Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Background:
In 2022, my family and I lived in Alaska. My job was complete. I had secured a teaching position in Texas. My wife and daughter we were going overseas to visit family and I took the boys to Texas to set up our home.
After I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court. Her attorney made it seem like I stole the boys and took them across state lines. The judge gave my wife permission to go get them. She and her sister in Christ flew to Texas and took them. It was the saddest day of my life.
Since then, I have prayed probably 1 million times pleading with God for reconciliation and asking him to take me back to Alaska. Finally, on August 19, 2024, God gave me a first class ticket from San Francisco to Alaska. I was convinced that God was about to reconcile my family.
God gave me a job, taking school and coaching basketball in Alaska. I moved to Alaska with no place to live and no car to drive. I was trusting in God.
Also, I was convinced that just as Abraham believed, God would raise Isaac from the dead; I believed my wife was going to contact me before my plane landed, and I would have a place to live. I was wrong!
The next year was very difficult.
Housing:
Shelter for 4.5 months
Nice apartment for 4.5 months
Back of van for 28 nights
Basement of house 4.0 months
Jobs:
Lost teaching and coaching job - 11/20
Lost laboratory manager job - 6/16
Death:
Almost died on 12/29 in -23 Fahrenheit. I got locked out of my van on a mountain top.
Deep Sadness
I have not seen my wife and children in three years and it’s very painful. I was so convinced Godhead moved me up here to reconcile my family. I’m still waiting (Ps 46:10).
So, on May 21, 2025, I began a new job as a laboratory manager. On June 16, 2025, I was told I was no longer needed. It was so disheartening and painful.
The same day that I lost the job, Ms Lee, my previous Landlord, allowed me to move into the basement of our Airbnb for free. The fact that it happened the same day I lost my job is amazing to me. Previously, I had lived in the back of my van for 28 nights.
I have lived in this basement for free since June 16. A month ago, she told me I could stay here through the winter. However, two weeks ago, she told me that I needed to leave by November 1. So on November 1, I will be homeless. I have nowhere to go.
Again, my faith is strong…. I am confident God will provide. I still hope that my wife will contact me in instantly. I could have a place to live. Please God soften her heart.
God‘s provision
I’m convinced that one reason God allows us to walk in the valley of the shadow of death is so that ultimately we can see his provisions.
When I moved to Alaska, I had never done anything in the gig economy. I had signed up previously while in Alaska, but I never did an order.
As I was in HR limbo waiting for the school, I started making deliveries. Little did I know at the time, DoorDash would be my saving grace throughout the year.
I now do DoorDash and like approximately 6 to 8 hours a day. I am so thankful to God for it. Without it, I would be in a bad spot, a worse spot than I am currently in.
Thus, when I see homeless people on the streets, begging for money or just standing there, I have great empathy for them. I know that I am just one step away from being in a similar position. I also pray for them as I drive by them. I have helped many of them in various ways.
I believe I can make a full-time living in the gig economy, but it’s a lot of wear and tear on my old van and I spend $200 plus and gas every week. So, I’ve been praying for a job that will allow me to work and have a consistent living while also doing gig work on the side.
A few days ago, I saw a position up here that I thought would fit that criteria. Today, I had an interview with them and I think that they are going to hire me. It will be a huge blessing. The job is only from November through March, but it will definitely help me to get situated and make preparations post-winter.
I will keep doing gig work to hopefully position myself for whatever is next.
I have suffered tremendously over the last three years. I cannot even begin to tell you the pain that has lived in my heart and my mind since my wife left me and took my children.
Honestly, I don’t understand how she lives with herself. I don’t understand how she looks in the mirror or takes the Lord’s supper knowing what she’s done to her marriage and her family; she has destroyed both.
Despite all that…
I still love her (Eph 5:25).
I stand prepared to forgive her.
I stand prepared to not bring up the past unless agreed upon.
I trust that just as God prepared a fish and sent it at just the right time to discipline Jonah; God has also done things in my wife’s life to prevent her from her behavior & actions.
I continue to pray (Luke 18:1). I’m guessing I have prayed for my wife well over 100,000 times if not much more.
I trust God has heard me (1 John 5:14-15). I trust that he will answer my prayer in the right time.
Please pray for me:
I need strength.
I need help with depression and sadness.
I need a place to live.
I need a new job that will give me stability.
I need marital reconciliation.
God, please hear my voice in my pleas.
Thank you for praying for me!
Background:
In 2022, my family and I lived in Alaska. My job was complete. I had secured a teaching position in Texas. My wife and daughter we were going overseas to visit family and I took the boys to Texas to set up our home.
After I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court. Her attorney made it seem like I stole the boys and took them across state lines. The judge gave my wife permission to go get them. She and her sister in Christ flew to Texas and took them. It was the saddest day of my life.
Since then, I have prayed probably 1 million times pleading with God for reconciliation and asking him to take me back to Alaska. Finally, on August 19, 2024, God gave me a first class ticket from San Francisco to Alaska. I was convinced that God was about to reconcile my family.
God gave me a job, taking school and coaching basketball in Alaska. I moved to Alaska with no place to live and no car to drive. I was trusting in God.
Also, I was convinced that just as Abraham believed, God would raise Isaac from the dead; I believed my wife was going to contact me before my plane landed, and I would have a place to live. I was wrong!
The next year was very difficult.
Housing:
Shelter for 4.5 months
Nice apartment for 4.5 months
Back of van for 28 nights
Basement of house 4.0 months
Jobs:
Lost teaching and coaching job - 11/20
Lost laboratory manager job - 6/16
Death:
Almost died on 12/29 in -23 Fahrenheit. I got locked out of my van on a mountain top.
Deep Sadness
I have not seen my wife and children in three years and it’s very painful. I was so convinced Godhead moved me up here to reconcile my family. I’m still waiting (Ps 46:10).
So, on May 21, 2025, I began a new job as a laboratory manager. On June 16, 2025, I was told I was no longer needed. It was so disheartening and painful.
The same day that I lost the job, Ms Lee, my previous Landlord, allowed me to move into the basement of our Airbnb for free. The fact that it happened the same day I lost my job is amazing to me. Previously, I had lived in the back of my van for 28 nights.
I have lived in this basement for free since June 16. A month ago, she told me I could stay here through the winter. However, two weeks ago, she told me that I needed to leave by November 1. So on November 1, I will be homeless. I have nowhere to go.
Again, my faith is strong…. I am confident God will provide. I still hope that my wife will contact me in instantly. I could have a place to live. Please God soften her heart.
God‘s provision
I’m convinced that one reason God allows us to walk in the valley of the shadow of death is so that ultimately we can see his provisions.
When I moved to Alaska, I had never done anything in the gig economy. I had signed up previously while in Alaska, but I never did an order.
As I was in HR limbo waiting for the school, I started making deliveries. Little did I know at the time, DoorDash would be my saving grace throughout the year.
I now do DoorDash and like approximately 6 to 8 hours a day. I am so thankful to God for it. Without it, I would be in a bad spot, a worse spot than I am currently in.
Thus, when I see homeless people on the streets, begging for money or just standing there, I have great empathy for them. I know that I am just one step away from being in a similar position. I also pray for them as I drive by them. I have helped many of them in various ways.
I believe I can make a full-time living in the gig economy, but it’s a lot of wear and tear on my old van and I spend $200 plus and gas every week. So, I’ve been praying for a job that will allow me to work and have a consistent living while also doing gig work on the side.
A few days ago, I saw a position up here that I thought would fit that criteria. Today, I had an interview with them and I think that they are going to hire me. It will be a huge blessing. The job is only from November through March, but it will definitely help me to get situated and make preparations post-winter.
I will keep doing gig work to hopefully position myself for whatever is next.
I have suffered tremendously over the last three years. I cannot even begin to tell you the pain that has lived in my heart and my mind since my wife left me and took my children.
Honestly, I don’t understand how she lives with herself. I don’t understand how she looks in the mirror or takes the Lord’s supper knowing what she’s done to her marriage and her family; she has destroyed both.
Despite all that…
I still love her (Eph 5:25).
I stand prepared to forgive her.
I stand prepared to not bring up the past unless agreed upon.
I trust that just as God prepared a fish and sent it at just the right time to discipline Jonah; God has also done things in my wife’s life to prevent her from her behavior & actions.
I continue to pray (Luke 18:1). I’m guessing I have prayed for my wife well over 100,000 times if not much more.
I trust God has heard me (1 John 5:14-15). I trust that he will answer my prayer in the right time.
Please pray for me:
I need strength.
I need help with depression and sadness.
I need a place to live.
I need a new job that will give me stability.
I need marital reconciliation.
God, please hear my voice in my pleas.
Thank you for praying for me!