Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Background:
In 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. I had been offered a teaching position in Texas. So, I took my sons and moved to Texas to set up our new home. My wife and daughter were headed overseas to visit family.
My wife and a Christian flew to Texas and took my sons unbeknownst to me while I was teaching school. It was one of the most painful days of my life. I have not seen my children since.
For a long time, I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. I begged God for reconciliation. Finally, in August 2024, I flew to Alaska courtesy of the company I had been working for in California. I was certain God was doing something.
It has now been one year. The last year has been so tough. I lost 3 really good paying jobs. I lived in the shelter 4.5 months. I lived in my van for 28 nights. Almost died on December 29, 2024, when I was locked out of my van in -23°F weather.
I pray, fervently dozens of times per day (Luke 18:1). I read the psalms every month and have read the psalms 30+ times since October 2023. They have become my necessary food.
I have now been unemployed since June 16. I have lost some really good jobs due to no fault of my own. It’s painful to have a really good paying job and then lose it. Money is so important in our society and without money life can get very difficult quickly.
Thankfully, God has given me DoorDash. It has saved me. It has lifted my head above waters (Ps 130:1). I am so thankful to God for it.
In addition to DoorDash, I also do Instacart and GrubHub.
Yesterday, a blessing which was huge to me, entered into my life. It may seem insignificant to others, but to me it was huge. From time to time, it seems like God steps in.
I could not access the bases despite being a veteran. However, a GrubHub order called me to go to the visitor center. And ask for access. Because I am a veteran, they gave me a year access. So, the problem I was having was no longer there. I prayed and thanked God five or 10 times over the next two hours.
Yesterday, Labor Day, I made nearly $300. I don’t say that to brag… I say that as credit to God. Also, someone reading this post may be in a situation that that information may encourage them as they go through their struggle.
I am still in a lot of pain! I wish God would simply take all my pain away. If he’s not going to take it away, I wish you would push the brain and cause me to forget everything about everything.
Trust me—I’m not suicidal, but I have plenty with God to take my life. I have never done that my entire life.. I’ve been through some really bad stuff. But the pain that I’ve endured over the last couple years has been so difficult I actually prayed on that God would exchange my life for a child that had recently passed away.
Again, the psalms have been like a B12 shot to my body. I read the psalms each month and last month. I read the psalms twice. I have already begun for this month.
My youngest son’s birthday is this month unless God intervenes with a sudden revelation, I will miss his birthday again. I am the kind of dad that goes overboard to make birthdays very very special..
God, I played with you, please restore my marriage and my family.
I have asked God… God, if you are not going to restore my marriage, my family would you please take me so far away from Alaska so that I can start over with a good job elsewhere?
So far, God has not moved me away. It makes me think God wants me to stay right here. Trust me, I have sent resumes all around this country in various places that may be people would not want (Maine, New Hampshire, etc). I have applied for jobs that probably a lot of people wouldn’t want to have.
Yes, I believe in Jesus Christ.
Last night, on my way home from doing gig work, I had an incredible prayer. I love the prayers where I feel like God is sitting in the seat next to me, and he and I are talking about my life.
I was so confident, 1000%, that God had given access to me to the base. Again, it may seem trivial to most people reading this, but to me it was like discovering gold underneath the car seat. It took away some problems that I was having with doing gig work.
In my mind, I have imagined my wife come back to me.
I have thought of all the scenarios of what I would do and what I would say… I think I would cry for the first 30 minutes as I saw my wife and my children for the first time in over three years.
God, I love you with all my heart… I trust that over the last year you have tried to make me into a better person through the various ups and downs of my existence. I have to trust you.
Please continue to pray for the following dear friends & prayer warriors:
Marital reconciliation
Soon, God, please soon.
Family back together as one.
A new career. A new job.
A new place to live.
I didn’t mention it above, but since I’ve been back in Alaska, I have lived in the following way:
4.5 months in a shelter
5.25 months in a nice apartment
28 nights in the back of my van
Two months in a basement (apt above)
At any moment, the owner of this home could ask me to leave the basement and I would be homeless or back in my van. With winter quickly approaching, I cannot live in my van in -45°F weather. I would die quickly.
I am exhausted.
It is 2:43 AM and I am up typing this when I should be sleeping. I just cannot sleep. I saw eight hours which of my body needs I know.
Thank you for praying for me!
Background:
In 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. I had been offered a teaching position in Texas. So, I took my sons and moved to Texas to set up our new home. My wife and daughter were headed overseas to visit family.
My wife and a Christian flew to Texas and took my sons unbeknownst to me while I was teaching school. It was one of the most painful days of my life. I have not seen my children since.
For a long time, I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. I begged God for reconciliation. Finally, in August 2024, I flew to Alaska courtesy of the company I had been working for in California. I was certain God was doing something.
It has now been one year. The last year has been so tough. I lost 3 really good paying jobs. I lived in the shelter 4.5 months. I lived in my van for 28 nights. Almost died on December 29, 2024, when I was locked out of my van in -23°F weather.
I pray, fervently dozens of times per day (Luke 18:1). I read the psalms every month and have read the psalms 30+ times since October 2023. They have become my necessary food.
I have now been unemployed since June 16. I have lost some really good jobs due to no fault of my own. It’s painful to have a really good paying job and then lose it. Money is so important in our society and without money life can get very difficult quickly.
Thankfully, God has given me DoorDash. It has saved me. It has lifted my head above waters (Ps 130:1). I am so thankful to God for it.
In addition to DoorDash, I also do Instacart and GrubHub.
Yesterday, a blessing which was huge to me, entered into my life. It may seem insignificant to others, but to me it was huge. From time to time, it seems like God steps in.
I could not access the bases despite being a veteran. However, a GrubHub order called me to go to the visitor center. And ask for access. Because I am a veteran, they gave me a year access. So, the problem I was having was no longer there. I prayed and thanked God five or 10 times over the next two hours.
Yesterday, Labor Day, I made nearly $300. I don’t say that to brag… I say that as credit to God. Also, someone reading this post may be in a situation that that information may encourage them as they go through their struggle.
I am still in a lot of pain! I wish God would simply take all my pain away. If he’s not going to take it away, I wish you would push the brain and cause me to forget everything about everything.
Trust me—I’m not suicidal, but I have plenty with God to take my life. I have never done that my entire life.. I’ve been through some really bad stuff. But the pain that I’ve endured over the last couple years has been so difficult I actually prayed on that God would exchange my life for a child that had recently passed away.
Again, the psalms have been like a B12 shot to my body. I read the psalms each month and last month. I read the psalms twice. I have already begun for this month.
My youngest son’s birthday is this month unless God intervenes with a sudden revelation, I will miss his birthday again. I am the kind of dad that goes overboard to make birthdays very very special..
God, I played with you, please restore my marriage and my family.
I have asked God… God, if you are not going to restore my marriage, my family would you please take me so far away from Alaska so that I can start over with a good job elsewhere?
So far, God has not moved me away. It makes me think God wants me to stay right here. Trust me, I have sent resumes all around this country in various places that may be people would not want (Maine, New Hampshire, etc). I have applied for jobs that probably a lot of people wouldn’t want to have.
Yes, I believe in Jesus Christ.
Last night, on my way home from doing gig work, I had an incredible prayer. I love the prayers where I feel like God is sitting in the seat next to me, and he and I are talking about my life.
I was so confident, 1000%, that God had given access to me to the base. Again, it may seem trivial to most people reading this, but to me it was like discovering gold underneath the car seat. It took away some problems that I was having with doing gig work.
In my mind, I have imagined my wife come back to me.
I have thought of all the scenarios of what I would do and what I would say… I think I would cry for the first 30 minutes as I saw my wife and my children for the first time in over three years.
God, I love you with all my heart… I trust that over the last year you have tried to make me into a better person through the various ups and downs of my existence. I have to trust you.
Please continue to pray for the following dear friends & prayer warriors:
Marital reconciliation
Soon, God, please soon.
Family back together as one.
A new career. A new job.
A new place to live.
I didn’t mention it above, but since I’ve been back in Alaska, I have lived in the following way:
4.5 months in a shelter
5.25 months in a nice apartment
28 nights in the back of my van
Two months in a basement (apt above)
At any moment, the owner of this home could ask me to leave the basement and I would be homeless or back in my van. With winter quickly approaching, I cannot live in my van in -45°F weather. I would die quickly.
I am exhausted.
It is 2:43 AM and I am up typing this when I should be sleeping. I just cannot sleep. I saw eight hours which of my body needs I know.
Thank you for praying for me!