Alaska update / 5.29.26 / back against the wall

[Justbecause5]

Dear friends and prayer warriors,

My back is squarely up against the wall. I badly need your prayers.

In August 2022, my wife left me and then used the courts to take my children from me. I was 5000 miles away in Texas when she did those things. I just started a new job and was working to set up our new home.

I begged God to take me back to Alaska. God answered my prayer in August 2024. He gave me a job teaching school in Alaska. So, I moved to Alaska, despite not having a place to live or a car to drive.

I was walking by faith and not by sight. The way things happen, I just knew God was going to bring my family back together as one. It was amazing to look back and see how God brought me back to Alaska.

I have been back in Alaska 20+ months and I have suffered in every way possible. I have been homeless. I lived in the shelter. I lived in the back of the van. I lived in a primitive basement with no toilet, etc. etc..

I almost died on the mountain top. I lost two really good jobs, including my teaching job due to no fault on my own. I lost another job which was six figures. I was offered the job and they asked me to start Monday, but then they ended up hiring someone else over the weekend.

I have suffered with deep depression and sadness. I cannot even begin to tell you the pain that I’ve had to endure. Depression and deep sadness cause one to have no enjoyment in life. The simplest tasks are so difficult and overwhelming.

Even after I lost my jobs, I started doing gig work full-time. I even started to be able to make a full-time salary doing it. However, I started having car issues. First, it was three blowouts in about six weeks. Then it was a wheel bearing that caused me a lot of trouble. In fact, my van sat at McDonald’s for 10 days so, I had to rent a car.

I rented a car from November 2025 until the end of February 2026. Every week, I paid about $300 to have a car but the car prices went up and I could not afford it. Then the car prices went down to about $300 a week today, I will pay for my last week that I can afford. On June 6, 2026, the rental car prices will go up to about $1000 a week.

So my back is up against the wall. A week from today, I will have no place to live and no car to drive. No car to drive means no job and no job means no money. What will I do?

A few days ago, a friend said I could use his van and pay him $30 a day? I thought that would be perfect because I can live in the van like I did before and pay the rent and it’s actually cheaper than a rental. However, today, I learned that he’s not gonna have the van available for me. My only thought is God closed that door.

So, right now as it sits, I have two open opportunities that aren’t really open, but I’m looking at them as possible openings.

1. Go back home to Texas to my dad’s house. I may be able to rent a car for $15 a day but gig work will not be the same there because there’s too many people working.

2. Be homeless and walk the streets.

3. Move to Hawaii temporarily. I’ve always wanted to go to Hawaii. One of my goals is to see all 50 states. The rental car prices there are relatively decent so, it’s a possibility if I move there next Friday, I would have no place to live, which would be very similar to when I moved to Alaska in 2024.

Dear friends, I am stuck. My back is up against the wall. I need your intervention, please pray.

Landlord issues

About one week ago, my landlord banged on my door like he was banging on the door of his teenage son. He was so ugly and mean to me three days in a row yelling at me, calling me names and ridiculing me in front of others in the hallway. I cannot believe that he acted that way.

About four days ago, he cut off my water to my apartment. So I have not been able to clean dishes and prepare to move out. I have not been able to take a shower. In fact, I have not taken a shower in like four or five days. I hate this.

Last night I stayed away from the apartment because I was intimidated and did not want any interaction with management. I know I have rights according to the laws of the land so I went back around 9:30 PM and my electricity was turned off. I was so tired. I just went to bed.

It is 8:40 PM right now and in less than an hour I need to contact the car rental place to add another week. It will cost me about $415. That’s a lot of money, but I have to overcome each week to make a profit.

I’m tired right now. I’m scared to go back to the apartment. I will not be able to see. I will not be able to clean anything or prepare my belongings because of the situation.

Today, I went and talked to legal aid about the situation. They will evaluate my case to see if I qualify for free legal help. If so, I will file a case. I have a feeling that he’s going to get away with what he’s done of course, we all know that vengeance belongs to God and he will repay.

What’s weird about the landlord is he just went through a pretty serious health issue which involves surgery. When I learned about it, I told his wife that I’d be praying for him. I have told him personally that I prayed for him that he would get better. It’s just weird to me that people that go through a life-altering surgery, which could’ve easily resulted in death then turns around and ridicules and persecutes a child of God.

Right now, I hate my life. I am not suicidal, but I am willing to exchange my life for another. I wish the chariot of Elijah would come and get me. I do not say that for sympathy rather I say that because I’m in deep deep sadness.

I like the idea of going to Hawaii and working there… But I’m also afraid. If I go there, I will not know anybody and just hope that nothing goes wrong. Obviously, I need to make money to survive.

I sit here in this park. I’ve been I’ve prayed over 1 million times for my wife and family.

I have prayed that God would move mountains many many times by 1000 times I know God has the power, but will he do it for me?

I am so exhausted. I could easily close my eyes as I look up on the river here and pass out and probably not wake up for a few hours.

I love my wife. She has done horrible things to me. It’s mind-boggling to contemplate what she has done to me. Years ago, I brought her from overseas to this country. I gave her so many opportunities based upon the blessings that I had as an American citizen. So sad for her to stab me in the back after everything I’ve done for her.

I do love her and I stay prepared to forgive her. I love her and I stand prepared to love her like Jesus loves the church.

I miss my children. I can only imagine what it would be like to see them and to hug them.

God, please intercede. I played with you to intercede.

 

[Articles]

We hear your cry, brother, and we lift you up with heavy hearts before the throne of grace. The weight you carry is immense, betrayal, loss, homelessness, financial strain, and the deep ache of a father separated from his children. Yet even in this valley of shadows, we declare that the Lord is your shepherd (Psalm 23:4), and He has not abandoned you. Your faith to walk back to Alaska without a home or car, trusting God to restore your family, was a testament to His leading. Though the road has been harder than you imagined, we stand with you in prayer, believing that the same God who parted the Red Sea can make a way where there seems to be no way.

First, we must address the spiritual battle raging around you. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and he has targeted your hope, your health, and your future. But we rebuke the spirit of despair and oppression in the name of Jesus! The landlord’s cruelty, the job losses, the car troubles, these are not coincidences but attacks meant to break you. Yet we declare that no weapon formed against you shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). The Lord sees your tears and collects them in His bottle (Psalm 56:8). He is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18), and He will not leave you in this pit forever.

Your love for your wife and children, even after such betrayal, reflects the heart of Christ. Forgiveness is not a feeling but a choice, a command from God (Colossians 3:13). Yet we must also warn against enabling sin. If your wife has hardened her heart against repentance, Scripture calls us to confront sin in love (Matthew 18:15-17) and, if necessary, to let God deal with her (Romans 12:19). Your love for her must not blind you to the need for godly boundaries. Pray for her salvation and restoration, but do not mistake suffering for godliness. The Lord disciplines those He loves (Hebrews 12:6), and sometimes that discipline comes through consequences.

Now, to the immediate crisis: You are at a crossroads, and we urge you to seek wisdom from above (James 1:5). Returning to Texas may be the most practical step, as it offers shelter and a chance to regroup. Hawaii, while tempting, could isolate you further and drain your resources. Gig work is not sustainable without reliable transportation, and the enemy would love to see you stranded in an unfamiliar place. We pray for divine provision, a job, a vehicle, or even a temporary place to stay, but we also encourage you to explore every earthly avenue. Contact local churches in Alaska; many have benevolence funds or connections to help believers in crisis. The body of Christ is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and you should not walk this alone.

Your landlord’s actions are unlawful and ungodly. We pray that legal aid will intervene, but more importantly, we ask God to soften his heart. Vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19), and He can turn even this injustice for your good (Genesis 50:20). Do not let bitterness take root, for it will only poison you further (Hebrews 12:15). Instead, entrust your case to the Righteous Judge (2 Timothy 4:8).

Brother, you have prayed a million times for your family, and we join you in that cry. But let us also pray for you, for strength to endure, for wisdom to navigate this storm, and for the peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7). The Lord has not forgotten you. He sees the nights you’ve slept in a van, the meals you’ve skipped, the tears you’ve shed. He is your refuge and strength (Psalm 46:1), and He will sustain you.

We also must address a critical oversight in your plea: You have not once mentioned the name of Jesus Christ in your request. There is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6), and it is His blood that covers our sins and gives us the right to come boldly before the throne of grace (Hebrews 4:16). If you have not placed your faith in Him as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so now. Confess your sins, believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you will be saved (Romans 10:9). Salvation is not earned by works but received by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you are already a believer, we encourage you to cling to Christ more tightly, for He is the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2).

Let us pray:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother. Lord, You see his pain, his exhaustion, and his desperation. You know the depth of his love for his wife and children, and the betrayal he has endured. We ask You to intervene mightily, O God. Break every chain of oppression, every scheme of the enemy, and every barrier standing between him and Your provision.

Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and depression in the name of Jesus. We declare that joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5), and we ask You to lift the darkness from his heart. Give him strength for today and hope for tomorrow. Provide him with shelter, transportation, and a steady income. Open doors that no man can shut (Revelation 3:8), and give him favor with those who can help him.

Father, we pray for his wife and children. Soften her heart, Lord. Convict her of her sin and draw her back to You. Restore what has been broken, but only if it aligns with Your will. Protect the children from the enemy’s lies and let them feel their father’s love, even from afar.

We ask for wisdom for our brother as he makes decisions about his future. Guide his steps, Lord, and let him not lean on his own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6). Surround him with godly counsel and community. Let him feel the love of the body of Christ in tangible ways.

Father, we also pray for his landlord. You know the pain in his life, Lord, but cruelty is never justified. We ask You to humble him, to heal him, and to turn his heart toward You. Let justice prevail, but let mercy triumph over judgment (James 2:13).

Finally, Lord, we ask You to draw our brother closer to You. Let this trial refine him like gold (1 Peter 1:7) and deepen his trust in You. Remind him that You are his portion and his inheritance (Psalm 73:26). Let him find his rest in You alone.

We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the name above every name, the One who was, and is, and is to come. Amen.

Brother, do not lose heart. The Lord is your strength, and He will not fail you. Keep crying out to Him, and lean on the promises of His Word. We stand with you in faith, believing that God is working even now to turn your mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. The same God who led you back to Alaska will lead you through this valley. Trust Him. Wait on Him. And remember, the battle is not yours, but the Lord’s (2 Chronicles 20:15).

 

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Oh, brother, we’re praying for you right now, your weariness is heavy, and we can hear the weight of your heart sitting against that wall. There’s something so raw in your honesty, in the way you’ve carried this faith journey even when the road felt like it was crumbling beneath you. We see the way God has moved before, and we’re believing for Him to do it again, this time, not just to bring your family together, but to restore every area of your life.

You’ve been walking by faith when everything else felt uncertain, and we’re declaring that same faith over you now. The enemy may be trying to whisper lies about your worth, your future, or even God’s goodness, but we’re speaking truth back: You are loved. You are seen. Your children are being held in the Father’s heart, and He is not finished with you. The fact that you’re still praying for your wife and family, even when it hurts, shows the heart of Christ in you. That love doesn’t mean you have to stay in the same place, but it does mean you’re not alone in this.

Right now, we’re praying for clarity in your next steps. That rental car situation is overwhelming, and we’re asking God to provide a way, whether it’s a temporary shelter, a friend’s van, or even a miracle of transportation. But we’re also praying for your eyes to see the open doors you might be overlooking. Maybe it’s not Hawaii or Texas, but something closer, something simpler. We’re asking the Lord to reveal it to you, just as He did when you trusted Him to bring you back to Alaska.

And oh, brother, your landlord’s actions are ungodly. We’re praying for justice, but more than that, we’re praying for his heart to soften. We’re asking God to show you how to handle this situation with grace, because vengeance is His, but love is yours. You’ve carried so much, and we don’t want you to carry this burden alone. Let us, the body of Christ, step in to help however we can. Reach out to local churches, to friends, to anyone who might be able to lend a hand or a listening ear.

You’ve prayed a million times for your family, and we’re joining you in that. But right now, we’re also praying for you, for strength to keep going, for peace to settle over your exhaustion, and for joy to break through the darkness. You’re not just a father fighting for his family; you’re a son of the King, and He’s not done with you yet.

So take a deep breath, brother. Cry out to Him. He hears you. And remember: the God who parted the Red Sea is the same God who’s walking with you right now. We’re cheering you on, praying you through, and believing for the miracle only He can do. You’re not stuck. You’re not forgotten. And you’re not alone.