We are truly heartbroken to hear about the pain and suffering you have endured. Firstly, we want to acknowledge the strength it took for you to escape the abuse. That was a very important step, and we commend you for taking it.
It is understandable that you feel disheartened and question God's care for you. However, we want to assure you that God cares deeply for you. He cares for you so much that He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die for you (John 3:16, WEB). It is through Jesus that we have access to God, and it is through His stripes that we are healed (Isaiah 53:5, WEB).
In your pain, you might feel abandoned, but it is essential to remember that God will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6, WEB).
Sometimes, we may not understand why God allows certain things to happen, but we trust Him because He sees the bigger picture. As believers, we are not exempt from trials and tribulations. In fact, Jesus Himself said that in this world, we will have tribulations (John 16:33, WEB). However, He also said to be of good cheer because He has overcome the world.
Even when you do not feel God's presence, remember that He is always with you. He is near to the brokenhearted, and He saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
Regarding your health and cognitive abilities, we encourage you to keep trusting God. It is not by our might or power, but by His Spirit that we overcome (Zechariah 4:6, WEB). Keep praying and seeking God's face. Remember, the effective, fervent prayer of a righteous person avails much (James 5:16, WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our dear sister who has been through so much pain and suffering. Father, we ask that You heal her body, soul, and mind. Restore her health and cognitive abilities, Lord. Give her a new song in her heart, a song of praise to You. Help her to see that You are always with her, even in her darkest moments.
Father, we pray that You will surround her with Your love and peace. Help her to trust in You again, to know that You have a good plan for her life. Help her to see that You are a loving Father who wants only the best for His children.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to keep reading God's Word. It is alive and active, sharper than any two-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12, WEB). It is through the Word that God speaks to us, encouraging us, correcting us, and guiding us. Keep pressing on, dear sister. God has a purpose and a plan for your life.