Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16).
I have prayed without ceasing (1 Thes 5:17). I have prayed without giving up or fainting (Luke 18:1ff). I have prayed so many times; I’m tired of praying. I am exhausted.
Thank you for each and every person that has prayed for me. I am truly grateful.
Three years ago, my wife left me. She then proceeded to steal my children. I have not seen them since. I miss them terribly.
Marriage is for life. I believe that. Despite everything, my wife has done to me, I have forgiven her in my heart and mind. I have pleaded with God to bring her to repentance and to soften her heart. I trust that he’s been working on her.
In the USA, 80% of divorces are initiated by women. 90% if the woman has a college degree. It’s a sad state of affairs in this country. Rarely do people talk about the divorce rates and the ease at which people get divorced. Of course, divorce wrecks homes and lives.
I am the kind of father that loves my children and I love spending time with them. I would rather spend time with my children than do something fun for myself. I’m the kind of father that goes overboard on birthdays, trying everything to make them special and memorable.
Tomorrow, is my son’s birthday. Before he was born, I preached 12 or 13 sermons on different Bible characters indicating to the church that one of those names would be my son’s name.
In the case of Jonah, God sent a big fish. God can do anything to turn someone around in their life. I hope and pray that God is doing whatever is necessary to turn my family around. My heart aches.
I prayed with God to take me back to Alaska. He did on August 19, 2024. I moved to Alaska walking by faith and not by sight (2 Cor 5:7). I had no place to live and no car to drive but I went anyway.
The last year has been incredibly tough. I lived in the homeless shelter for 4.5 months. I lost three really good jobs due to no fault of my own. I lived in my van for 28 nights. I’ve gone on countless interviews for good jobs but nothing. My faith is strong but there are times I get really weak, especially early in the morning when I wake up.
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain top to worship God. It was a beautiful sunset with Mount Denali right behind it was -23°F and I got locked out of my car. God spared me that day; I should’ve died. It’s still amazes me how he spared my life.
Lately, I have been doing DoorDash and the like to keep my head above water. Trust me, my head is barely above water with everything, forcing the waves on top of me.
I see little blessings from time to time that amazes me and caused me to be thankful to God.
1. God spared my life.
2. The VA paid five months of rental & $700 on winterizing my car.
3. Learning to use DoorDash effectively. I can now confidently make $200 a day.
4. Permission to get on the military base, which helped me tremendously in my efforts in the gig economy.
5. Ms L let me live in her primitive basement apartment in her $1 million home for free a few days ago; she said I can continue to live here in the winter.
6. I had two tires blow out and a friend helped me and then I had roadside service the second time. I’m thankful.
So, I can see the hand of God in his protection and provision (Ps 23). However, my heart aches terribly.
I am not suicidal, but I have frequently prayed that God would let me go home to be with him as quickly as possible.
I see other people die, and I think to myself, please God replace me with them. So far, God has not done it.
My faith is strong despite weak moments. I read the psalms one to two times each month. It has helped me tremendously. I’ve also read the proverbs many times.
Please pray the following:
I need strength.
Marriage reconciliation.
Family back together.
A good job.
A good place to live.
Thank you for reading this post and for praying for me. I pray God will bless you in any issues in your life that are troubling or difficult.
I know God is working in our lives. I know that he holds our tears and bottles and cares deeply for us. I know that he is shepherding us and working on us to bring us to a better situation in this life and the next.
God bless you always you seek him (Ps 105:4). Thank you.
I have prayed without ceasing (1 Thes 5:17). I have prayed without giving up or fainting (Luke 18:1ff). I have prayed so many times; I’m tired of praying. I am exhausted.
Thank you for each and every person that has prayed for me. I am truly grateful.
Three years ago, my wife left me. She then proceeded to steal my children. I have not seen them since. I miss them terribly.
Marriage is for life. I believe that. Despite everything, my wife has done to me, I have forgiven her in my heart and mind. I have pleaded with God to bring her to repentance and to soften her heart. I trust that he’s been working on her.
In the USA, 80% of divorces are initiated by women. 90% if the woman has a college degree. It’s a sad state of affairs in this country. Rarely do people talk about the divorce rates and the ease at which people get divorced. Of course, divorce wrecks homes and lives.
I am the kind of father that loves my children and I love spending time with them. I would rather spend time with my children than do something fun for myself. I’m the kind of father that goes overboard on birthdays, trying everything to make them special and memorable.
Tomorrow, is my son’s birthday. Before he was born, I preached 12 or 13 sermons on different Bible characters indicating to the church that one of those names would be my son’s name.
In the case of Jonah, God sent a big fish. God can do anything to turn someone around in their life. I hope and pray that God is doing whatever is necessary to turn my family around. My heart aches.
I prayed with God to take me back to Alaska. He did on August 19, 2024. I moved to Alaska walking by faith and not by sight (2 Cor 5:7). I had no place to live and no car to drive but I went anyway.
The last year has been incredibly tough. I lived in the homeless shelter for 4.5 months. I lost three really good jobs due to no fault of my own. I lived in my van for 28 nights. I’ve gone on countless interviews for good jobs but nothing. My faith is strong but there are times I get really weak, especially early in the morning when I wake up.
On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain top to worship God. It was a beautiful sunset with Mount Denali right behind it was -23°F and I got locked out of my car. God spared me that day; I should’ve died. It’s still amazes me how he spared my life.
Lately, I have been doing DoorDash and the like to keep my head above water. Trust me, my head is barely above water with everything, forcing the waves on top of me.
I see little blessings from time to time that amazes me and caused me to be thankful to God.
1. God spared my life.
2. The VA paid five months of rental & $700 on winterizing my car.
3. Learning to use DoorDash effectively. I can now confidently make $200 a day.
4. Permission to get on the military base, which helped me tremendously in my efforts in the gig economy.
5. Ms L let me live in her primitive basement apartment in her $1 million home for free a few days ago; she said I can continue to live here in the winter.
6. I had two tires blow out and a friend helped me and then I had roadside service the second time. I’m thankful.
So, I can see the hand of God in his protection and provision (Ps 23). However, my heart aches terribly.
I am not suicidal, but I have frequently prayed that God would let me go home to be with him as quickly as possible.
I see other people die, and I think to myself, please God replace me with them. So far, God has not done it.
My faith is strong despite weak moments. I read the psalms one to two times each month. It has helped me tremendously. I’ve also read the proverbs many times.
Please pray the following:
I need strength.
Marriage reconciliation.
Family back together.
A good job.
A good place to live.
Thank you for reading this post and for praying for me. I pray God will bless you in any issues in your life that are troubling or difficult.
I know God is working in our lives. I know that he holds our tears and bottles and cares deeply for us. I know that he is shepherding us and working on us to bring us to a better situation in this life and the next.
God bless you always you seek him (Ps 105:4). Thank you.