with her and helping her along the way. I went to every single doctor visit. I took care of every financial matter so that she did not have to worry about anything. I was there when they were born and I cut the cord.
My wife was married to a man like that. I was not perfect or without flaw, but I love my wife and I love my children. Our phones are full of pictures of the kids as they grew and dad was right there by their side I cannot believe that my wife did these things to me again, it’s like women could care less about kids. They act like they care about the kids, but they don’t when they leave their husband and destroy their families.
Since I’ve been back in Alaska, I have suffered tremendously. I lost three really good paying jobs, including my teaching job due to no fault on my own. I have lived at the shelter for 4.5 months in the back of my van and most recently 17 nights in a car sleeping in a seat. I have not slept horizontally and sometime.
I’ve dealt with money problems. I’ve dealt with extreme temperatures living in the back of a van. I have had people treat me horribly, Landlord, etc..
Previously, I mentioned my landlord, ###… While he was having heart procedures, I was praying for him. I was dealing with my situation with his wife. I had gotten behind because I could not do gig work due to car issues. However, when ### got better, he came to my door and banged on the door like he was trying to access his teenage son who had snuck out the night before.
### yelled at me and screamed at me. A few days later, he began a constructed self eviction. He turned off my water. I could no longer bathe our cooked food or clean. A day or so later he turned off electricity. Now it was dark in my room and I could barely get around. A few days later, he made it to where I no longer had access to my room. Everything he did was illegal, but he did not care. I’m guessing he was rolling the dice, trusting that I did not have money to pursue legal issues.
I did contact legal aid. They contacted me two weeks ago and promised to contact me back, but still has not. I am frustrated because everything that I own in this entire world is in that room.
So I lived in the rental car for the next week until the price of the rental cars went to $100 per day then I rented a car for a friend of mine but it’s a horrible car and it’s like a Fred Flintstone car. It feels like it’s gonna break at each bump but I made it work and I continue doing gig work.
It’s tough living in a car. Also, the car has no heat nor AC. Here in Alaska, at this time of year, it is super hot in the daytime and cold at night. Also, the mosquitoes are torturous as they attack you at every opportunity. Every night, I probably had 50 to 100 mosquitoes in the car and it took me like over an hour to get them out. Even after an hour, they were still more hiding somewhere in the floorboard or in the back window somewhere
Previously, I had lived in a nice apartment that the VA paid for 5.5 months. It was in a beautiful home that must’ve cost $1 million. I had to move out because the lady used it for Airbnb.
I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights then after I lost my job at the lab, the lady offered to let me live in the basement for free. The basement had a shower and a nice bed but no toilet. I moved in and I was so thankful to her and God I lived there for 4.5 months.
My goal was to move back into my old apartment, but in September she rented it out to another lady who was a nurse. I felt really slighted about that because she knew that I wanted to move back in. Instead, she continued to let me live there in the basement.
My goal was to do everything right. I helped her in every way I could. If she asked me to do something I did it. I did not wait or say I’ll get to it tomorrow. I nearly got up and went and did it. I wanted her to know that I appreciated the free place to live.
However, as the winner approached, she had a boiler guy scheduled to come over to the basement to get things going in for the winter. Sadly, she did not tell me. I was actually in the basement apartment and the water guy came in Knuck on door, but I could not hear down in the basement. She called me and was so hateful to me.
This happened a second time a week or so later. Again, she did not contact me at all to let me know someone was coming over. She could have texted me. She could have called me. But she did not. This time she told me I need to leave.
It’s one thing if it’s my fault, but in this case, it was 1000% her fault there was no fault for me, but I took all the blame and I had to move out
As I said before, I’ve been living in my car for the last 17 days. I decided to contact the lady that I mentioned above to see if she had any apartments open. It took great humility for me to do that considering the way she had treated me. She said no.
Then a few days later, sick and tired of sleeping in the vertical position… I contacted her again and ask her if I could pay your rent and live in the basement again. Initially, she said no due to my failures last time, which as I have already stated was not my fault.
However, I prayed for her. A day or so later she contacted me and talked about the possibility of me living there just for a short time maybe a month or two. That would be perfect for me. I just did an interview with a company that if I get the job, it will be a huge blessing from God. It would be nice to have a place to shower and be clean before all the interview process includes
So on Saturday night, she and I spoke again and she told me it would be $300 for me to stay in the primitive basement. I thought that was a really good deal. The thought of having a roof over my head and a comfortable bed and access to a shower was a blessing that I really wanted.
She told me she was not sure the condition of the primitive apartment. She was not sure if the key was still there etc.. I told her with her permission I would drive over and check. She told me I could go. So, I drove over and found the apartment just like I had left it last November 2025. In fact, the porch light was still on. The door was unlocked as she had asked me to leave it. The key was also there.
I updated her on the situation. I told her I could pay the full $300 the following Tuesday. She wanted some money upfront and so I told her I would send her $50 via PayPal.
I left the apartment and went to town to do some more work doing gig work. I then stopped and sent her $75 via PayPal for the initial payment with the intent of paying the other amount the following Tuesday.
Last night, I slept in the horizontal position. Someone had changed out the mattress, but it was still much better than sleeping in a car in the front seat with mosquito zooming around my head.
This morning I woke up at 5 AM and went to work. I needed to do like 15 orders to get the quest which would give me nearly an extra $150 so I went to work early within intent of knocking out some of the orders.
An hour or so after I began to work, I received a text message from the lady. She told me the Holy Spirit spoke to her and that I could not stay there. Because I did not send any money. However, I did send her money, in fact, $75.
This is so typical of this lady. She claims to be a Christian, but her actions convict her has to the opposite. I cannot believe she expects me to move out after I just moved in.
When she does not want to discuss an issue, she’ll simply say I have no time for back-and-forth. So, I tried to call her, but she did not answer. I sent her a text message and showed the receipts where I’d pay $75 to previous day. I believe legally I have every right to stay there as it stands right now, that’s what I’m going to do, though, I have been praying for wisdom all day.
It’s weird that she told me that the Holy Spirit told her to tell me to leave. Then she said that she can be mean if she wants to I thought to myself why would the Holy Spirit tell her all that. I have priest the gospel of Christ for nearly 30 years so, the Holy Spirit is telling this lady to be mean to a gospel preacher?
So, as it stands, I am going to stay at the primitive basement. The lady lives 400 miles away and I don’t think she’ll be coming here anytime soon. I don’t want to be like this. I want it to be comfortable for like a month or two until I could make some arrangements.
If I can get the job as branch manager, which I interviewed a few days ago, it will change everything in my life. A good paying job will help me tremendously going forward. Then I don’t have to live in primitive basements anymore. I could find me a nice place to live.
I love God with all my heart. I know when I say that I’ll get responses like I don’t love Jesus… When I say I love God, I also love Christ. Yes, I am a Christian. I obey the gospel of Christ in 1979. I became a preacher in about 1998 and started preaching the word of God.
I am exhausted
I am not suicidal. I am not going to kill myself. But I have prayed firmly that God would take me in my sleep or just take me. I’ve begged him to send a chariot like he sent for Elijah and I’ll leave right this for a moment. I would gladly exchange my life for another right now if God will allow that to happen I’m just so exhausted.
It’s amazing all the things that have happened to me. They’ve been so negative. There have been a few bright spots from time to time. I love the rain so much. It gives me strength. I love to see moose they give me strength. I love to see the northern lights, etc. etc..
One thing that’s very interesting about the trials that I have faced is that my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. Also, my faith is stronger than it’s ever been. I really feel that way.
Thank you for reading this message. Again, as you read through, you probably have several questions because obviously I could write a book about this whole subject and go into more detail under each point, but I wanted to summarize once again because I need your prayers.
Please help me. I put my faith and trust in you God I need you. I need you every hour. I’m like the man in Psalm 130 crying out to you, God. Please help me.
My wife has done terrible things to me. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like Jesus love the church. I stand prepared to not hold the past against her; instead going forward to better days
I love my daughter. I love my sons. I know they need a father. I miss them terribly. The pain I’ve endured has been overbearing and overwhelming. God give me strength.
It is now 8:50 PM and the pizza place is going. I came here to celebrate the conclusion of a quest that I began three days ago. I needed 50 deliveries to receive a cash reward. I was successful after much hard work. I came here to celebrate on my own
Thank you for praying for me
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
