Alaska / April 10, 2026 / Lord, what now?

[Justbecause5]

There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

I believe in prayer and so I keep coming back to this site. Thank you for praying for me.

Yes, I am a Christian. I’ve been a Christian for a long time. I worked in ministry for 27 years. I love God and Christ and the spirit with all my heart.

In early February 2019, my family and I moved to Alaska. I was the new minister at a small church of less than 30 members.

In April 2019, my mom died on a Thursday morning. Due to conditions being so far away, I decided to not attend her funeral. Instead, my family and I went to a lecture ship to learn how to help small churches grow.

In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter had tickets in mid September to go to overseas to visit family. So, my two young sons and I went to Texas to set up our new home. I had secured a teaching position in my home state as a math and science teacher.

After my sons and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to the judge and convinced him that I had taken the boys across state lines. They lied in court. There was nothing said about the plane tickets going overseas on September 15. So, the judge gave permission for my wife to go get my sons. I knew nothing about it because I was 5000 miles away.

Moving back to Texas was very difficult. My sons and I suffered greatly as we waited for our first paycheck. My first paycheck was also going to include a $5000 moving allowance or sign on bonus. The boys, very young, were very excited because they heard me talk about it. Finally payday had arrived. We all went to school that morning, knowing that our lives were gonna change that day I checked my bank account ensure enough the money was there. I could not wait till school was over.

On that day, my wife went to the school and took my sons away from me. I was working in my room. The principal and HR lady came to my room to tell me what it happened. It was one of the saddest days of my life, I immediately busted out in tears. I cried like a baby in front of all of them. I was so upset.

I was determined to get back to Alaska. I tried every way possible to get back to Alaska, but it was almost impossible. God was with me as I prayed fervently on the road that I called prayer road. I must’ve said over 1 million prayers out there, walking up and down prayer road in the middle of the darkness.

After the school year was over, I determined that God would direct my steps. He led me back to my dad‘s house. I stayed there sitting on the front porch praying fervently every day. God gave me a temporary job in California. I ended up flying to California on four separate occasions to do work. I was praying fervently in every place.

This part gives me strength every time I remind myself of it….

Finally, in the summer of 2024, God‘s providential plan came into fruition. It’s amazing looking back and recounting the events that happened. God opened up a door for me to go back to Alaska.

So, on August 19, 2024, my former company paid for my first class ticket for me to fly to Alaska. On July 28, 2024, I’ve been offered a teaching position in Alaska. I tried so hard to find a place to live in a car to drive, but was unsuccessful. However, I moved anyway, walking by faith and not by sight.

I was so convinced that God was about to answer my prayer of reconciliation. Everything was just lining up. Abraham was convinced that God would raise Isaac from the dead. Had he killed him. Likewise, I was convinced that before the plane landed, my wife would find a way to contact me and I would have a place to live in a car to drive. I was wrong.

I have now been in Alaska for over 18 months. I have suffered in every way possible. I’ve been homeless. I lived at the shelter. For a reason not my fault, I lost my teaching job on November 20. It was painful I was also the basketball coach and my team was 6-1. I loved my team.

However, God took care of me. The school had to pay my salary until the end of April 2025 I immediately started doing gig work to try and keep working while looking for a job in my first 10 days, I made $1600.

My time in Alaska has been very difficult again. I was homeless. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a basement for 4.5 months. I lived in the shelter for .5 months. My life was constantly unstable and difficult. I shed many tears.

I noticed that my faith began to get stronger. My love for God was also stronger. I belong to be with God and his very presence. Many times I pray that God would just take my life or send Elijah’s chariot to get me I wanted to go home to be with God so badly I was in so much pain.

I almost died on December 29. I went to a place called Murphy Dome to worship God. I knew that the sunset was gonna be incredible right behind Denali. I took my Lord‘s supper items up there with the intent of spending time and worship in that beautiful scenery. It was probably -40°F up there I got out of the van to take a video and some pictures and when I went to get back in the van, the door was locked.

Initially, I just walked around the van, hoping that I could find an opening through a back door or window. On the second time around, I started praying to God that he would help me because I was in a bad situation. I tried to break the window, but was unsuccessful and then could not speak in my face was numb. My hands were numb because I had no gloves I ran down to the bottom of the hill about .25+ miles. There were two women in an old truck. They were beautiful women. I didn’t want to scare them, but I went up to them and asked him for help. They ended up saving my life that day. I’ve often wondered if they were angels.

Why am I here?

I’m in so much pain. I miss my wife and children. I am not a perfect man, but I have always been a forgiving man. I stand prepared to forgive my wife for what she’s done. I keep praying that God will do what he needs to do to bring her to repentance. Honestly, I do not know how she lives with herself.

I miss my children deeply. I often see children at the store or at a restaurant and I see they’re pretty little faces and hear their voices and it reminds me of my children and I get really sad. I miss them so much.

Right now I’m in a tough spot…

I’ve been doing gig work ever since I lost my job as laboratory manager on June 21, 2025. I began to do very well at it but then I started having car issues. I had three blowouts in six weeks last summer.

In November, my van broke and I had to rent a car for the next five months to do gig work. I had a lot of success and was able to cover the rental car prices. I kept the rental car until the prices went too high nearly $100 a day so then I got my van back after it had been repaired and I used it to work.

Then my van wouldn’t start. So, I couldn’t work for over a week. And then suddenly it started so I worked for a few weeks and then the timing belt broke so I could not work for a month then my van was towed out of the parking lot where I live so frustrating

Finally, the rental car prices came back down from $57-$31. So I rented this last week for $31 a day. Tonight I have to pay for another week. It’s my only source of income.

However, I know on June 5, rental car prices will go back up to over $90 a day and eventually up to 150 a day I will not be able to afford a rental car at that point.

I am confident… I am confident that God will do something. He knows that June 5 is a day that I cannot control. There’s nothing I can do. I am confident that he’s going to step in in someway, but I don’t know how.

Of course, I wish my wife would contact me, and I could instantly have a place to live and a car to drive. I often imagine she and I doing gig work together, laughing and joking and delivering food and spending a lot of time together and getting to know each other again I hope and pray something like that will happen.

My only other real option is just to go back to Texas. I can stay at my dad’s house, but I will not have a job or a car to drive again. I’ll be stuck there waiting on God.

One thing I’ve learned is waiting on God is not a bad thing. It’s an opportunity to develop a greater faith and trust as much as I’ve been through, I feel like I’m a stronger person in faith in love.

Please pray for me

Family reconciliation
A comfortable good paying job
Stability
A good vehicle
Strength

Also, about a few years ago, I started having trouble with my belly button…. A hernia. It’s hurting me right now as I write this message the doctor said as long as it doesn’t hurt it’ll be fine, but it’s hurting just uncomfortably. I’m not sure if I can work in the morning.

My back is up against the wall. My rent is behind. The orders in gig work are just not the same as they were two months ago. It’s probably due to the changing seasons and more people out and working due to the change of season.

I am exhausted. Please God step in in a mighty way. Thank you for praying for me.

 

[Articles]

We hear your heart, brother, and we stand with you in fervent prayer, lifting every burden to the throne of grace. Your story is one of deep suffering, unwavering faith, and relentless trust in the Lord, even when the path has been dark and uncertain. You have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, yet you have not let go of God’s hand, and for that, we praise Him. The trials you have endured—betrayal, separation from your children, homelessness, job loss, and physical pain—are not unseen by our Heavenly Father. He collects every tear in His bottle (Psalm 56:8) and hears the cries of your heart.

First, we must address the brokenness in your marriage and family with truth and love. The actions of your wife in deceiving the court and taking your sons from you were not only unjust but sinful. Scripture is clear: "Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old man with his deeds" (Colossians 3:9). Her choices have caused deep pain, and we grieve with you over the separation from your children. Yet, we also hold fast to the promise that God is a God of justice and restoration. "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18). We pray that the Lord would convict her heart, lead her to repentance, and soften her to seek reconciliation with you, her husband, as God designed (Ephesians 5:22-33). Marriage is a covenant before God, and we stand on the truth that He hates divorce (Malachi 2:16) and desires healing for your family.

We rebuke the lies of the enemy that have whispered despair into your heart. You have questioned why you are still here, and we declare over you the truth of Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." Your life is not without purpose, even in this season of waiting. The Lord has sustained you through homelessness, bitter cold, and financial strain, and He is not finished with you yet. You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are deeply loved by the Father, who sees your faithfulness and will reward it (Hebrews 11:6).

We also lift up your physical health, particularly your hernia. It is not trivial, and we pray for relief from the pain and for wisdom in seeking medical care. The Lord is your healer (Exodus 15:26), and we ask Him to guide you to the right treatment and provide the resources needed for your recovery. Do not neglect this, brother, for your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20).

Now, we pray with you:

Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up our brother who has endured so much yet remains steadfast in his faith. Lord, You see his heart—his longing for his wife, his children, his stability, and his purpose. We ask You to move mightily in his life, to open doors no man can shut, and to provide for his every need according to Your riches in glory (Philippians 4:19). Father, we pray for reconciliation in his marriage. Soften his wife’s heart, Lord, and bring her to repentance. Restore what has been broken, and let Your love and grace flow between them. We also pray for his children, that You would protect them, draw them close to You, and prepare their hearts to reunite with their father.

Lord, we ask for a good and stable job—one that provides not only financially but also dignity and peace. Give him favor with employers and open opportunities that align with Your will. Provide him with a reliable vehicle, Lord, so he may work and move forward in life without the burden of uncertainty. We declare stability over his life, that he would no longer live in instability but in the security of Your provision.

Father, we pray for his strength—spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Renew his energy, Lord, and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). When he is weary, remind him that those who wait on You will renew their strength (Isaiah 40:31). Let him feel Your presence in a tangible way, especially in the moments when he feels alone.

We also pray for his hernia, Lord. Ease his pain, guide him to the right medical care, and provide the means for healing. Let him not be hindered by physical discomfort but be strengthened to do the work You have called him to.

Finally, Lord, we ask that You reveal Your purpose for him in this season. Even in the waiting, teach him to trust You more deeply. Let his faith grow stronger, and let his testimony be a light to others who are suffering. We declare that his best days are not behind him but ahead, and we trust You to turn his mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11).

We pray all these things in the powerful name of Jesus, the name above every name, the One who sustains us all. Amen.

Brother, we encourage you to hold fast to the promises of God. You have walked through fire and not been consumed because the Lord has been with you. The same God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Jesus from the dead, and who has sustained you through homelessness and heartache is still on the throne. He is not done writing your story.

Consider reaching out to a local church in Alaska for community and support. You need brothers and sisters in Christ to walk alongside you, to pray with you, and to encourage you. Do not isolate yourself, for iron sharpens iron (Proverbs 27:17). If you feel led, seek godly counsel—someone who can help you navigate the legal and emotional challenges of your situation. The Lord often works through His people, and you do not have to carry this burden alone.

Continue to pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17), and remember that God hears every cry of your heart. The psalmist wrote, "I waited patiently for Yahweh. He turned to me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay. He set my feet on a rock, and gave me a firm place to stand" (Psalm 40:1-2). This is your promise, too. The pit is not your home. The Lord will lift you out and set your feet on solid ground.

Lastly, we want to gently address the mention of your desire for God to "take your life" or send Elijah’s chariot. While we understand the depth of your pain, we must remind you that your life is not your own—it was bought with the precious blood of Jesus (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). Suicide is not God’s will for you, and we rebuke that lie of the enemy in Jesus’ name. You are here for a reason, even if you cannot see it yet. Cling to the truth that God’s plans for you are good, and He will complete the work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6). Your story is not over, and your testimony will be used for His glory.

We stand with you, brother, and we will continue to pray. You are not forgotten. You are not alone. The Lord is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Trust in Him, and He will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6).

 

[hostadmin]

Dear friend,

I'm sorry to hear about the struggles you've been going through. It sounds like you've been through a lot and I want you to know that I'm here for you. I've been where you are, feeling the pain of separation, the uncertainty, and the loneliness. But I also know that God is faithful and He has not forgotten you.

I want to encourage you to keep trusting in the Lord. He has a plan and purpose for your life, even in the midst of this storm. Remember, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose" (Romans 8:28). Trust that He is working things out for your good.

I also want to remind you that God is a God of justice and restoration. He sees your pain and He hears your cries. He will make things right in His time. Keep holding on to the hope that things will change for the better.

I'm here to pray with you and for you. I'll be lifting you up in prayer, asking God to comfort you, to strengthen you, and to guide you through this difficult time. I believe that God will answer our prayers and bring you the peace and hope you need.

Please keep reaching out to others in the church community. You need brothers and sisters in Christ to walk alongside you, to pray with you, and to encourage you. Remember, "Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil: If one falls down, his fellow can help him up. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, and has no one to help him up" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10).

Keep trusting in the Lord, my friend. He is with you, He is for you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will restore the years the locust has eaten, and He will be your rear guard and your front guard (Joel 2:25).

Let's continue to pray together for your situation. I believe that God will move mightily on your behalf.

In Christ,

[Your Name]

 

[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

Help in Prayer

Dwelling and Thriving in God’s grace where everything happens for good (Romans 8:28)

Finding Life and Salvation in Christ: A Roadmap

Pray that the Lord may open the eyes of the nations affected by coronavirus (Specifically forces against God’s people)

sermons

Be a Prayer Warrior: “Praying for others”

 

[Wingsofadove7]

Seek His Face and Presence not just His hand. In his Presence is everything you need. This does not mean you can have any material thing, perfect spouse because you asked for it in Jesus Christ name. You will have your needs, some of your wants, and difficult trials. The difficult trials are supposed to refine your character and make you more like Jesus. He is more interested in getting you to everlasting life and having your heart in the right place than he is in giving you gifts. It’s eternal life he’s concerned with.