Anonymous
Beloved of All
A few weeks ago my boyfriend hit me so badly because I didn't inform of how long I will be to meet me. I thought I was going to die. He has forced me to have about 6 terminations in the past. ( so six pregnancies) He has sexual, emotional and physical abused. He has cheated on me and made me sleep with two of his friends. We have dated for about 3 years and everytime he had done something to me, Terrible I have forgiven him. what I need is God to give me the strength to get out of this toxic relationship. There is no promise of marriage or children. Even if we do get married, I'm afraid he will abuse me even more. I feel so broken as a woman, and just feel like I don't know if I will meet a good guy or the right guy for me. Im 31 and I've wasted mine life/time with him. Thinking about the terminations hurts even more cause it's like I have nothing. I have almost given up on love. Is there hope? I'm I too far gone. I feel like I can't be helped. My family are tell me to read proverb 31. And I don't how to be that woman. I don't think I can be that woman. I feel like I do not know where to start. I'm lost. I'm a mess! I don't know what to do.