seanathon
Prayer Warrior
I actually had a very good day today. It was a beautiful day; it was so clear and sapphire. I was graced with love today. It was truly awesome to be able to draw today. I actually have been drawing better than I have in my whole life. Some aspects of my drawing are coming back, and all the strengths that I have had were actually coming together, and even some of the creativity that I had when I was a kid. My mom, who is an awesome artist, has also been noticing, and I just wanted to say that it was such a privilege to draw for the video game company that I am working with. I would ask that the video game company would get love and respect, that the members of ### Studios would grow as friends and brothers and sisters, and that the love of Jesus would truly watch over ###, our leader at ### Studios. I just wanted to say that I am glad that I get to work with them. It is truly a privilege and an honor to be able to live the dreams I had when I was a kid of maybe someday making a video game. I ask for guidance to bring the joy of making a video game with all people who I meet who really would like to. I ask that you would help ### Studios to be ministers of peace and love in this age, that we could bring instruments of the Holy Spirit into the canvas of video games and that we could use the love that is in pop culture and aspirations of loving dreams in video games to redefine the genre and to revitalize the love that people would have connecting to each other through the medium. Video games are a big part of people's lives now as they grow up as kids and more and more as they become adults. It is a privilege to be able to imagine cool things and see them come to joyous life. I would ask for protection for ### Studios as a whole that the people that it meets would be friends to and a help like a servant, and Jesus, please show us how to get this company started and off the ground to help the people in ### and make it a thriving art colony that could help kids who don't see a future or hope to come to our studio and be able to make art and imagine and dream of love in life and of grace in the Holy Spirit in Jesus Christ's name. I pray, amen, and please be with ### and the other lead artists. I ask that we get along. I would ask for help being a friend to everyone at ### Studios and be able to forgive myself and anyone who I may not have been as nice as I should have been. It is an honor to work with the people at ### Studios, and it is fun to hang out with them. I would like to make them my friends, and I ask for help humbling myself or accepting humbling to live out my happy dreams that I had of being able to make video games with friends. Amen, and I would ask for help because I still feel interference, but I know it is a beautiful day in Jesus Christ's name. Amen.
On a more pleading note, I would ask for help and forgiveness to forgive and have a good relationship with my mom, ###. I realize that there is still brokenness in this house, and it was because of my actions. Also, she was dealing with lots of things when I had my problems in high school. It has been a slow recovery. Please help me to battle and defeat this anger that tries to well up in me, that tries to make me feel guilty and confused. I have had a lot of problems because of perhaps some unforgiveness that I have been holding, and I ask for the strength and the courage, the love, to be able to trust the Holy Spirit and to ask for help to forgive and to have a good relationship with my mom. Honestly, there are so many good dreams that I wanted to have with my mom. I wanted to learn to be an artist, I wanted to paint with her, I wanted to make her proud. I remember days in the past when I would watch with joy as she saw me as a Boy Scout. I would watch with joy as I played with her as a child, and now I need help because there are things that tell me that it is hopeless that my parents are too old. I've even been told by some that it is time to move on. Many kids my own age are trying to find jobs and are out on their own now. I am glad that my parents were gracious enough and loving and kind enough to help pay my loans. They have been incredibly forgiving and understanding, but I ask for help. I ask for help being forgiving and gracious to them, to care for them as they cared for me, to be a good brother and son to respect them, to not let irritation or anger (which is always unjust in the cases that I have been encountering) to be able to let me sing songs of respect for all they taught me, that I would respect ###, ###, and ###, and I would ask for help. Sometimes I get so confused; I fail at simple commands from my parents. I ask that there would be calming in this house, not by anger, silence, or aloofness, but by love, kindness, laughter, understanding, care, and compassion, that we would work with each other with love and kindness and gentleness, and that all of our fears would be healed by the sunlight of each bright new day. I have been dreading truly and honestly the future, but you have given great days. I ask that I give up my fears of the future that you would show me how to love and to truly and honestly work to be a good son and brother. You know that I feared to have to take care of the family when my father, ###, had Parkinson's, and I would ask for healing and calming of my nerves, and also that I could be especially gracious and generous to my family. Amen, and I would ask that love would conquer negativity. Also, that my bitter disappointment that I started having explosive anger and attention problems would also be healed. You know that I had huge disappointment when I was told I had a terrible illness I would not recover from, but then I had faith and did not believe the diagnosis, and now you have not only allowed me to be free from that diagnosis but you have had the doctor that gave the diagnosis confess to me that he was wrong and apologize for his overreacting. I ask for forgiveness for me because I thought I deserved and demanded help, instead of believing that you would see me through, I got anger. I thought that you were going to abandon me to a life of pain and sorrow that I could not recover from, and honestly, I thought I was going to die helpless. You know that this was my fear, that this illness that isn't even real would have robbed me of my life and the hopes and dreams and friends and family that I wanted to have. I love you for allowing me to hear that I do not have this illness, but I now ask for the strength to forgive myself for all the trespasses I have committed and ask for your healing grace to help me to heal completely from that heartbreak that I felt. I also wanted to thank you for allowing me to have the people in my life who helped me get through the rough time I had in the past. Now that I look at my past, some of the problems I had were understandable, but I just ask that things would get back to normal before all this bitter, stupid stuff, and in all honesty, I ask that high school and its problems would stay in the past as far as east is from west, removed and distant away from me. I would ask for healing and consideration and help for me to stay focused and calm in reality. I am realizing that you are giving me healing days of bliss and you are giving me protection. Sometimes I feel like if I could just do one thing that was genuinely loving, that my parents could just see that I truly care about them, that all would be okay, so I pray that I could today that I would stop being half-hearted and show my parents and my brother that I still truly and deeply love them. Jesus, please show them and all people that you love them infinitely deeper, and I would ask for forgiveness again and a calm, gentle night. Thank you for remedying all my terrible situations which I thought I would have to carry, and Jesus, thank you for the beautiful day. It is an awesome night, and I love the music you have given me to listen to this night and the last few days. This ballad singer is awesome, and may she be quadruply blessed at least for how awesome she has allowed me to remember the hopes I had when I was a kid. Thank you for the beautiful life, and I would ask for attentiveness and strength as well as a truly restful and silent light and a night in Jesus Christ's name. Although I have been through a dark night, I would ask for healing and true light to banish all the negative nightmares that have been trying to keep me in problems. I would ask for healing of my brokenness and that by grace I would come to you calmly and humbly. I am grateful that you have allowed me to get this far, but I know you have even better plans for me, loving plans that will come to fruition, and I would ask for the help to allow your plans for me in this life to bloom into sunflowers of love that I could bear good fruit. I would ask for help because honestly, it's been hard recently even though I know you are guiding me, it's been a struggle against compulsiveness, against darkness, against voices and delusions which aren't even real, and also, I admit that I may have had a huge part of this problem, but I know you want me to get out of the darkness of unforgiveness of myself. I ask for forgiveness to remember who I used to be and who I am supposed to be, not in a judgmental way but in a loving way like when I was a kid at Christmas when I would listen to my dad talk about Ireland and his childhood in Brooklyn, and my mom's childhood with her horses. I would just ask that this negativity and all that represents would simply no longer have authority or any power over me or anyone in my house or anyone anywhere, and I would ask for help to be able to get along with people because there has been something getting in my way. I worry that there is a serious fear in me, and I would ask that you would calmly bring me to warm shore. To all a good night, and I would ask that anyone reading this prayer would ask for peace, stillness, and a refinement of my prayer life, that I would be able to pray and listen to Jesus in a real and honest way and talk about what has been upsetting me in stillness and listen and accept the answer that he would say, amen.
On a more pleading note, I would ask for help and forgiveness to forgive and have a good relationship with my mom, ###. I realize that there is still brokenness in this house, and it was because of my actions. Also, she was dealing with lots of things when I had my problems in high school. It has been a slow recovery. Please help me to battle and defeat this anger that tries to well up in me, that tries to make me feel guilty and confused. I have had a lot of problems because of perhaps some unforgiveness that I have been holding, and I ask for the strength and the courage, the love, to be able to trust the Holy Spirit and to ask for help to forgive and to have a good relationship with my mom. Honestly, there are so many good dreams that I wanted to have with my mom. I wanted to learn to be an artist, I wanted to paint with her, I wanted to make her proud. I remember days in the past when I would watch with joy as she saw me as a Boy Scout. I would watch with joy as I played with her as a child, and now I need help because there are things that tell me that it is hopeless that my parents are too old. I've even been told by some that it is time to move on. Many kids my own age are trying to find jobs and are out on their own now. I am glad that my parents were gracious enough and loving and kind enough to help pay my loans. They have been incredibly forgiving and understanding, but I ask for help. I ask for help being forgiving and gracious to them, to care for them as they cared for me, to be a good brother and son to respect them, to not let irritation or anger (which is always unjust in the cases that I have been encountering) to be able to let me sing songs of respect for all they taught me, that I would respect ###, ###, and ###, and I would ask for help. Sometimes I get so confused; I fail at simple commands from my parents. I ask that there would be calming in this house, not by anger, silence, or aloofness, but by love, kindness, laughter, understanding, care, and compassion, that we would work with each other with love and kindness and gentleness, and that all of our fears would be healed by the sunlight of each bright new day. I have been dreading truly and honestly the future, but you have given great days. I ask that I give up my fears of the future that you would show me how to love and to truly and honestly work to be a good son and brother. You know that I feared to have to take care of the family when my father, ###, had Parkinson's, and I would ask for healing and calming of my nerves, and also that I could be especially gracious and generous to my family. Amen, and I would ask that love would conquer negativity. Also, that my bitter disappointment that I started having explosive anger and attention problems would also be healed. You know that I had huge disappointment when I was told I had a terrible illness I would not recover from, but then I had faith and did not believe the diagnosis, and now you have not only allowed me to be free from that diagnosis but you have had the doctor that gave the diagnosis confess to me that he was wrong and apologize for his overreacting. I ask for forgiveness for me because I thought I deserved and demanded help, instead of believing that you would see me through, I got anger. I thought that you were going to abandon me to a life of pain and sorrow that I could not recover from, and honestly, I thought I was going to die helpless. You know that this was my fear, that this illness that isn't even real would have robbed me of my life and the hopes and dreams and friends and family that I wanted to have. I love you for allowing me to hear that I do not have this illness, but I now ask for the strength to forgive myself for all the trespasses I have committed and ask for your healing grace to help me to heal completely from that heartbreak that I felt. I also wanted to thank you for allowing me to have the people in my life who helped me get through the rough time I had in the past. Now that I look at my past, some of the problems I had were understandable, but I just ask that things would get back to normal before all this bitter, stupid stuff, and in all honesty, I ask that high school and its problems would stay in the past as far as east is from west, removed and distant away from me. I would ask for healing and consideration and help for me to stay focused and calm in reality. I am realizing that you are giving me healing days of bliss and you are giving me protection. Sometimes I feel like if I could just do one thing that was genuinely loving, that my parents could just see that I truly care about them, that all would be okay, so I pray that I could today that I would stop being half-hearted and show my parents and my brother that I still truly and deeply love them. Jesus, please show them and all people that you love them infinitely deeper, and I would ask for forgiveness again and a calm, gentle night. Thank you for remedying all my terrible situations which I thought I would have to carry, and Jesus, thank you for the beautiful day. It is an awesome night, and I love the music you have given me to listen to this night and the last few days. This ballad singer is awesome, and may she be quadruply blessed at least for how awesome she has allowed me to remember the hopes I had when I was a kid. Thank you for the beautiful life, and I would ask for attentiveness and strength as well as a truly restful and silent light and a night in Jesus Christ's name. Although I have been through a dark night, I would ask for healing and true light to banish all the negative nightmares that have been trying to keep me in problems. I would ask for healing of my brokenness and that by grace I would come to you calmly and humbly. I am grateful that you have allowed me to get this far, but I know you have even better plans for me, loving plans that will come to fruition, and I would ask for the help to allow your plans for me in this life to bloom into sunflowers of love that I could bear good fruit. I would ask for help because honestly, it's been hard recently even though I know you are guiding me, it's been a struggle against compulsiveness, against darkness, against voices and delusions which aren't even real, and also, I admit that I may have had a huge part of this problem, but I know you want me to get out of the darkness of unforgiveness of myself. I ask for forgiveness to remember who I used to be and who I am supposed to be, not in a judgmental way but in a loving way like when I was a kid at Christmas when I would listen to my dad talk about Ireland and his childhood in Brooklyn, and my mom's childhood with her horses. I would just ask that this negativity and all that represents would simply no longer have authority or any power over me or anyone in my house or anyone anywhere, and I would ask for help to be able to get along with people because there has been something getting in my way. I worry that there is a serious fear in me, and I would ask that you would calmly bring me to warm shore. To all a good night, and I would ask that anyone reading this prayer would ask for peace, stillness, and a refinement of my prayer life, that I would be able to pray and listen to Jesus in a real and honest way and talk about what has been upsetting me in stillness and listen and accept the answer that he would say, amen.
