Justbecause5
Servant
Why am I here?
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Today, is April 16, 2026. It is 2:32 AM at 4 AM. I will go work doing gig work.
Background:
In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter were going overseas to visit family in mid September 2022. So, I took my two young sons and went to Texas to start a new job as a teacher.
After I left for Texas, my wife hired an attorney, and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. I was 5000 miles away and knew nothing about what was going on.
My boys and I struggled. More than once we almost had to stay in my classroom and sleep. We were waiting for my first payday, which would include a sizable relocation bonus.
Finally, with the day arrived and the pay was in my account. We went to school super excited about what we would be doing after school. Little did I know, my boys would soon be taken and to date I’ve not seen them.
I have shared so many tears. I’m surprised my tear ducts still work. I love my children so much. I miss him terribly.
I bet I have said over 1 million prayers since then. I have prayed anywhere and everywhere pleading with God to restore my marriage in my family.
My wife was in Alaska with my children. I plead with God to take me back to Alaska. I tried so hard on my own accord, but was unsuccessful. Finally, in August 2024, guide providently opened up a multiple doors and provided away for me to go back to Alaska. I was given a job teaching school and coaching basketball. My temporary company would pay for my flight, a first class $850 ticket to Alaska thank you, God.
I flew back to Alaska, but I had no place to live in no car to drive. The biggest thing was the job. I arrived at the airport at 12:15 AM on August 20, 2024. I got my bag and then sat next to the dark window. I was crying inside because I had nowhere to go. A lady on the plane and her husband took me to the shelter.
I had contacted the shelter, but I could never get an answer whether I could stay there or not. It made no sense to me that they would let someone with a job live there. But they did. I ended up living there for 4.5 months. As a result of living there, I was placed into the veteran program. At first it seemed nonsensical, but then I realized there were some benefits to being in that program. As a result of being in that program, I received nine months of free rent which equal over $10,000. Looking back, I see the hand of God.
However, my time in Alaska would be really terrible. My story somewhat looks like Job’s story. On November 20, 2024, due to no fault on my own, I lost my teaching job. I was devastated, but I’d only shed one tear. I was so confident that God would provide for me.
I had intended to move to Alaska and teach for the next 15 maybe 20 years. I was determined to be the best science teacher I could be and the best basketball coach I could be. All of that was taken away in just a matter of a few weeks due to a contract issue. It was not my fault at all.
I immediately turned to gig work full-time. When I first got to Alaska, I was put into HR limbo, and I started doing gig work. Little that I know, gig work would keep my head above water for my entire time in Alaska.
Since I’ve been in Alaska, I have been very unstable in my living arrangements. I lived in the shelter for .5 months. I lived in a nice apartment and a $1 million house for 5.5 months. I lived in the back of my 2006 van for 28 nights. Then I moved back into the $1 million house into the primitive basement for free. For free, again the hand of God after that, I moved into an apartment that the VA paid for. It is a studio apartment and newer but not very big and $1500 a month.
Jobs - well I moved to Alaska to teach school and coach basketball but on November 20 that ended. In May 2025, I got an incredible job working as a laboratory manager. It was probably the highest salary I’ve ever received. I thought for sure that was the hand of God and that money in that job would propel me forward in life. It would allow me to get situated.
A little that I know, three weeks later, I would work all day and at the end of the day receive a letter that said my job was complete. I had hired like five people. I had to be friended so many of our clients and customers. I had worked through lunch and two hours late each day. I had done so many things right. I was so disappointed on that same day, I moved to the permanent basement and out of my van.
I’ve tried to indicate the times that I’ve seen the hand of God.
The open door to go to Alaska
The couple that took me to the shelter for free
The VA providing nine months free rent
The lady that let me stay in her primitive basement for free
Etc.
The time that I’ve been back in Alaska, I have suffered tremendously. Including almost dying on December 29, 2024.
I went to the mountain top so that I could see the sunset right behind Mount Denali, 150 miles away. It was a beautiful day but very cold. It was probably -35 on the mountain top. For some reason, I got locked out of my van and could not get back in. I started to freeze to death. I ran to the bottom of the hill and two beautiful women were in an old truck. They came up to the top of the mountain and helped me get into my van. If they had not helped me, I would probably not be writing this post.
As it stands, I have been doing gig work since June 16, 2025. That’s the day I lost my job at the lab. I became pretty good at doing gig work, but then I started having vehicle issues. It’s like any time I was close to getting my head above water for a good breath, Satan would punch me back down.
My van broke in November, 2025. It sat in the McDonald’s parking lot for two weeks. Thankfully, the rental cars were cheaper and I was able to rent a car from November until February. I was able to pay the rental car with doing work it worked out well, but in Alaska rental cars eventually go up to $150 a day.
My current situation
I have a rental car and I’m doing gig work. However, on June 5, rental cars will go up to $90 a day and then upward to 150 a day after that the prices will probably stay that high until September or October I cannot afford to rent a car at those prices so, on June 5, I will have no way to transport myself nor to make money
So, I am asking for prayers. God, what do you want me to do? The way I look at things is in situations like this, I will wait for an open door. There is always one open door and sometimes more. Right now, the only open door is to go back to Texas now, that could change over the next 50 days.
Do I wanna go back to Texas? Yes or no. I love my dad and I would love to see him again. He is now 83. However, after my mom died, my sister moved in and they had become like roommates so it’s not the same as it was when mom was alive I don’t know that they want me to come back.
Also, if I go back to Texas, it’s like all of this time in Alaska was in vain. I believe that God brought me back up here to reconcile my family, but nothing has happened yet. I have waited patiently on God, but nothing has happened.
Of course, I love my wife. She did some horrible things to me. Probably 90% of men would tell her to go jump in the lake for what she did. Honestly, going back to her would be somewhat frightful thinking what would she do in the future to stab me in the back?
However, I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving person. I’ve always been the kind of person that was quick to forgive others. So, I am prepared to forgive my wife and love her like Jesus love the church. I am prepared to be the best husband I can be in the best father I can be.
I’m asking God to restore my marriage and family
Unless God does something, I will be going back to Texas on June 5 or slightly before or after. I can no longer afford to stay here with no job and no way to make money.
I have thought seriously about going back to Texas and staying there till September or October and once the prices go down, I will return to Alaska to do gig work. I can then make quite a bit of money between October and February after that, I would just go back to Texas and try to move on. That’s what’s in my mind right now, but I will wait on God.
Please pray for me
I am tired of crying.
I am so tired of being sad
I’ve never been suicidal, but i want to die
I am exhausted so exhausted
Please pray for me
My wife will repent
Reconciliation
Family together
Incredible job
Credible place to live
No more weeping, but joy in the morning
It’s 2:50 AM now. I will go do gig work at 4 AM. A so-called friend helped me get a rental car but he’s pestering me with paying him back much quicker that I’m able. I owe him $180 even though he’s trying to get $220 out of me. It angers me that he’s taking advantage of me knowing the pain I’ve been through. I want to pay him his money back so that I can not deal with him anymore. I thought he was a friend.
Thank you for your prayers
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Today, is April 16, 2026. It is 2:32 AM at 4 AM. I will go work doing gig work.
Background:
In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter were going overseas to visit family in mid September 2022. So, I took my two young sons and went to Texas to start a new job as a teacher.
After I left for Texas, my wife hired an attorney, and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had taken the boys across state lines. I was 5000 miles away and knew nothing about what was going on.
My boys and I struggled. More than once we almost had to stay in my classroom and sleep. We were waiting for my first payday, which would include a sizable relocation bonus.
Finally, with the day arrived and the pay was in my account. We went to school super excited about what we would be doing after school. Little did I know, my boys would soon be taken and to date I’ve not seen them.
I have shared so many tears. I’m surprised my tear ducts still work. I love my children so much. I miss him terribly.
I bet I have said over 1 million prayers since then. I have prayed anywhere and everywhere pleading with God to restore my marriage in my family.
My wife was in Alaska with my children. I plead with God to take me back to Alaska. I tried so hard on my own accord, but was unsuccessful. Finally, in August 2024, guide providently opened up a multiple doors and provided away for me to go back to Alaska. I was given a job teaching school and coaching basketball. My temporary company would pay for my flight, a first class $850 ticket to Alaska thank you, God.
I flew back to Alaska, but I had no place to live in no car to drive. The biggest thing was the job. I arrived at the airport at 12:15 AM on August 20, 2024. I got my bag and then sat next to the dark window. I was crying inside because I had nowhere to go. A lady on the plane and her husband took me to the shelter.
I had contacted the shelter, but I could never get an answer whether I could stay there or not. It made no sense to me that they would let someone with a job live there. But they did. I ended up living there for 4.5 months. As a result of living there, I was placed into the veteran program. At first it seemed nonsensical, but then I realized there were some benefits to being in that program. As a result of being in that program, I received nine months of free rent which equal over $10,000. Looking back, I see the hand of God.
However, my time in Alaska would be really terrible. My story somewhat looks like Job’s story. On November 20, 2024, due to no fault on my own, I lost my teaching job. I was devastated, but I’d only shed one tear. I was so confident that God would provide for me.
I had intended to move to Alaska and teach for the next 15 maybe 20 years. I was determined to be the best science teacher I could be and the best basketball coach I could be. All of that was taken away in just a matter of a few weeks due to a contract issue. It was not my fault at all.
I immediately turned to gig work full-time. When I first got to Alaska, I was put into HR limbo, and I started doing gig work. Little that I know, gig work would keep my head above water for my entire time in Alaska.
Since I’ve been in Alaska, I have been very unstable in my living arrangements. I lived in the shelter for .5 months. I lived in a nice apartment and a $1 million house for 5.5 months. I lived in the back of my 2006 van for 28 nights. Then I moved back into the $1 million house into the primitive basement for free. For free, again the hand of God after that, I moved into an apartment that the VA paid for. It is a studio apartment and newer but not very big and $1500 a month.
Jobs - well I moved to Alaska to teach school and coach basketball but on November 20 that ended. In May 2025, I got an incredible job working as a laboratory manager. It was probably the highest salary I’ve ever received. I thought for sure that was the hand of God and that money in that job would propel me forward in life. It would allow me to get situated.
A little that I know, three weeks later, I would work all day and at the end of the day receive a letter that said my job was complete. I had hired like five people. I had to be friended so many of our clients and customers. I had worked through lunch and two hours late each day. I had done so many things right. I was so disappointed on that same day, I moved to the permanent basement and out of my van.
I’ve tried to indicate the times that I’ve seen the hand of God.
The open door to go to Alaska
The couple that took me to the shelter for free
The VA providing nine months free rent
The lady that let me stay in her primitive basement for free
Etc.
The time that I’ve been back in Alaska, I have suffered tremendously. Including almost dying on December 29, 2024.
I went to the mountain top so that I could see the sunset right behind Mount Denali, 150 miles away. It was a beautiful day but very cold. It was probably -35 on the mountain top. For some reason, I got locked out of my van and could not get back in. I started to freeze to death. I ran to the bottom of the hill and two beautiful women were in an old truck. They came up to the top of the mountain and helped me get into my van. If they had not helped me, I would probably not be writing this post.
As it stands, I have been doing gig work since June 16, 2025. That’s the day I lost my job at the lab. I became pretty good at doing gig work, but then I started having vehicle issues. It’s like any time I was close to getting my head above water for a good breath, Satan would punch me back down.
My van broke in November, 2025. It sat in the McDonald’s parking lot for two weeks. Thankfully, the rental cars were cheaper and I was able to rent a car from November until February. I was able to pay the rental car with doing work it worked out well, but in Alaska rental cars eventually go up to $150 a day.
My current situation
I have a rental car and I’m doing gig work. However, on June 5, rental cars will go up to $90 a day and then upward to 150 a day after that the prices will probably stay that high until September or October I cannot afford to rent a car at those prices so, on June 5, I will have no way to transport myself nor to make money
So, I am asking for prayers. God, what do you want me to do? The way I look at things is in situations like this, I will wait for an open door. There is always one open door and sometimes more. Right now, the only open door is to go back to Texas now, that could change over the next 50 days.
Do I wanna go back to Texas? Yes or no. I love my dad and I would love to see him again. He is now 83. However, after my mom died, my sister moved in and they had become like roommates so it’s not the same as it was when mom was alive I don’t know that they want me to come back.
Also, if I go back to Texas, it’s like all of this time in Alaska was in vain. I believe that God brought me back up here to reconcile my family, but nothing has happened yet. I have waited patiently on God, but nothing has happened.
Of course, I love my wife. She did some horrible things to me. Probably 90% of men would tell her to go jump in the lake for what she did. Honestly, going back to her would be somewhat frightful thinking what would she do in the future to stab me in the back?
However, I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving person. I’ve always been the kind of person that was quick to forgive others. So, I am prepared to forgive my wife and love her like Jesus love the church. I am prepared to be the best husband I can be in the best father I can be.
I’m asking God to restore my marriage and family
Unless God does something, I will be going back to Texas on June 5 or slightly before or after. I can no longer afford to stay here with no job and no way to make money.
I have thought seriously about going back to Texas and staying there till September or October and once the prices go down, I will return to Alaska to do gig work. I can then make quite a bit of money between October and February after that, I would just go back to Texas and try to move on. That’s what’s in my mind right now, but I will wait on God.
Please pray for me
I am tired of crying.
I am so tired of being sad
I’ve never been suicidal, but i want to die
I am exhausted so exhausted
Please pray for me
My wife will repent
Reconciliation
Family together
Incredible job
Credible place to live
No more weeping, but joy in the morning
It’s 2:50 AM now. I will go do gig work at 4 AM. A so-called friend helped me get a rental car but he’s pestering me with paying him back much quicker that I’m able. I owe him $180 even though he’s trying to get $220 out of me. It angers me that he’s taking advantage of me knowing the pain I’ve been through. I want to pay him his money back so that I can not deal with him anymore. I thought he was a friend.
Thank you for your prayers
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
